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Posted by confused , 20 November 2014 · 67 views

My husband won tickets for the family to go to Disneyland tonight, but I am not up to it. Too sad and anxious for the happiest place on earth. They just left.

I talked to my tdoc earlier. She said the noise in my head sounds like my anxiety is high and not like psychosis. She suggested I do some things I like, to relax. So, I am going to try to relax...


My dad is getting worse

Posted by confused , 20 November 2014 · 69 views

He is very ill and on hospice at home. He has fallen twice this week. My mom hurt herself trying to help him up. I think they need more care than hospice can provide. I don't know if in-home care is an option. Some of my siblings are pretty well-off if it is expensive.


Inner voice in overdrive

Posted by confused , 20 November 2014 · 45 views

I posted about this, but it is still bothering me. I see pdoc next week.

I have been dx with schizoaffective bipolar type and social anxiety. I have a lot of anxiety in general, too. I don't know if this is a normal thing or worth mentioning to my pdoc.

I have an inner voice, like everyone, that narrates what I have said or done. Mine has been talking...


I am able to do some things by myself

Posted by confused , 19 November 2014 · 63 views

I have gone to visit my parents in Northern California twice recently. The first time, my sister bought me a ticket. She flew separately, but we arrived at the same airport and rented a car and drove together. The last time I flew up alone. My mom made a big deal that I was able to rent a car by myself. She was going on and on about how she was impressed...


I guess I am okay

Posted by confused , 09 November 2014 · 68 views

i visited my parents Friday and Saturday. My dad is much stronger. He can go outside and for short walks. But, his memory is really bad. He can remember my kids if I talk about them or they talk to him, but if I ask he doesn't remember them. He asked where I live and what I do. I told him I try to stay sane, and that I have had trouble with that in the pa...


I guess I should shower

Posted by confused , 28 October 2014 · 94 views

I am volunteering in the same building as the dialysis clinic. Today the children dressed up and went trick or treating to the different offices. We signed up, but we are at the end of the hall. I have heard children in the hallway but only one group came in. Someone told me to move my chair to the doorway, but I really can't work like that. I sent an e-...



Posted by confused , 24 October 2014 · 91 views

Trigger Sexual abuse of minor no details

A teacher at my son's middle school is being held on charges that she had relations with a male student. They have been investigating for awhile, but she was charged today and now it is in the news. My son didn't have her as a teacher and is not involved at all. I don't know what to think. They are just kids 13/14.


Time manangement

Posted by confused , 24 October 2014 · 58 views

I have free time, yet it slips from me. I waste time napping or on the internet. I have things I want to do. If I have chores on my to-do list they usually get done. I worry about starting anything in case something comes up even if I don't have anything planned for a couple of hours,

I saw tdoc today. She suggested scheduling my day. The main thing I...



Posted by confused , 22 October 2014 · 67 views

I am so tired. I sleep but I am still tired. I am trying to start getting into an exercise routine. I know what I want to do, but I can't get there. I am extremely lazy but it is more than just that. I have had a lot of fatigue (I think it is med related ). My pdoc added topamax and it seems worse.

I know if it was an appointment I would be there, though.


Hell has frozen

Posted by confused , 22 October 2014 · 70 views

My daughter, who has given me screaming, tantrums, yelling, attitude since infancy told my son to be nicer to me. That is all

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