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Be My Eyes

Posted by Angeni Mai , 28 January 2015 · 59 views

I just came upon a great way to help others, without even having to leave home, thanks to a friend. Basically what you do is sign up and then volunteer some of your time via the app to be available to describe things via video to a person on the other end whom is blind.

http://www.bemyeyes.org/


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A decent day

Posted by Angeni Mai , 27 January 2015 · 21 views

Today was actually a good day. Spent most of it skyping with my Love. Had a wonderful time talking to him.

I finally heard back from the neuropsych who will be screening me for ADHD and Bipolar and he said to come in on February 17th at 6pm. I am ready to find out what is really going on.


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Mood swings, insomnia, and the likes

Posted by Angeni Mai , 25 January 2015 · 63 views

Well, despite having a tdoc appt yesterday, my mood swings and insomnia got the better of me. I ended up taking a lot of trazodone yesterday and slept for about 14 hours after taking it. I feel better than yesterday (not suicidal for one) but my mood is still all over the map.

I need to call a neuropsychologist tomorrow, by request of my tdoc, to see whe...


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Old poem

Posted by Angeni Mai , 22 January 2015 · 45 views

Through Another's Eyes by Linsey Lynn Matthews © 2011

We do not realize
what we have.
We know not of love
nor of hate.
We only want to leave behind what we have
and move on from today.

The new day dawns,
and we see what we feared;
Our dreams have lead us down the crooked path
and clear over a precipice,
which alters our lives
for better and for wo...


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Not sure but more sure than ever

Posted by Angeni Mai , 21 January 2015 · 72 views

It seems my mood has evened out ... for now.

Checked my account and it is now sitting at -$47.29. With any luck, I'll have at least $100 left out of the tuition refund to make sure there isn't additional deficit and fees associated with insufficient funds in the account.

I had some wild mood swings yesterday and ended up taking 200mg of Trazodone as o...


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No hope

Posted by Angeni Mai , 17 January 2015 · 138 views

It seems like every time I get one foot in front of the other, something always comes along to knock me back 20 paces.

Saw my pdoc on Thursday. Told him the Pristiq isn't working and that I'm having more trouble than usual sleeping. All he did was give me Trazadone in addition to the Pristiq and told me to come back in 3 months. I feel like he isn't list...


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Thank you

Posted by Angeni Mai , 01 January 2015 · 151 views

Thank you to my parents for not seeing my pain.
Thanks to my friends who knew and didn't care.
Thanks to the strangers who seemed to care but I could never open up to.
Thanks to myself for being a loser and idiot. The mediocre person nobody wanted but everybody was stuck with.

Thanks to myself for setting myself free.


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No faith, help/ advice welcomed

Posted by Angeni Mai , 05 December 2014 · 137 views

How do you believe in yourself when you don’t have faith that you can do anything? I’ve always done this thing where I don’t believe people when they tell me good things about myself but am quick to believe people who tell me I am terrible and ugly.
My issue is that I think I am going to bomb my church solos and I need to figure out how I can have fai...


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Some hope but I need your guys' help

Posted by Angeni Mai , 21 November 2014 · 147 views

So, I entered a scholarship competition and that's giving me some hope but I need your help to get to the top 5. Please vote for me at http://www.drpeppertuition.com/#goals ... Mine is "Linsey M".

If you don't feel like my goal is worthy, then vote for a goal you feel is worthy.


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Never good enough

Posted by Angeni Mai , 12 November 2014 · 164 views

Yesterday, well, technically two days ago, I was offered an audition for a spot in the local a capella group named Inner Harmony. I was thrilled for about an hour but then the doubt set in - what if I'm not good enough? What if they don't like my voice or say I suck? What if I have to go IP or am at tdoc or pdoc during rehearsals? What if .... what if ......


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.... insert meaningless title here ...

Posted by Angeni Mai , 08 November 2014 · 134 views

Words. What do they all mean? I mean, we all know how to use them to - build each other up, tear each other down, give our condolences, show our gratitude, send our love, etc etc etc - however what, in the grand scheme of things, do all of these words really mean? Do they really tell how we feel or are they simply as deceiving as the faces around us? How...


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Prayers finally answered!

Posted by Angeni Mai , 27 October 2014 · 164 views

It has been a trying few weeks between leaving my sister's house due to her boyfriend, her refusing to speak to me until I pay them, etc., but one of my prayers has finally been answered. I received the SSA's decision regarding my SSI claim. It was APPROVED!

I am more relieved than words can convey. It feels as if the clouds have lifted and the weight o...


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Facebook stupidity (RANT)

Posted by Angeni Mai , 30 September 2014 · 174 views

Before you read, grab some popcorn and a drink. This is long and better than a soap opera and drama series combined.

My sister posted a status about me a little while ago and tagged my best friend in it. She is so technologically challenged that she doesn't realize that I can still post on her status via my other profile that I have not blocked her o...


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Back home

Posted by Angeni Mai , 30 September 2014 · 109 views

I got back home at 2:09am on Sunday, September 28th. Things simply did not work out with me moving to my sister's house because her boyfriend is an asshole who is physically, mentally, verbally and emotionally abusive. I am glad to be out of there and away from that. I could not deal, let alone live with, someone like that for an extended period of time l...


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Irritated to no end

Posted by Angeni Mai , 26 August 2014 · 191 views
anger, irritation, thoughts
I swear that the universe is trying to tell me I will not be approved for SSI. My lawyer's secretary and I were supposed to have an after hours call so that she could get the info for the ADR from me but she called last minute to tell my dad and I that we'll have to have the call tomorrow at 6:30pm because she forgot that she has to take her dad to the do...


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Long three weeks ahead

Posted by Angeni Mai , 24 August 2014 · 161 views

I am excited and nervous about the next three weeks. The breakdown is like this -

Week 1 - August 25th to 31st:
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1) Call the pro-bono mental health clinic to set up an evaluation, 2) make an appt to go see the gdoc by Friday, 3) call and get my medical records from IP stays, 4) talk to lawyer's secretary to fill out disability report, 5) meet with law...


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Memory issues causing fear and terror

Posted by Angeni Mai , 16 August 2014 · 163 views

I have been dealing with some memory issues for a couple months. I'm going to make an appointment to talk to my PCP about this but I would like to know what you all think.

My memory was fine before I stopped taking my meds in May. My memory seemed fine for a while afterward but soon it got to the point where I could not remember things I had thought 2...


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To be honest

Posted by Angeni Mai , 10 August 2014 · 132 views
TBH, Self, image
To be honest I hate receiving compliments 99% of the time. I feel like people are either just telling me what I want to hear or l feel like they give me compliments so that they can laugh about things and talk about me behind my back. I don't know if I'll ever be able to accept compliments without feeling like people have an ulterior motive for praising m...


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I created a facebook group ...

Posted by Angeni Mai , 01 March 2014 · 218 views
Facebook, networking, art, love and 2 more...
Well, as the title suggests, I've created a Facebook group. It's a group for people who have a diagnosis or suspect having Borderline Personality Disorder and like to dabble in the arts. No matter your medium, all art is welcome. Please read the rules in the description of the group.

https://www.facebook...13934418858869/

I hope to get this...


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Lets help our friend out!

Posted by Angeni Mai , 21 February 2014 · 196 views
helping others and 1 more...
Not really much to report. School is going well. Life is going well.

Just wanted to help out a dear friend. You can help too! Please click on the link below, then "like" and "share". That's all you have to do to help out. 150 likes is the goal and it will help them get their new car. All help is much appreciated!

https://www.facebook...alvillesuper...






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