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Posted by aura in illuminations, 26 April 2015 · 34 views

Today I have too, too much to say and too much I want to do. Everything is perfect. My body is tingling. I'm feeling today what my tdoc calls "euthymic plus," which means for me mild elation + a feeling of stability and control. With the help of risperdal I'm sleeping a solid 6 hours (I usually need 8) and feeling completely capable of handing the million...


Insane Oscillations

Posted by AbsurdAlien in AbsurdAlien's Blog, 26 April 2015 · 26 views

Disclaimer: For some, this post will confirm my trainwrecky status. Don’t read if fragment sentences happen to be a pet peeve of yours.

While trying to organize the computer files in my writing folder, I started reading old diary entries from 2010 right after leaving my ex-husband. Absurdly funny and embarrassingly sad. Of course I only wrote when feeli...


Why ?

Posted by dragonfly23 in dragonfly23's Blog, 26 April 2015 · 65 views
bipolar, depression

Hard night last night. Its not like I have not gone out for dinner since I quit drinking. I have gone a number of times. Even when others are drinking and it was okay. I have been surrounded by bars and not had a drink.
I gotta try and get through this weekend and not drink. The worst of the urges have passed, (I think) I just want and need to get hig...



Posted by Geek in Geek's Blog, 25 April 2015 · 73 views

I am going to die alone. I will live alone with no one to talk to but the dog. No one will (or could) ever love me. So I will be alone.

You're going to tell me this is my MI, that it's not true. You'll say it's almost midnight and I should go to sleep, that it will hurt less when I am rested.

Except, going to bed hurts too. There's no one there stealin...



Posted by snarkygirl in snarkygirl's Blog, 25 April 2015 · 34 views

I've been popping ativan all day trying to keep my anxiety under control. It's taken the edge off but it's still there. Ever since my last therapy session where my tdoc mentioned addressing my trauma I've been a mess. Crap I thought was buried and forgotten has been flashing through my mind during the day. It's like my mind is set on torturing me, looping...


Just Saturday

Posted by BlurredBoundaries in New Year, New Blog, 25 April 2015 · 78 views

I went to bed early and got 11 hours of sleep, which was nice but, I could sleep forever.Thought I'd have to work today but that got canceled, so now I'm just at home and trying to avoid my wacky family, so I'm just sitting all alone in my room.

I had big plans to clean up,paint my nails,exercise, and put all my cds into this cd storage binder thing tha...



Posted by neverender in IdiOSYncraTIC, 25 April 2015 · 33 views

setting up my new ipod classic, making lemon pepper chicken, downloading a playlist for meditation...
finally feeling like i'm in control.
this is pretty great. much better than it was yesterday. i was so sad i suddenly switched to pure rage and had to do all that i could to not take it out on my boyfriend, who is the only one who talks to me on a regular...


Paranoid and intrusive thoughts and idk

Posted by ananke in My mad fat blog, 25 April 2015 · 28 views

Internally I have this big red ledger where I keep all of my transgressions and faults and failures and there are so many I'm pretty sure it's stopped being one book and turned into a whole library.

I think I'm stained. I have this big indelible mark on my forehead that lets everybody know just how awful I am, like a rolling information board of all the...


I'm better off dead then...

Posted by MattMVS7 in My idea for depression/pleasure that I want scientifically tested/proven, 25 April 2015 · 247 views
depression, recovery, medication and 5 more...

I am a hedonist which means that feelings of pleasure are the only things that define my life as good (even though I still have full empathy and compassion towards my family and other innocent people as well). However, it is actually only my own feelings of pleasure that define my personal life as good and nothing else since I am only in my own mind and n...


Bowling and pizza with A. and R.

Posted by Sawi in Sawi's Blog, 24 April 2015 · 70 views
pictures, a. and r. and 6 more...

My mood was a bit down this week, so I figured I will write about some more adventures.

Bowling and showers - an evening with A. and R

So, the day after the party I went to A. and R. They are a couple that I have known for two years. We met via Internet, and met in person in a swingers club. We got a pretty good connection, and I slowely became good...


No Love Lost

Posted by Devotchka in Devotchka's Blog, 24 April 2015 · 67 views

I've always loved fiercely, and terribly.
Fiercely, because i don't let the people i love get away with much bullshit. I'll rail and rage and never let you off the hook. I won't let you be weak, or less than you are. But when i fuck up, i'll admit it.
Terribly, because i will keep doing it even until it's laying in tatters and shreds around me, and...


Faced another fear

Posted by writehellarandomshiny in The Real World Editorial Of SpriteandShiny, 24 April 2015 · 70 views

I bungee jumped even though I'm terrified of heights! At least I think that's what it was - I jumped with safety gear from 30 feet. Was soooooo fckn terrified but I did it.


Feeling comfortably numb

Posted by SanitysOverrated in SanitysOverrated's Blog, 24 April 2015 · 62 views

So I got into it with my bf last night. BIG SURPRISE! It seems that I knew it was coming..it always does. He says he's trying to "get back what we had" and that I am not trying. I told him that just because he decides to flip a switch, doesn't mean that I operate like that. He said, well Im trying to be more cuddly with you. I told him that grabbing my bo...


I'm done.

Posted by jobert99 in jobert99's Blog, 24 April 2015 · 61 views

I'm tired of not giving a fuck about the future and focusing on the past like it's some place I can go back to when the past wasnt all that good to begin with because it led me to where I am now; bored with life. Aka drugs don't make you content they always leave you wanting more.


Possible New House

Posted by MooMeMa in MooMeMa's Blog, 24 April 2015 · 62 views
new house

And by house, I mean a double wide trailer.

Here's the situation: this guy my Mom knows owns a garage. We own a small, crappy house that has a big plot of land (not massive but a decent chunk) and most of it is just a small thicket of trees, the main road and then his garage. Well turns out he needs more land so he can park cars because he has no space...


Probably hypomanic.

Posted by SoaringRaven in Raven's Ramblings, 23 April 2015 · 58 views

Forgetting to eat, making out with Aly for hours, trying to convince my partner that to allow me to be polyamorus, spending over $100 on lingerie, having a beyond fucked up sleep schedule, spending plenty of "alone time" in the bedroom when my partner is busy with schoolwork... yeah... I'm pretty sure that I'm hypo right now.

The past few days have been...



Posted by yarnandcats in the yarn closet, 23 April 2015 · 62 views
body, sick

went to GP
(when was that?)
(uh, sure)

she said:
we don't have bronchitis
do we have any other
"lung obstructions"
(COPD, asthma, etc)

she's chalking up
the breathing issue
a neurological cause
brain damage from seizures

well, we did have
a Great Big Seizure
and then
have quite a bit of trouble
breathing afterwards



Not sure what to believe

Posted by confused in confused's Blog, 23 April 2015 · 59 views

my mother had always told us our father had done important work in electrical engineering. At his memorial my brothers talked about how he had a hand in developing individualized circuitry that I don't understand. But, he didn't leave behind enough to pay funeral costs. He was very smart, maybe not financially, but lacked social skills. they did work with...


Scared of getting better

Posted by katie.goodair in My Little World, 22 April 2015 · 74 views

Had a bit of a breakdown today. I'd been plodding along so well, but the cracks had started to show the last couple of weeks, and today I just fell apart. Mum was very good, she's beginning to understand me a bit more.

We were talking about my fear of the future. I fear the future big time, I fear that I'm never going to be happy, I can't see a future wi...


I'm elated

Posted by netsavy006 in Andy's Blog, 22 April 2015 · 102 views

I'm elated. My GI doc gave me a prescription on Monday but wasn't sure if it interacted with my psych meds, so the GI doctor's office contacted my psych doctor and he returned their call. Well I was advised by phone this afternoon that the psych doctor approved my being able to take this prescription. I'm so happy so that I can start this med and work...

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