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Ugh

Posted by Crayforme in Crayforme's Blog, 18 April 2014 · 69 views

So here goes it...
I am currently on SSDI for MDD with psych feat., GAD, Insomnia and traits of BPD. I've struggled with MI since childhood. I have lost countless apts, jobs, relationships and even custody of my child due to my insanity.

Insanity, yes. I feel I am losing my mind slowly but surely. I had been going to a counseling center here and been see...

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life continued

Posted by magpie in magpie's Blog, 18 April 2014 · 76 views

things worth living for:
-some people
-knitting
-music/viola
-potential at school
-the gym

questionable things:
-people are going to die and leave me
-my depression has made me fall behind
-I've been depressed since age 12

I'm just another life on this earth and I'm wasting my time being depressed. Idk what to do. I either need adderall or suicide. It's...

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Progress

Posted by Squish in Squish's Blog, 18 April 2014 · 25 views

I spent about 3 hours doing good reading in the library. I need to use it more, it is too easy to just go to bed if I stay in my room. It's because of being so tired and sitting upright is tiring in itself, sometimes.

I'm hoping that if I get going early tomorrow I can manage 5 hours-ish before I have to stop. If I start at 10 and carry on til 1, then do...

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Creeped Out

Posted by MisterJoshua in Transmissions from the Northern Country, 18 April 2014 · 76 views

I need to know if people think I am overreacting about this, so please give me your thoughts.

About 3 weeks ago I saw my therapist for my usual Thursday night appointment. As I was turning to head out the door, he squeezed my shoulder and said something. I was totally creeped out and could swear that I still had his hand right on my shoulder for days aft...

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just need to bitch

Posted by BlurredBoundaries in BlurredBoundaries' Blog, 18 April 2014 · 82 views

I woke up so angry yesterday cause this lady I work for (this lady always annoys me) texted me to ask if I could come by early cause she woke up with a swollen toe.Really? You're that helpless cause your toe is swollen? I've worked through a whole day with a broken toe...and a broken finger.It's really not that big of a deal that you wore shoes that hurt...

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food & regret: ana thoughts

Posted by sourlemon in sourlemon's Blog, 18 April 2014 · 35 views

I had a small piece of cookie yesterday. I wanted to see if I would enjoy it. I didn't. In fact, I laid in bed thinking about it. This thing was in my body, like some poison- a toxin that was sure to make me gain 100 pounds overnight.

I went into identification and realization mode technique that I picked up in past treatments:
1. Identify your feeli...

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So Far So Good

Posted by amicyco2 in A Cutter's Life, 18 April 2014 · 45 views

It's been a week since I made that promise to my PCP not to cut and so far so good I haven't done. Not that there hasn't been urges or screams to do it I just stayed strong and hid my blades. Out of sight out of mind they say so it must be true....maybe.

My cat spicey has decided to sit on top of my chair nibbling my hair on the back of my neck....I l...

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Strangers

Posted by MrTastybutt in MrTastybutt's Blog, 18 April 2014 · 60 views

Ze kid was in a much better mood today and last night. We laughed about farts. We are so 12.


Right now the lawn guys are taking care of the hedges and cutting the lawn. Every two weeks after this. I don't know why they freak me out so bad. All the doors and windows are locked and covered. Logic tells me that they won't look and report to my new shrink t...

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I feel sane -Ohys-

Posted by Bixo in Bixo's Blog, 18 April 2014 · 48 views

Hi.

I feel pretty good about myself.

Yeap, I am weird. Yap, I cannot trust people. Yeap, I am distress....Though...This is not from my head...It is from the environment.


I like my weird stuff; my weird stuff are these kind of weird things that are created inside my head -not outside-


I perceive everything very very weird today. I love it :P

Uhm...I...

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New med combination

Posted by writehellarandomshiny in The Real World Editorial Of SpriteandShiny, 18 April 2014 · 85 views

Well, I'm pleased to report that the ambien works REALLY well to sleep. I guess that 10mg is over the Federal FDA recommendation for women, but the doctor still prescribed it and the pharmacy did not say anything. Coworker is watching for any abnormal behaviors. She knows me really well, too, so she can say, "Hey, Liz? Um, why are you buying 100 cans of...

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a confession

Posted by yarnandcats in the yarn closet, 18 April 2014 · 69 views
tdoc

a confession
remember how i wrote the post "finished"
a few days back?
i want to be finished
with this entire Mental Health Beast/Fiasco
(bite my thumb at it)
(flip it off)
(whatever)

emotionally, tho'
i'm still EXTREMELY angry
as evidenced by a phone call yesterday
J called the ACTT person
that we had not heard from
to ask "why have we not heard from...

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Just done

Posted by malachite in The Depression Files, 18 April 2014 · 119 views

I had a hard day. They are all hard days. Despite this, I walked 45 minutes, ate an entire bunch worth of kale chips, tried to defend myself to pdoc, ate fruit salad and tutored kindergarteners. But just to balance it out, I felt pure hatred for my bf for not being able to pronounce words or even read them, really, I ate 5 goddamn cookies and self medicat...

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I am a writing a book

Posted by Likeabowlof0ranges in Likeabowlof0ranges' Blog, 17 April 2014 · 96 views

I know it doesn't seem like a big deal to anyone.

Anyone can write a book, all you do is open up your brain and let the words fall into the right place on the page. I have always wanted to write, not in the sense that I want to be a prolific author, but to just write. It's only been about a week of actually writing, but the characters have been in my hea...

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You're actually doing good?

Posted by upset.the.world in The Language of Brokenness, 17 April 2014 · 82 views
signing

I got to answer that in unadulterated honesty today. First time, like, ever. "I'm good!"

I was at my old junior college at a magazine signing/debut. I'd gotten an entry in before I'd dropped out and got invited to the unveiling today. My piece was inspired by mood disorder, duh, and it was first place and stuff, so it was way cool. A girl sitting a coupl...

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Nightmares

Posted by PinkCloud in PinkCloud's Blog, 17 April 2014 · 75 views
ptsd, nightmares

Hi,

I don't want to go into detail about my trauma, but I have PTSD. I've had nightmares literally every night for many, many years. If I have a normal dream that isn't a nightmare it is just the exception, and it usually precedes or follows a nightmare anyway.

The more stressed or depressed I am, the more individual nightmares I have in a single nigh...

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Hitting the wall

Posted by craftikin in I don't know yet, 17 April 2014 · 45 views

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh!
More later.

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why

Posted by Chimako in It's Where My Demons Hide, 17 April 2014 · 72 views

so angry and agitated today. okay, it's because of easter maybe and the fucking sun who the fuck knows. I think of all the crap the tdoc has told me to do and okay sure it maybe will help but what is the fucking point???? At work I just hide, nobody gives a shit if I'm angry. At home I just hide as much as I can because if DH sees me being anything...

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Feeling Slightly Useless

Posted by shesellsseashells in My Life by the Shore, 17 April 2014 · 76 views

I screwed up, overslept and missed my interview at Lowe's this morning. Ugh. I'm nervous about the possibility of a "real job". I had an awful day on Tuesday: unhelpful pdoc appointment, weird conversation with boss at work, forgot to take meds and felt strange, left car lights on so battery died and was late for class, pouring rain, didn't eat all da...

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About me.

Posted by dpshaw in dpshaw's Blog, 17 April 2014 · 94 views

So, I’m on match.com and I’ve got a profile that all rainbows and roses about me.

But here’s what I’d really like to write.

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Am I an artist?

Posted by saintalto in Saint Alto the Penguin is Plastic Love, 17 April 2014 · 84 views
art, painting

I've struggled with lack of motivation lately. It all just feels a little hopeless to me. I have no contacts in the art world to further my chances of showing after I graduate and I can't even seem to find motivation to maybe further myself online via Tumblr or other social networking sites.

When I say I am an artist, I have only a quiet sense of disbel...



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