Fuck Off! No Wait. Fuck Me Now! http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php Wed, 17 Mar 2010 21:19:41 +0000 60 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36721-feeling-worse-on-the-meds/ better? I guess my question is this: if one med doesn't work right, will any of them work right? Or am I just doomed?]]> Wed, 17 Mar 2010 21:19:41 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36721-feeling-worse-on-the-meds/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36688-real-or-perceived-abandonment/ Tue, 16 Mar 2010 19:02:46 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36688-real-or-perceived-abandonment/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36645-improving-the-moment/
So like this morning, I got up feeling shitty after a difficult interpersonal conflict the night before, and some financial worries were on my mind. To make my moment improved, I walked to the bank, getting some fresh air, and I sorted out my financial worries. This afternoon I am going to tidy up so I feel less guilty about the state of my house, and prepare for a fun event happening later this week. I also called a voluntary mental health centre about events I could attend in future.

So what is distressing you right now, and how can you improve the moment?]]> Mon, 15 Mar 2010 14:53:46 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36645-improving-the-moment/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36612-bpd/
It does make alot of sense. She showed me the DSM criteria for BPD and asked if any parts of it related to me. Alot of it did. My continual suicidal thoughts, my difficulty in maintaining relationships, outburst of anger, emptiness, quick mood changes (that I now realise are affected by situations ie work, money), impulsivity.

I'm not sure whether a therapist (well I think she is a Counselling Practioner) can firmly diagnose, even though she has said she doesn't like to. But, I do remember a pdoc once saying to me that my mental health problems are not errogenous but more to do with personality. She has also referred me to group therapy later this year that specifically deals with BPD.

I have been off work for the last two weeks. I really can't face work anymore, it is the second time I have been signed off with depression in a year. They seem alright about it but I know they are probably getting pissed off with me. But then again i don't really care.

Thanks for reading]]> Sat, 13 Mar 2010 21:55:09 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36612-bpd/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36600-i-think-im-having-normal-moods/
One coping statement I learned from DBT is "my feelings are like a wave that comes and goes" but for a long time, they REALLY weren't.

I'd just get stuck in this quicksand of depression or anxiety or whatever and it would just spiral out of control.

But for a while now, I've been feeling feelings that are...moderate in intensity. Moderate intensity feelings are a WAY new experience for me.

And they really ARE like a wave - they come and then they PASS.

That's new. It feels funny. But I'm pretty proud of the work I'm doing. I'm actually GETTING BETTER ]]> Fri, 12 Mar 2010 23:49:59 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36600-i-think-im-having-normal-moods/