CrazyBoards: OCD

Fucking ants

Wed, 28 Jul 2010 16:40:55 +0000

I woke up this morning to dozens...not thousands of little black Argentine ants crawling all over my kitchen counter next to my husbands coffeemaker.

LITTLE black ants. Not jungle ants or fire ants. They're BLACK not red.

If they were red, or bigger - I would have to move out. Seriously.

So my hubby trails behind me rubbing his eyes and sees me spraying Windex on em. He turns right around and goes back to bed, for like a half hour.

THEN my "checking" starts. We have a smallish house - 1 story so it doesn't take long to check my house.

All the floor boards, the ceiling (I know...but they come in through the ceiling, little bastards) all the walls, the floors. Takes me about 1/2 hour to 2 hours depending on my level of
anxiety.

I have to do self talk the whole time "there's nothing there, just MOVE THE FUCK ON" or "you don't have to spray so much"

The other day there was ONE ant near a hair brush and I freaked out. Now I started tapping my hairbrushes and everything else I pick up to knock the ants off of the item. Of course there's nothing there but I do it anyway.

My hubby finally gets up and it's taking me everything I have in me not to go check some more. I pulled up my hair and the little hairs feels like bugs.

Fucking A.

And to top it all off, it's another 2 hours before he leaves for work so I can't really do an in depth checking and spraying until he leaves - it drives him crazy and makes me feel ashamed.

It's really a fucked up situation.

I was at a friends house the other day and as soon as I saw ants in HER house I looked for signs from her to leave...she yawned a few times and I told her I should get going... it was probably a good time anyway.

I wear glasses but I can spot a tiny teensy black ant 20 feet away. I'm hyper all over it. It's crazy.

I feel like I have to spray the house and go buy more spray before hubby gets home.

My daughter is coming today, haven't seen her since... I think once since Thanksgiving and now I'm pissed because she's going to interfere with my checking and spraying.

I need to call my tdoc.

This sucks

thanks for letting me share

,tempestia

Stepping on cracks...

Mon, 26 Jul 2010 14:33:03 +0000

I avoid stepping on cracks on the sidewalk or on tile, etc. I have to step over at least 4 cracks and maybe one extra for a "buffer" or something bad will happen. Sometimes I have to step over all the cracks and people notice. Is this part of OCD? Does anyone else do this?

OCD Screening Test

Thu, 22 Jul 2010 19:12:25 +0000

http://psychcentral.com/ocdquiz.htm

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Ia m frightening people b/c I am talking to myself.

Mon, 19 Jul 2010 23:26:32 +0000

I have DID and apparently can block stuff out for years. I put this under OCD b/c what I have remembered happened between 1979- 1994 and it just came back to me about 3 months ago. I am walking around having conversations with someone I knew then. It is about to send me over the edge. Pdoc said to increase my klonopin. I have, but keep forgetting to take it during the day. I keep going over conversations we had. I don't think this person is here,I am not hallucinating that. I just keep going over and over what we said to each other. The other person is now deceased so I can't talk to them in real time. I am scareing people b/c I l'am talking to myself, and I am so stressed I can't stop doing it. Is there any long acting drug that might help this? I already take seroquel at night but can't go up on dose due to TD.
Any suggestions other than to get drunk and stay drunk?

Trichotillomania Book

Wed, 14 Jul 2010 01:34:57 +0000

I haven't read it, but we get enough web hits for this that I thought leaving this link out might be helpful to someone. It's got a lot of good reviews. It's also in the OCD section of the crazystore until we can figure out a better place to put it.