Could You Say That Again? I Was Listening To My Head. http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php Mon, 09 Nov 2009 04:12:50 +0000 60 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33613-medication-alternatives/
I only got recently diagnosed when I was 19. Well "recently" being almost 3 years ago. I am only "mildly" adhd. But I wonder what my test results would be if I didnt fuck with the test. The main test I took for ADHD is a computer simulation. A letter would appear randomly in a certain color. Every time that letter with that color appeared you press the space key. And ofcarse other random letters would appear every once in a while, in the same color sometimes, as well as the one letter in a different color. At first I was extremely impulsive, hitting the key every time I saw the letter (no matter the color) or even just a random letter...kinda like "ooh OOH!! *click* *click* *click*". Then I got bored. And after the middle of the test I stopped "playing the game" (the psychologists words) completely. I dont know maybe i balanced myself out with the two major extremes... impulsivity and *ooh shiny* to utterly bored and *moved on* attitude.

I just dont know.

I have always wanted to give a stimulant another shot. However, with my psychotic symptoms and tics, that could be a bad thing. And so far my pdoc just wont have it.

I know talk therapy doesnt help. But is there a certain therapy i should be aware of? or maybe a work book (hey they can work!)?

I am desperate. I want to read a book. I have not read a whole chapter book in 2 years (honest to god), and I did it in one night with I was at a hyperattention mode. I say I hate reading, but love writing. But I only "hate" reading because I can not sit down and concentrate. And when I do try I dont comprehend what I just read. so I read the same pargraph 3 times. then i still dont completely understand because i wasnt paying attention. and then i give up.

Any suggestions would be awesome.]]> Mon, 09 Nov 2009 04:12:50 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33613-medication-alternatives/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33550-overactive-imagination-leading-to-delusions-wtf/
It really fucks with my head.

Is it really just a story I tell myself for entertainment? Or is it actually delusional? I do believe them...so Im thinking the second...

I recently put in for a job that I am dying gto get, and I am starting to do what I did above. Its is more than likely I will not get this job. But I think I WILL get this job and it WILL solve my problems and it WILL make me happy. I am trying SO hard not to think this way. I dont want to get my hopes up (which I obviously will).

Advice? Thoughts? ANYTHING is welcome. If I liked to be cyber-touched I would ask for a hug.]]> Fri, 06 Nov 2009 02:55:15 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33550-overactive-imagination-leading-to-delusions-wtf/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33186-do-i-have-add-adhd-or-its-just-me/ Sat, 17 Oct 2009 05:20:34 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33186-do-i-have-add-adhd-or-its-just-me/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33110-adhd-etc-dsm-v-workgroup-report/ http://www.psych.org/MainMenu/Research/DSMIV/DSMV/DSMRevisionActivities/DSM-V-Work-Group-Reports/ADHD-and-Disruptive-behavior-Disorders-Work-Group-Report.aspx

Not final, just an ongoing report.

Stuff I thought was interesting:

They're talking over the the ADHD/ADD (hyperactive vs inattentive) distinction. Apparently evidence doesn't really support the subtype distinction doesn't hold up well empirically. I couldn't figure out what they were concluding there.

They think three major dimensions - hyperactivity, inattention, and impulsivity - should be assessed separately, and that impulsivity may have been underconsidered as a factor

They want to change the criteria for adults to reflect different manifestations of similar problems over time. (For example, you have different options for impulsive behavior as an adult than as a kid.)

They're considering revising the symptoms-present-before-age-7 criterion, but want to keep it earlier than when people tend to abuse drugs and develop mood and psychotic disorders. (I'm assuming because that would make it easier to differentially diagnose it? Although I read in the review I mentioned above that there's not much justification for setting it before the mid-teens.)]]> Wed, 14 Oct 2009 01:30:01 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33110-adhd-etc-dsm-v-workgroup-report/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33083-my-house-is-trashed/ attempting to get organized! I signed up for all these so-called "helpful" e-mails, and my inbox has been inundated with all this information I can't possibly keep track of at this point. My mind won't keep up.

I don't know if disorganization is a hallmark trait for people with ADD, but I'm so far gone that I can reasonably affirm myself a hoarder. You guys would freak if I posted pics. It's not that the house is dirty, per se; I keep the main living areas habitable, but the back bedrooms and basement truly look like the proverbial bomb hit them. You know what? I will post pics. Maybe it will embarrass me enough to light a fire under my ass.

I look at the piles of boxes and junk and books and clothes and papers, ad infinitum, and my mind just slams into reverse. Or turns the page. Or I experience a "deer in headlights" moment. I just never get anywhere.

It's like this: I might be vacuuming, decide it would be a good idea to check the mail, and with the vacuum still running, stop on the way to brush my teeth, continue brushing on the way to the mailbox, come back in, spit the toothpaste out, continue vacuuming, forget where I left the mail when I came back in, and retrace my steps to the mailbox to discover I left my toothbrush in there. Did I mention the vacuum has been running all this time? And oh shit! Is that where the mail went? Lol.

I don't know what to expect from posting this, but at the bare minimum, I'd be grateful to discover I'm not alone....]]> Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:54:57 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/33083-my-house-is-trashed/