Let WHAT Be My Fucking Umbrella? http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php Sat, 20 Mar 2010 03:41:45 +0000 60 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36778-how-can-you-explain-depression-to-a-person-who-doesnt-believe-in-it/ Hi all,

I feel bad for posting this, my problems are pretty petty but I was hoping that I could get some advice. It is a bit long so please excuse me.

I have been depressed / anxious as long as I remember, I started seeing a psychiatrist bit over 3 years ago and we have been trying to find something that works. I am boarding at the moment, however I am being kicked out after telling them my problems and a situation where I was sick but they thought I was on drugs and gave me a heap of shit over it. I hadn't told anyone what I was going through until a car crash last year. So I am moving back into my mums place, nowhere else to go really, she mentioned that my sister who lives in another state has a friend who was a clinical Psychologist who was giving her some information. I asked for a copy of the email but just got excuses, had a look on her computer today (not thinking my mum was hiding anything) and found an email which shook me up a bit. I will just cut bits out of it.

"Hi darling

Well, this email is about Alex

He is a mess and I have reached a point of despair" - I didn't think I was that much of a mess and thought I was hiding things pretty well.

"He has been to a few clinical physiologists but sooner than later he stops going. He thinks they are useless, that he knows all that they are trying to teach him, after all he did study physiology at uni!!! So you can see the vicious circle I guess it is easier to keep swallowing tablets. He is addicted, he is a hypochondriac"

I never thought psychs they were useless, I am just trying to find someone who can understand my situation. but the part which got to me was "He is addicted, he is a hypochondriac" I never thought I was addicted, I only take my medications exactly as prescribed, but now I don't know am I just making this up? The panic attacks, The self harm, the times where I crawl up in a ball underneath my desk and can't stop sobbing, are they real or just a belief in my head.

It also goes on to say "I am exhausted Both boarders have moved out (she had overseas students staying with her). They did not want to share with him. Financially it will impact greatly on me will take it one day at the time and hopefully we will learn to live together It is not going to be easy" She hasn't said any of this to my face, and I don't know what to do. The most logical thing would be to move into a share house, but with my social anxiety and depression I don't know if I can.

any thoughts would be nice, but I really don't know what to do here ]]> Sat, 20 Mar 2010 03:41:45 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36778-how-can-you-explain-depression-to-a-person-who-doesnt-believe-in-it/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36728-no-help/
I don't matter, I'm not real, my problems are nothing.

I didn't tell her, though I wanted to, about another "problem" that I'm having. Three weeks ago I ordered some meds on the web, even though I'm basically broke. These pills can be used in a cocktail to off yourself. It gives me a bit of hope to think they're coming. But they're not, apparently. I did my research a bit and these pills should be legal and much easier to obtain than the other meds, but still no word. Probably I got ripped off, even in this small thing. I would like to have at least this little piece of the puzzle around, whether I do anything with them or not.

Forgive me for bringing that up. But being fired from treatment, that's the kind of thing that happens to me. That's why I bring it up.]]> Thu, 18 Mar 2010 00:34:28 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36728-no-help/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36678-really-down/ skipped work today, just tired of it all. The commute, my dead life, my car is breaking down, life is grey me. No color. My antidepressant is just a sugar pill I guess. I want to disappear and be done with this mess. Sick of talking to people all day on the phone, like a machine. Sick of all the silly childish rules at this dumb job. Wanna go away. Tue, 16 Mar 2010 11:39:08 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36678-really-down/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36352-so-frustrated/ Sun, 07 Mar 2010 05:09:46 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36352-so-frustrated/ http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36279-infatuations/
Before I knew it, I was googling this girl and realising how incredibly gorgeous and lovely she seems. Became somewhat addicted. Still am - and I'm not an ice skating fan in the absolute slightest.

No doubt, I'll soon move onto someone else.

So ... is it just me? Is it a male thing?]]> Wed, 03 Mar 2010 06:14:31 +0000 http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php/topic/36279-infatuations/