Posted 06 May 2006 - 05:20 PM
I hope some of my experiences and advice can help you and other people. I'm 27 (almost 28) and have been DXed since I was 7. I went from childhood, through my puberty, and into adulthood with my disorder, and knowing I have it. I also watched my parents struggle with it, and my dad died from it. My sister spent a year in her teens institutionalized due to it.
For me personally, I have usually about 4 major moods per year. Usually I have a "nice mix" of depressions, manias, and mixed episodes thrown in there. I don't go hypo very often. Usually it is from "normal" to a little higher, and within a week I'm batshit crazy. I also have psychosis in my deep episodes, so that makes it all the more joyful.
I've noticed that even though I have major mood episodes, that doesn't mean other episodes don't sneak in and overlap kind of in a way. I can be in a depression but have a smack of mixed or mania get in there for a week or two, then it is depression again. The mixed or manic episode feels dark, so there is still depression, which is why I think those other episodes just superimpose on the underlying ones. Just my theory.
I usually have these mini-cycles about every month. It is like break-through menstral bleeding or something. Weird.
A lot of this is controllable for me by hormonal birth control. I think it can be related to PMDD. This theory comes from my childhood experience. When I was a kid, my episodes lasted for months and did not have these shorter/thinner ones over the major ones. I think these newer ones have got to be related to my adult body.
DX-BP1 w/psychotic symptoms, PTSD, ADD (Inattentive), and body dysmorphic disorder
Daily RX- WB 300mg, Lamictal 400mg, Abilify 20mg, Adderall XR 30mg, Inderal 10mgx2, Nuvaring
a multi-vitamin, hair/skin/nails vitamin, super 50-b complex vitamin, flax oil
prn- Zyprexa 10-20mg for emergencies
In memory of my dad, BP1 suicide. I love you and miss you!
EX RX- Seroquel, Risperdal, Geodon (master of all that is evil), Zyprexa (the good stuff), Zyprexa Zydis, Trazadon, Depakote, Lithium, Serzone, Paxil, Effexor, Lexapro, Haldol, Strattera, Topamax, Symmetrel, other old school ACs, and more I can't remember now
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