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Wow, I don't even know where to start. Here I am at an undisclosed location, borrowing a computer and not logging in to *anything* because I'm afraid he can trace me if I do (I don't know how these things work). I'm not staying here long because he's smart and it won't take him any time at all to figure out where I holed up. As soon as I can figure out mode of transportation on the limited funds I have, I'm out of here. I don't want to get the person who's sheltering me in the middle of this.
I don't think he has bipolar. I think he has schizophrenia. I mean - holy hell, it's been a strange ride these last five months. I was beginning to lose my own grasp of reality because he insisted that I said things I never said, and he claimed to he did things I knew I'd done myself. A couple of weeks ago, he started talking to himself, at first I thought he was on the cellphone because he was always in the other room when this happened, until I realized that most of the time the cell phone was in the same room as me. On our last night together I asked him who he'd been talking to all those times. He claimed it was, "...just someone I argue things over with. Used to be a man, but lately it's been a woman."
Our arguements grew more and more frequent and just a few days ago, it got physical. He was manic as hell working on two hours of sleep in three days. He acted drunk, running into walls and slurring his words, but he hadn't been drinking. He was irrational, and there I couldn't talk any sense into him. Things just went out of control. No, he didn't hit me; we grabbed each other in the heat of the moment. I grabbed his shoulders, he grabbed my throat - something he still insists never happened. I told him to leave. He refused. I called the police. They said they couldn't do anything because he was living with me. I knew things were not going to go right. After the police left we argued again, for FOUR HOURS!!! He wouldn't stop. He kept saying, "How could you lay your hands on me, then call the cops?" Even after I locked myself in the bedroom, he kept knocking on the door and insisting that we "work it out". It was a nightmare. I finally came out of the bedroom to quiet him down because it was after ten PM, and after another two hours of arguing, he fell to sleep.
I had to bail. Since the only car we had was his, and I wasn't getting arrested for grand theft auto, I waited until he was at work, grabbed what could fit into two bags and I left (mode of transportation undisclosed). I know, I just know that he will follow me if he knows where I am. I don't think he's the shooting type (though he owns two guns), but I needed to be where he couldn't find me. There's a not-so-deep suspicion in me that he will stalk me given half a chance. I can't deal with that. So here I am, no car, no home, nothing, and I'm not going back there.
He's such a great person when he's lucid, but I really wish I'd listened to you guys back when this all began. Now I feel like the biggest idiot ever. Why, oh why is love so blind???
I didn't listen to y'all
and things have gone terribly wrong
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Posted 01 December 2007 - 03:03 PM
wow...I don't really know what to say here, but I am going to reply beacuse no-one else has yet.
I´m so sorry you´re in this situation, it sounds scary has hell. It's good that you're taking care of yourself and taking extra precautions concerning your whereabouts and not leaving traces or revealing anything here, even if it might seem a bit paranoid - because like you say, you never know. From what you write, it sounds like you're keeping a clear head which is good too.
Do you have anybody to confide in? Maybe the person you're staying with?
Please keep us updated.
I wish you all the best.
I´m so sorry you´re in this situation, it sounds scary has hell. It's good that you're taking care of yourself and taking extra precautions concerning your whereabouts and not leaving traces or revealing anything here, even if it might seem a bit paranoid - because like you say, you never know. From what you write, it sounds like you're keeping a clear head which is good too.
Do you have anybody to confide in? Maybe the person you're staying with?
Please keep us updated.
I wish you all the best.
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Posted 01 December 2007 - 03:42 PM
That sounds extremely scary. You did a good job getting out.
Is there a local women's shelter you can go to, or call for advice? They may be able to help you figure out what best to do next.
Is there a local women's shelter you can go to, or call for advice? They may be able to help you figure out what best to do next.
I'm not a healthcare professional. I'm just another crazy person.
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Posted 01 December 2007 - 04:25 PM
Oh boy, my daughter went to the apartment to get some of her things. She took her marine boyfriend with her. She said that he freaked them out with the way he carried on - crying and praying in a corner the entire time. The boyfriend went to far as to de-arm his guns he worried them that much. She tried to go while he wasn't there, but he's *always* there if he's not working. She said she's thinking of bringing a police escort next time. The only thing he said to her about me was, "Tell her to call me."
I know better than to call him, or contact him as he's been begging me to do via voice messages and email. I feel guilty that I'm hurting him like this, but I couldn't stay with him or we would have both gone into madness. I wish there was some way I could ensure his safety. I'm pretty sure I can't call the police, and I don't know who else to call - other than his family (whom he's estranged from).
It pains me to know he's in pain. I still love the man (strange isn't it?), but I'm not responsible for him or his actions. I can only make sure that I'm safe and sound, staying there would have resulted in neither.
I know better than to call him, or contact him as he's been begging me to do via voice messages and email. I feel guilty that I'm hurting him like this, but I couldn't stay with him or we would have both gone into madness. I wish there was some way I could ensure his safety. I'm pretty sure I can't call the police, and I don't know who else to call - other than his family (whom he's estranged from).
It pains me to know he's in pain. I still love the man (strange isn't it?), but I'm not responsible for him or his actions. I can only make sure that I'm safe and sound, staying there would have resulted in neither.
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Posted 01 December 2007 - 04:36 PM
graduation day, on Dec 1 2007, 02:03 PM, said:
Do you have anybody to confide in? Maybe the person you're staying with?
Please keep us updated.
I wish you all the best.
Please keep us updated.
I wish you all the best.
The person I'm staying with is great - really - but doesn't like to hear about these things. The subject is changed *every time* I bring it up. I can't blame the person I'm staying with really, as it's an unpleasent subject, but it's difficult for me to keep in bottled inside.
I feel bad for popping on here after all of this time and dumping this bombshell. I didn't come on crazyboards for so long because he was ubber suspicious about everything I did - convinced that I was cheating on him. He accused me of it directly twice, though I was nothing but faithful to him. The slightest variation in routine was cause for suspicion, and he doesn't trust forums - forums lead to meeting people (read: flirting with men). He also thought that forums like these "give me" thoughts I normally wouldn't have.
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Is there a local women's shelter you can go to, or call for advice? They may be able to help you figure out what best to do next.
There might have been one in the city I started in, but I don't know about here. I can check online and see. I'll wait until the person I'm staying with is away though, because the subject is so upsetting to them.
I wish I had a way to earn money before moving on, but I don't know if that would be too risky...
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Posted 01 December 2007 - 07:03 PM
Patheral, you can always use the computers at your public library and no one will ever be able to trace where you were.
Is this the guy you were having a long-distance romance over the phone with----and then he showed up one day? I'm glad you let us know you're alive, because I thought he was pretty scary.
If you can't find anything on line, call or visit the police department. They will know of a local women's shelter, and that's where you belong. They will give you a safe place to stay and help you to find an apartment and a job, etc.
You may still love him, but the man has serious MI issues and you can't save him. Get yourself to a safe place and don't worry about what happens to him. He sounds seriously unmedicated and out of control.
I'm very glad to hear from you and I hope you stay in touch with us.
olga
Is this the guy you were having a long-distance romance over the phone with----and then he showed up one day? I'm glad you let us know you're alive, because I thought he was pretty scary.
If you can't find anything on line, call or visit the police department. They will know of a local women's shelter, and that's where you belong. They will give you a safe place to stay and help you to find an apartment and a job, etc.
You may still love him, but the man has serious MI issues and you can't save him. Get yourself to a safe place and don't worry about what happens to him. He sounds seriously unmedicated and out of control.
I'm very glad to hear from you and I hope you stay in touch with us.
olga
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Posted 01 December 2007 - 09:40 PM
I just wanted to say please stay safe (as safe as you can). You seem to have a good head on your shoulders, even through all this trauma.
Wishing you well.
Wishing you well.
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Posted 02 December 2007 - 04:35 AM
You seem logical right now, sometimes emotions take over and we all lose almost all perspective. At least you woke up to reality before something worse happened, right? I don't know what to say, except please take care of yourself!!
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Bipolar I, OCD
Meds:
Lithium ER 1350 mgs.
Lamictal 300 mgs.
Risperdal 3 mgs.
Anafranil 225 mgs.
Klonopin 2 mgs.
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Bipolar I, OCD
Meds:
Lithium ER 1350 mgs.
Lamictal 300 mgs.
Risperdal 3 mgs.
Anafranil 225 mgs.
Klonopin 2 mgs.
Doxepin 100 mgs.
Fish Oil 1440 EPA
960 DHA (8 capsules)
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Posted 02 December 2007 - 05:00 AM
hi,
i know you are working on being safe. i wish for you much strength.
love,
december
i know you are working on being safe. i wish for you much strength.
love,
december
dx: bipolar 1 & anxiety
current meds:
abilify 2mg
lithium 1200mg
lunesta 3mg prn
xanax xr 3mg
zoloft 100mg
levothyroxine .075mg for thyroid
other meds ive tried: ambien, effexor xr, lamictal, paxil, provigil, seroquel, trazodone, wellbutrin xl 150.
current meds:
abilify 2mg
lithium 1200mg
lunesta 3mg prn
xanax xr 3mg
zoloft 100mg
levothyroxine .075mg for thyroid
other meds ive tried: ambien, effexor xr, lamictal, paxil, provigil, seroquel, trazodone, wellbutrin xl 150.
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Posted 02 December 2007 - 06:08 AM
Path,
I hate to see your life in upheaval again. But I am so glad you are safe. If he is unmedicated, he is dangerous. If he should get anywhere near you, call the police and say he is a danger to himself and to others. Please take care of yourself and let us know how you are doing. We do worry about you.
Sondra
I hate to see your life in upheaval again. But I am so glad you are safe. If he is unmedicated, he is dangerous. If he should get anywhere near you, call the police and say he is a danger to himself and to others. Please take care of yourself and let us know how you are doing. We do worry about you.
Sondra
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Trazadone 200 mg. at bedtime
Estrogen patch 0.1 mg on ass 2x week
Metoprolol 25mg 1x daily
Simvastatin 40mg 1x daily
DX: Bipolar I
Dr. Seuss
RX:
Topamax 50 mg 2x daily
Abilify 5 mg 1x daily
Wellbutrin XL 450mg AM
Ativan 2 mg at PM
Trazadone 200 mg. at bedtime
Estrogen patch 0.1 mg on ass 2x week
Metoprolol 25mg 1x daily
Simvastatin 40mg 1x daily
DX: Bipolar I
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Posted 02 December 2007 - 06:56 AM
Patheral,
Now is not the time for self blame, no one here wishes to take the opportunity to yell 'told you so!', we just want you to be safe. I'd contact a woman's shelter. And the police, if a potentially psychotic man with firearms in an emotional state, is on the loose.
Now is not the time for self blame, no one here wishes to take the opportunity to yell 'told you so!', we just want you to be safe. I'd contact a woman's shelter. And the police, if a potentially psychotic man with firearms in an emotional state, is on the loose.
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DX: borderline personality disorder
RX: Lofepramine, Lithium and Risperidone
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Posted 02 December 2007 - 03:34 PM
Thank you to everyone for your well wishes. I can always find support on these boards.
I'm in something of a dilemma... I see the logic of moving on, finding a women's shelter, and staying hidden. I know it's the best thing to do. However, the person I'm with right now insists that I don't do anything until after Xmas. And Xmas is still so far away... This person claims it's for the best, and that ~he~ won't be able to find me here.
I know that if I bug out, this person will be incredibly insulted and it may ruin a long-time friendship that I can ill afford to lose. Right now, I'm guarenteed of two things, a roof over my head and food to eat. Safety and all that, well that remains to be seen. I really don't want this person to become involved in all of this madness, but this person insists that the madness will not follow me here, and if it does then we can handle it...
There's no convincing this person - they are certain I have found a safe haven for the time being. I know I doubt the safety of being here for so long. But this person says that they'll have need of me in a few weeks (they're going into surgery), so my arrival was an unforseen blessing to them.
I tried to compromise... I said that if I stayed here for that long, I would stay in the house and not go anywhere - that way no one would know I'm here. They thought this was a silly precaution and have even mentioned shopping sprees and holiday parties! I just don't think they see the seriousness of the situation.
Ugh!
I'm in something of a dilemma... I see the logic of moving on, finding a women's shelter, and staying hidden. I know it's the best thing to do. However, the person I'm with right now insists that I don't do anything until after Xmas. And Xmas is still so far away... This person claims it's for the best, and that ~he~ won't be able to find me here.
I know that if I bug out, this person will be incredibly insulted and it may ruin a long-time friendship that I can ill afford to lose. Right now, I'm guarenteed of two things, a roof over my head and food to eat. Safety and all that, well that remains to be seen. I really don't want this person to become involved in all of this madness, but this person insists that the madness will not follow me here, and if it does then we can handle it...
There's no convincing this person - they are certain I have found a safe haven for the time being. I know I doubt the safety of being here for so long. But this person says that they'll have need of me in a few weeks (they're going into surgery), so my arrival was an unforseen blessing to them.
I tried to compromise... I said that if I stayed here for that long, I would stay in the house and not go anywhere - that way no one would know I'm here. They thought this was a silly precaution and have even mentioned shopping sprees and holiday parties! I just don't think they see the seriousness of the situation.
Ugh!
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Posted 02 December 2007 - 05:31 PM
If he finds you, you could be hurt or killed. Or your friend could be hurt or killed, or both. Or other people. Does he know where your daughter lives? Or any of your other relatives or friends? The sooner you start taking steps to keep yourself and others safe, the less likely it is that you/your friends/family could be harmed.
Without knowing more details, it sounds like the person you're with doesn't understand the potential danger, and wants you to wait until after Christmas because they're concerned if you act sooner you might not be there when they go into surgery.
Without knowing more details, it sounds like the person you're with doesn't understand the potential danger, and wants you to wait until after Christmas because they're concerned if you act sooner you might not be there when they go into surgery.
I'm not a healthcare professional. I'm just another crazy person.
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Posted 03 December 2007 - 01:28 AM
hi,
path - i guess i interpreted your last post a wee bit different than resonance. meaning that i thought the person you are staying with wants you to stay until xmas because it may give you time to think. and not do anything "rash" or without fully thinking about it.
but i also see where resonance was going in her post. I agree that everyone needs to be super safe!!!
much peace,
december
path - i guess i interpreted your last post a wee bit different than resonance. meaning that i thought the person you are staying with wants you to stay until xmas because it may give you time to think. and not do anything "rash" or without fully thinking about it.
but i also see where resonance was going in her post. I agree that everyone needs to be super safe!!!
much peace,
december
dx: bipolar 1 & anxiety
current meds:
abilify 2mg
lithium 1200mg
lunesta 3mg prn
xanax xr 3mg
zoloft 100mg
levothyroxine .075mg for thyroid
other meds ive tried: ambien, effexor xr, lamictal, paxil, provigil, seroquel, trazodone, wellbutrin xl 150.
current meds:
abilify 2mg
lithium 1200mg
lunesta 3mg prn
xanax xr 3mg
zoloft 100mg
levothyroxine .075mg for thyroid
other meds ive tried: ambien, effexor xr, lamictal, paxil, provigil, seroquel, trazodone, wellbutrin xl 150.
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Posted 03 December 2007 - 07:40 AM
I think you're both right. I think the person I'm staying with doesn't want me to do anything rash and wants me to get my "head on straight" before I rush off, but I also think that they want me to stay until they're out of surgery...
I am so aware of the potential dangers. I've always had a dread of being stalked, but never *really* thought it could happen - however I've gone over what percautions to take if it does. I think resonance is right... I need to rethink my strategy, even if it means putting my relationship with this person in jeopardy. After all, better estranged than dead.
I've put a donation button for paypal on my myspace to try and get some money together before I make my break. Last night gave me a destination - one where no one I know lives - but I need cash to get there. If anyone who reads this has anything to spare, I'd appreciate it. My myspace is raging40. He doesn't know about myspace, but he knows about the paypal account. I've changed the password and email account associated with it, but he's smart and can break it given (I'm going to close it at the end of this week, so I'm really counting on the kindness of strangers for this one).
Once I get where I'm going, I'll seek out a women's shelter. I just need to get there. I'm giving myself a week.
None of my friends and family known to him know where I am - I still think it's only a matter of time before he figures it out.
Thanks again for everyone's support.
I am so aware of the potential dangers. I've always had a dread of being stalked, but never *really* thought it could happen - however I've gone over what percautions to take if it does. I think resonance is right... I need to rethink my strategy, even if it means putting my relationship with this person in jeopardy. After all, better estranged than dead.
I've put a donation button for paypal on my myspace to try and get some money together before I make my break. Last night gave me a destination - one where no one I know lives - but I need cash to get there. If anyone who reads this has anything to spare, I'd appreciate it. My myspace is raging40. He doesn't know about myspace, but he knows about the paypal account. I've changed the password and email account associated with it, but he's smart and can break it given (I'm going to close it at the end of this week, so I'm really counting on the kindness of strangers for this one).
Once I get where I'm going, I'll seek out a women's shelter. I just need to get there. I'm giving myself a week.
None of my friends and family known to him know where I am - I still think it's only a matter of time before he figures it out.
Thanks again for everyone's support.
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Posted 03 December 2007 - 09:02 AM
Having been in your shoes, one on of the things you need to do first is file a restraining order. It's free, requires no lawyers and will be potentially protective for you. The instant he calls you, you can have him jailed, even if for a short while and give yourself some piece of mind and calm. You will have to see him in court for a short while, but I suggest you bring your daughter as a witness, along with the marine boyfriend. You will need a well documented case and her testimony will help you (witnesses definitely help). The marine boyfriend's testimony will help too - judge's always love marines.
Second, you need to talk to your friend. I'm not sure if she's not listening to you bc she's choosing not to validate you or because it's too painful for her to hear this, but obviously, she's having a tough time with this situation too...and it sounds like either she's trying to calm you down or being selfish bc she needs your help. I don't know bc I don't know your friend, but if you're feeling as if she's not "hearing" you, you need to tell her that you need to talk to her and that you need to speak and have her listen and not interrupt until you're done. Then say, ok, I'm done and ask for her feedback. I've found it really helps me in situations like this.
Next, any friend that would ditch you when you tell them that you're doing what you need to do to protect yourself was never really a friend to begin with. I understand that she's helping you right now, but if you tell her that you're doing what you feel what's best for your safety and she says she never wants to be your friend again, you really have to question that. A true friend will understand, even if it hurts at first...and you sound to be both logical and rational.
Either way, don't go back to this man (it sounds like you could be convinced - DON'T BE!) - he could try to run you over with his car (true story - happened to me). Please stay safe, stay strong and take care of yourself!
Second, you need to talk to your friend. I'm not sure if she's not listening to you bc she's choosing not to validate you or because it's too painful for her to hear this, but obviously, she's having a tough time with this situation too...and it sounds like either she's trying to calm you down or being selfish bc she needs your help. I don't know bc I don't know your friend, but if you're feeling as if she's not "hearing" you, you need to tell her that you need to talk to her and that you need to speak and have her listen and not interrupt until you're done. Then say, ok, I'm done and ask for her feedback. I've found it really helps me in situations like this.
Next, any friend that would ditch you when you tell them that you're doing what you need to do to protect yourself was never really a friend to begin with. I understand that she's helping you right now, but if you tell her that you're doing what you feel what's best for your safety and she says she never wants to be your friend again, you really have to question that. A true friend will understand, even if it hurts at first...and you sound to be both logical and rational.
Either way, don't go back to this man (it sounds like you could be convinced - DON'T BE!) - he could try to run you over with his car (true story - happened to me). Please stay safe, stay strong and take care of yourself!
This post has been edited by dangergirl: 03 December 2007 - 09:03 AM
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Posted 04 December 2007 - 05:01 PM
Thanks for the advice and the well-wishes, all of you.
dangergirl, I thought about a restraining order, but since I'm no longer in the same state as he is (several thousand miles away), I'm not sure that will do much good. Since he hasn't threatened me, or harmed me in any way that's noticable, then I'm pretty sure trying to get one will be a waste of time.
I did call the police in my old town yesterday and told them that he is a possible danger because I am worried about him and what he might do (to himself and to me). It took me a few minutes, and quite a few tears to convince them that the man is unstable, but according to the woman on the phone, she sent someone out there to "check on him." She took my number, but did not call me back. I don't know what the results were of that visit.
I don't know any of the neighbors because they're all recent transplants, so I can't call them. I'm afraid that if the police just showed up at the door and said that I called, he's going to see that as a betrayal. My daughter is going over there this evening with friends (and her boyfriend) to get the rest of her stuff, so I'm anxiously awaiting her call to see if she's okay, and that nothing happened.
I was freaked out for the rest of the day yesterday because I don't know where he is. I don't know if he's in the old apartment, on his way here, on his way back to his family's, or finding another place to live. I just don't know. Not knowing is what is tearing me to pieces.
There are no women's shelters in this town (It's a "don't sneeze, you'll miss it" town). There are where I'm going, but not here. I'm just trying to get enough money together to move on. I'm reliant on the person I'm staying with to get me out of here; they know where everything is, and everything is so far away. I can't just walk out like I did when I started. I know that if I ask, they'll take me, but it will take some arguing. I can't afford a taxi, and I haven't found a bus service so far.
I'll try to keep y'all updated.
dangergirl, I thought about a restraining order, but since I'm no longer in the same state as he is (several thousand miles away), I'm not sure that will do much good. Since he hasn't threatened me, or harmed me in any way that's noticable, then I'm pretty sure trying to get one will be a waste of time.
I did call the police in my old town yesterday and told them that he is a possible danger because I am worried about him and what he might do (to himself and to me). It took me a few minutes, and quite a few tears to convince them that the man is unstable, but according to the woman on the phone, she sent someone out there to "check on him." She took my number, but did not call me back. I don't know what the results were of that visit.
I don't know any of the neighbors because they're all recent transplants, so I can't call them. I'm afraid that if the police just showed up at the door and said that I called, he's going to see that as a betrayal. My daughter is going over there this evening with friends (and her boyfriend) to get the rest of her stuff, so I'm anxiously awaiting her call to see if she's okay, and that nothing happened.
I was freaked out for the rest of the day yesterday because I don't know where he is. I don't know if he's in the old apartment, on his way here, on his way back to his family's, or finding another place to live. I just don't know. Not knowing is what is tearing me to pieces.
There are no women's shelters in this town (It's a "don't sneeze, you'll miss it" town). There are where I'm going, but not here. I'm just trying to get enough money together to move on. I'm reliant on the person I'm staying with to get me out of here; they know where everything is, and everything is so far away. I can't just walk out like I did when I started. I know that if I ask, they'll take me, but it will take some arguing. I can't afford a taxi, and I haven't found a bus service so far.
I'll try to keep y'all updated.
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Posted 04 December 2007 - 06:32 PM
Patheral,
Don't worry about the police check. They do these "Safety & Welfare" checks on people all the time. The cop who gets dispatched probably won't even know who called it in. Most people aren't familiar with this service, but is something the police take seriously.
best, a.m.
Don't worry about the police check. They do these "Safety & Welfare" checks on people all the time. The cop who gets dispatched probably won't even know who called it in. Most people aren't familiar with this service, but is something the police take seriously.
best, a.m.
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dx: BPI, ADHD (inattentive), (anxiety), hypothyroid, severe sleep apnea, asthma, allergies, *New* Essential Tremor
Previous dx: BPII, depression
rx: 900mg Eskalith, Strattera 100mg, Cymbalta 60mg, 7.5mg Adderal, 25mg metoprolol prn, 112.5mcg Synthroid, Xanax XR 1mg prn
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Posted 04 December 2007 - 09:13 PM
AirMarshall, on Dec 4 2007, 05:32 PM, said:
Patheral,
Don't worry about the police check. They do these "Safety & Welfare" checks on people all the time. The cop who gets dispatched probably won't even know who called it in. Most people aren't familiar with this service, but is something the police take seriously.
best, a.m.
Don't worry about the police check. They do these "Safety & Welfare" checks on people all the time. The cop who gets dispatched probably won't even know who called it in. Most people aren't familiar with this service, but is something the police take seriously.
best, a.m.
Thanks A.M., that does relieve my mind a bit. I just wish I knew what happened as a result of that call. My daughter didn't make it out there, so I have no way of knowing if he's even still at the apartments. I'm not freaking about it anymore, but I'm still on pins & needles.
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Posted 05 December 2007 - 04:19 AM
hi,
i think physical distance is good for you right now. I know it sucks ass....but being far far away from someone like this dude is usually good. i hope so for you.
be safe & i hope you are able to get a moment of peace,
december
i think physical distance is good for you right now. I know it sucks ass....but being far far away from someone like this dude is usually good. i hope so for you.
be safe & i hope you are able to get a moment of peace,
december
dx: bipolar 1 & anxiety
current meds:
abilify 2mg
lithium 1200mg
lunesta 3mg prn
xanax xr 3mg
zoloft 100mg
levothyroxine .075mg for thyroid
other meds ive tried: ambien, effexor xr, lamictal, paxil, provigil, seroquel, trazodone, wellbutrin xl 150.
current meds:
abilify 2mg
lithium 1200mg
lunesta 3mg prn
xanax xr 3mg
zoloft 100mg
levothyroxine .075mg for thyroid
other meds ive tried: ambien, effexor xr, lamictal, paxil, provigil, seroquel, trazodone, wellbutrin xl 150.
