I unfortunately know of several people who ended their marriages based on mental illness.
I ended my marriage because of being MI. I was on an AD but hadn't been dx'ed BP then and I was still doing some weird things. In some ways it is a relief (he was a Scientologist and believed I was choosing to be depressed) but I am often lonely.
To keep on topic: frankly I take my meds because my pdoc and my therapist tell me to; they say that I am stable BECAUSE of the meds.
Please don't jump down my throat for saying this: Maybe I've lost my insight but I think that except for some anxiety, I am fine now. I am also very scared of getting TD which just haunts me whenever I think about it so that often tempts me to give up, especially on the Geodon. Plus I think the Lamictin makes me stupid so that I struggle with my studies. Plus I never did really crazy shit when I was manic - in fact people thought I was great, I was so friendly with everyone and fun to be around.
But last year I tried to stop and it ended badly, going IP, so maybe I should just accept that even though my BP is episodic, I need maintenance medication to prevent the next episode. Apparently BP episodes fry your brain, too. So either way, with or without meds, I am screwed, that is just the way it goes. And I don't want to ever be depressed like the last time, again.
Thanks for just letting me vent a bit. Please don't jump all over me.