[Dr.Faustus]

Hi, just had to put this out there. I'm unemployed, the rent is due, I am semi medded since Lamictal costs too much, and I don't know if its life or BP thats got me so royally fucked.........

This is me telling on my disease............this is me , scared to death , alone and afraid, this is me watching my cell phone to light up after contacting people and seing nothing but a dark screen.

This is my two days from homeless, and without ID in a forieign country.............this is me ......the fear, the terror, the lonliness, the emptiness.....

Spent a day reading an Unquiet Mind.............and bless her heart, all I could think was.............must be nice to be born into money and have breakdowns from Oxford to UCLA and back.............................................fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck........

Stop this ride............if I don't get off? I'll puke on someone...............


sigh

[Artemisia]

Geez, there's absolutely no one local who could help you? Perhaps it really would be better to leave the country and go somewhere where you'd be more likely to obtain some assistance (be the assistance financial or moral support)?

[Dr.Faustus]

Let me put it this way...........as a US citizen, I've always gotten far more help abroad...........but you know how it goes.....when things are fine? Everyone calls with all kinds of nonsense........when shit hits fan? Things get quiet.....not a national characteristic, more of the Tao of MI...........Seems just a shitty week for people getting back to me.....even my dentist ooops forgot an apppointment yesterday.............I may not spend the rest of my life here, but aside from the joke of disability ( you have to be too disabled to actually stand up for yourself hence you don't get it) much of the world, hell all of it , has socialized medicine. Cept the US.


Thanks for getting back though.......gets kinda wierd talking into a void the last few days.........if I find a place with better winters than Sweden, Ill let y'all know................Just needed to get all this fear and anger and bile out there.........will update y'all if something comes through. Thanks for reading and posting............as of today, no change....but I sent out a few very specific SOS's tonight...........like, hey, its down to the wire...........and made sure I have a sms message on record asking the asswipe job "Am I still employed?"

Sometime this week or so, I expect to meet with a minister of Parliament about the suck job and the illlegalities they've been getting by with ...................

Not much better today, but I guess I needed to acknowledge the panic and despair instead of saying, oh no, everythings just fucking ducky............

Oh and as for leaving? The job has me so screwed that I don't have a passport.........so fleeing isn't even an option....besides, no matter how much it all sucks right now? I like it here. Just have to make sure I bring a lawyer to my next job interview..........sigh......


cheers

[Stormienite]

Wow, that is really horrible. I can see you're hanging by a thread. Been there, really. And yes, trying to get disability is so hard I think I'd rather have all my fingernails pulled out with pliers. But I DID finally get disability with the help of an attorney. Took a long time and it was a really stressful battle, but I got it.

It sounds like you're in a tough spot because your passport is gone and you can't go home. Can't you go into an emergency room and get some help from their crisis center? Most hospitals have one. I really hope you can find a way to get some help soon. Don't give up!

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Dr.Faustus, on 04 November 2009 - 03:50 PM, said:

if I find a place with better winters than Sweden, Ill let y'all know................

How about New Zealand?

I'm glad you're feeling a little better. Even if your phone don't ring, you still have us.

[Calamity_J]

Oops...forgot to login. Anywho, I am very concerned that you do not have your passport. Have you contacted the State Department , Embassy/Consulate about your situation? I have to admit I don't really understand exactly what's going on and I don't know if that is my personal fog or you were being discreet, LOL or both...but surely there is some answer to be found. (always so optimistic when it's not me we're talking about...hmmm, interesting)

Good luck to you...we're here and listening and providing moral support at the very least!