If you had no social fears
Posted 19 July 2010 - 06:52 PM
Go to a concert?
Get a girl or boyfriend?
Rx: Seroquel 100mg.
Posted 19 July 2010 - 08:46 PM
The Past is the textbook of tyrants; the Future the Bible of the Free. Those who are solely governed by the Past stand like Lot's wife, crystallized in the act of looking backward, and forever incapable of looking before. ~Herman Melville, White Jacket
DX: Bipolar (flavor undecided) & various physical stuff
RX: Topamax: 100mg, Seroquel: 200mg, Welbutrin XL: 300
Buffy staked Edward.
Posted 19 July 2010 - 08:52 PM
Posted 19 July 2010 - 09:21 PM
Issues with self harm, agoraphobia, racing thoughts, paranoia, self-esteem, and self image and a bunch of other stuff.
~Rx: Lithium, Lamictal and Gabapentin
Joke from my Psychologist:
Why can't a paranoid person go to a football game?
Because he thinks they are talking about him in the huddle.....
Posted 19 July 2010 - 10:47 PM
I wouldn't sit with a sick feeling in my gut, contemplating calling a friend and then not following through. I'd just call.
I'd say "yes" to things people asked me to do.
I'd have a life.
What the docs wrote down about my Crazy: Bipolar II, Some anxiety issue
The pills they give me to fix this shit: Lamictal 175mg, clonazepam 1mg , Trileptal 600mg
Pills that did NOT fix this shit: Sertraline, Buspirone, Mirtazipine, Paroxetine, Gabapentin, Effexor XR, Lorazepam, Cymbalta(twice), Zolpidem, Bupropion XL, Pristiq, Fluoxetine, Vistaril, Lexapro, Celexa, Trazodone, Geodon
Pills that worked well enough but side effects were total shit so I stopped: Abilify, Lithium, valium
sun moon stars rain
Posted 20 July 2010 - 05:46 PM
That if I stepped out of my body I would break
into a blossom. - James Wright
I'm sorry my posts are virtual novellas. I'm only verbose when writing. Promise.
Dx: TBD, probably depression/anxiety.
Current Rx: 300mg Wellbutrin, 200mg Lamictal, .5mg Ativan as needed (currently all the time), BC.
Rx requiescat et pacem: Abilify, Lexapro.
currently reading: Changing my Mind by Zadie Smith
want to read: The Thousand Autumns of Jacob de Zoet
Posted 21 July 2010 - 11:39 PM
Current meds: Wellbutrin 450/Lexapro 30
Posted 22 July 2010 - 06:56 AM
Take belly dancing classes.
I have a friend that takes belly dancing classes.
Have you ever seen The Bellydance Superstars perform? http://www.bellydancesuperstars.com/
I love watching bellydancing
Life isn't about finding yourself
its about CREATING yourself
if you're crazy and you know it clap your hands!
Posted 22 July 2010 - 08:26 AM
At the moment I could handle going to class.
But the thought of what to do during break puts me off. Do I go to the cafeteria? Should I sit with the other students? What can I say? etc.
Also I would probably freak if the teacher asked me something in front of the other students.
Oh how I envy people who can deal with all this effortlessly.
Posted 22 July 2010 - 08:37 AM
Rx - Burpropion HCL XL (generic for Wellbutrin XL) 150mg 2xday, Perphenazine (Generic for Trilafon) 4mg 2xday
Posted 04 November 2010 - 05:19 PM
Go back to download festival every year
Start up my old metal band
RX: Olanzapine (Zyprexa) 100mg, Mirtazapine (Remeron) 90mg, Sertraline (Zoloft) 50mg, Diazepam (Valium) 5mg
Meds that epicly failed: Quetipine (Seroquel), Fluoxetine (Prozac), Aripiprazole (Abilify)
Posted 26 November 2010 - 06:41 PM
Dunno about anyone else, but in my dreams(you know, sleeping and the like), that's exactly what happens. Too bad we can't dream like that forever.
Posted 26 November 2010 - 06:48 PM
Posted 26 November 2010 - 10:21 PM
OH! You know what would be better? Travelling the world and getting a job that's fun. Just wonndering, does listening to music help anyone else with feeling more outgoing?
Music was kind of fun because I think all the people I know would be in my own mental videos I'd make. I used to think music was motivational but I think I use it more as an escape.
If I had no anxiety I probably would get a job because I wouldn't worry how ridiculous I would look demanding that the person hire me. I wouldn[t have to think of all the things that I would promise to perforrm and then when the time comes I wouldn't worry if I was able to do them or not. Maybe I should hire myself out as a worry wort. People could pay me to just sit and worry about their business, that is one skill that I do have.
If I had no anxiety I probably would find something to worry about. Sometimes there's comfort in having something to cling to even if it is anxiety.
Posted 03 December 2010 - 09:34 PM
Normally I'm kinda quiet and blend in. I wait to be spoken to. I feel awkward but I never feel like I don't actually belong in that situation.
At home I'm completely calm and feel different, I leave the house when I want to no problem, but it's always so good come back. Especially after a bad day at work.
Depression, anxiety ADHD. I am in control of the anxiety and depression, overall and am happy, the odd bout now and then which I can deal with. ADHD is under wraps from doing Dore. We all have times when our crazies run the show. I sure know I do. Overall I run the show.
LX: Dore program (done) CBT/DBT/Therapy, meditation, total detox - off meds.
Posted 04 December 2010 - 02:06 AM
Present: Complex PTSD/dissociation, generalized anxiety, social phobia, agoraphobic tendencies, and panic attacks.
*~We'll get there one day. Where we're going, I'm not too sure, but one day we'll get there.*~
Posted 08 December 2010 - 11:05 PM
However that doesn't mean there's much to do and I end up staying home a lot anyways. Oddly enough being alone with my thoughts is what scares me the most and that's where I usually am. It's quite the curse.
Don't feel too bad. Going out is overrated.
Edited by DKnight, 08 December 2010 - 11:06 PM.
Posted 09 December 2010 - 10:44 PM
Edited by crzybtch79, 09 December 2010 - 10:45 PM.
~Over the years they said I had/have : Major Depressive Disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, Generalized anxiety, postpartum depression, and ADD.
I am pretty Positive I was misdiagnosed by several doctors.
~What I think I have: Borderline personality disorder, Social phobia, ADD, post-traumatic stress disorder and addictive personality disorder.
~Crap I have taken that didn't help me at all: Zoloft, Prozac, Ritalin, (Effexor, Lexapro, Xanax) Those 3 were the worst for me.
~What seems to be finally helping me: Adderall 30mg, Wellbutrin XL 150mg, Klonopinn 0.5-1 mg a day (split up) when needed.
I get lost in music-
A few that describe me.... good stuff
Posted 24 January 2011 - 09:14 AM
"Words have the power to both destroy and heal. When words are both true and kind, they can change our world." _Gautama Buddha
Bipolar I Disorder
Tier 2: Avoidant Personality Disorder
Dependent Personality Disorder
Social Anxiety Disorder
General Anxiety Disorder(?)
Lamictal, Lithium Carbonate, Klonopin (clonazepam), Celexa (citalopram), Buspar (buspirone), Abilify, Trazadone, Viibryd, Lexapro, Brintellix, Ativan Klonopin