The Fantabulous Unicorn.
Hi, I'm Mirazh. I like zombie survival video games, long conversations about European pre-Christian deities, and long walks on the beach... oh wait.
Okay! I came to CB toward the latter half of 2011. What a fortunate finding that was. I did lurk a bit, initially, then I kinda went... batshit. And I am really glad I had this place to support me through that.
I have a "fun" history of physical/mental/emotional/spiritual abuse, struggles with undiagnosed ADHD and anxiety, acknowledged depression but too leery of taking meds, and more. Former coping methods included copious amounts of self harm and drugs. Those really did not work.
I figured out that I'm queer, just Not Straight in any way, in about ninth grade. I've been in some straight-seeming (on the outside) relationships and it just... makes me really uncomfortable to be viewed that way. Aside from my abusers and few random reactions here and there, for the most part I have had the luxury of growing up harassment-free with regards to my sexuality.
I figured out I am transgender three/four years ago, which explains a LOT. I don't, personally, identify as either of the binary options (man or woman,) but I am technically on the "FTM spectrum" so calling me a guy is acceptable. I am medically transitioning, through doctors, in my own non-binary way, and yes there are more and more of us genderqueer folks doing so (if we need to.)
After almost ten years of living with room mates, I now live solo with two cats and an expanding collection of Wiccan ritual tools and supplies. Couldn't be happier about my living situation.
Got my BP diagnosis at the end of February 2012, bit of a surprise but rather illuminating too. ADHD diagnosis, finally, from my pdoc. There's also talk of OCD-tendencies and issues that're potentially ASD-related (though currently I am not seeking testing for this.)
Overall I'm pretty functional these days. Epival/Depakote lifts my depression and scares the irritable hypos away, Concerta helps me stay on task at work, and if an anxiety attack is far too intense for my regular coping skills I have my trusty clonazepam. I also take a daily multivitamin, utilise CBT skills, cuddle my cats, and rewatch beloved cartoons on Netflix.
Personal areas of interest include psychology/psychiatry, world theologies and mythologies, social justice/humanism/feminism/queer theory, sex/sexuality/gender, and pretty much anything to do with animals.
You can usually find me in the BP forum, addictions, ADHD, mood stabilisers, stimulants, relationships, spirituality, GLBT, and blogs (I do not yet officially mod any specific boards, but those areas seem to be where I gravitate to most frequently.)
Edited by Mirazh, 06 April 2013 - 03:48 AM.