I have been picking at my skin for over 25 years. I have tried everything to stop and have failed miserably. I have successfully overcome drinking, drugs, and cigarettes. But for the life of me, SI feels next to impossible to stop.
Well last night, DH cornered me and we had an open and honest discussion about my skin picking. Usually when he would confront on my scabs I would deflect, make excuses or outright lie. I avoided talking about it at all costs because I was so ashamed of myself.
But last night we discovered that I have made a lot more progress than I thought. I saw a picture of me from 3 years ago and I was absolutely covered in scabs all over my body, neck and face. It was awful. How it's not quite as bad but there are still a few scabs. And I also remember a few years back that I was picking and clawing at my skin ALL THE TIME. In the car. In the shower, While watching the kids. While making dinner. While watching T.V. While going to the bathroom. Everywhere. Now, I have eliminated almost all of the times when I pick. No more picking in the car, in front of the t.v., etc. The only time I pick now is during my evening shower when I am winding down from a long day at work. I stay in there for like 20 minutes, completely zone out and just let my hands search out my whole body looking for even the smallest blemish.
Well that's progress, right? So my DH suggested the most simple of solutions -- stop taking my evening showers. Why the hell didn't I think of that?
Now I have a plan in place. I'm excited but VERY cautiously optimistic. I have had plans in place before that have failed miserably. I have seen 5 separate professionals, some of whom claimed to be specialists in dermatillomania, to no avail. Nobody succeeded.
So here I am praying that this time works. I am going to blog my progress as often as I can. Hopefully I can stick with it this time.
Please give me your support and all advice and feedback is more than welcome.