yes, first time I got this diagnosis I asked what does it mean, and the pdoc refused to tell me, he said he knew I'd go home and research the hell out of it.
That was maybe 15 years ago.
Once I was told by a girlfriend's pdoc that "let's be clear, schizophrenia is way up here, (holds his hands above his head), and what charlie has is somewhere about here, (holds his hands halfway as high), and if we could take what charlie has and put it in a bottle we'd be richer than bill gates".
I like to call it "optional schizophrenia", or "schizophrenia lite".
I guess the first time I noticed my wierdness was more controllable was in a psych hospital at 12 years old; me and another kid had been having a war, attacking our counselor who had just taken us on a walk out in greenwich village, and we were in the elevator attacking him physically, and he yelled "stop!" and I just stopped, and my partner, he didn';t come close to stopping; had to be put in a quiet room and later sedated with a needle to the ass. And the counselor later said to me, most kids can't just stop like that, the way you can charlie.
I noticed a year or two ago, when I discovered youtube, that if you type in "schizophrenia", the people are in pathetic shape, mostly confined in a hospital, smoking cigarettes, very confused, highly drugged, and generally quite sad personalities, sad and lost. And it is night and day to compare this to typing into youtube "schizotypal", where the characters are characters, elated, happy about their insanity, not so lost, not so sad, not so frightened.
I pursued shamanism for a long time, and said that it's close to schizotypal personaity disorder, but better controlled and then encouraged. The series of books on dream yoga encourage what I think is really schizotypal personality disorder.
I told my boss at a sales job I lost a couple of years ago, that I practice irrationality, which in your culture is called schizotypality.
I am also sometimes diagnosed as having full paranoid schizophrenia, but that's when I'm strung out and very upset about something, usually the bugs crawling all over me which I swear are real parasites in my gut, escaping into my skin (cause I have it totally controlled with diet these days) but medical science insists it's "textbook insanity".
Edited by saveyoursanity, 06 February 2013 - 11:20 PM.
edited out self-promotional link. You may put that in your signature if you so chose, but only there.