Lots of questions, Cookie! May I ask why you have so many detailed questions?
When you first had visual and/or auditory hallucinations what did you think they were?
I thought my eyes were going funny on me. I originally started out seeing sparkles everywhere. I had an eye exam and everything turned up normal. When I heard voices (I very rarely hear voices), I thought real people were talking to me. As in, I thought someone real and near me said something. Turned out I'm just crazy. I also thought/think the visual hallucinations are the sun trying to communicate with me. The sun sends the sparkles through windows to communicate His messages to me, mainly telling me to kill myself. I held this belief more strongly in the past.
Currently, what do you think your visual and/or auditory hallucinations really are?
I think they're hallucinations. A part of me still believes that the sparkles are the sun trying to communicate with me. The sun may be God. I'm not sure. It's been very hard for me to give up this delusion. I'm not sure it is a delusion, because it felt so real. I also experience thought insertion, which feels incredibly real. So... I'm not sure where I stand. Part of me believes it's a hallucination, part of me believes it's real.
In relation to the voices/hallucinations who do you think these people are?
My voices that I've heard were just random voices.
Do you know these people? If not, why do you think they talk to you?
No, I don't know the voices personally.
What do you think happens in the brain to produce these voices, hallucinations?
I think there is an excess of the neurotransmitter dopamine, primarily. Basically, I think psychosis is caused by the brain going all screwy.
Did your mind invent these voices, tone of voice, gender?
Yes, my mind invented the voices, they are not people I know.
Why do you think these voices have these particular tone of voice, gender? And not a different one?
I have no idea. I think the voices I've heard were just randomly concocted by my brain, with no special meaning behind it whatsoever. The visual hallucinations on the other hand, they do have special meaning. Well, I think so. I'm confused about it.
I realize I sound utterly crazy.
Edited by Parapluie, 27 February 2013 - 11:14 PM.