Posted 07 March 2013 - 07:20 PM
Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach is an awesome book. She has tons of breathing and meditation exercises, and it's a really nice and smooth read. I just found it soothing to read. I think I am going to reread it I liked it so much.
Yesterday I was so angry and wanted to hurt myself so badly. I went and did an angry painting instead. I'm no artist but I really like drawing and crap like that, and I like making angry abstract paintings or drawings when I am angry. I have three that I like from this week. You can get really angry with oil pastels in particular, I've found, and break the hell out of them, and they still work and color even if you break them. Also I go outside and scream.
Sorry you are having a bad time right now. This is some shitty shitty crap.
DX: BP II, PMDD, GAD, endometriosis.
Former DX: Dysthymia, pure-O OCD, PPD.
RX: Wellbutrin 450 mg, B12, D3, fish oil.
Former RX: Prozac, Zoloft, Vistaril, Xanax, Klonipin.
Mom to one very beautiful little boy, who I hope never struggles with this.
Sometimes I write.
I've been haunted all my life
On the brink of something close
People know that I ain't right
Know I'm grappling with a ghost
Oh I'm armed and dangerous,
And I'm deafened by the fray
Waiting for the day I'm able
And I set it on it's way