I'm having a freak out about school. I made a major life change a few months ago & decided to not return to the workforce and go back to school. I lost my job (that I loved but was stressed out about) in May b/c of MI problems.
I have gone to school off and on over the years and this is my first time back in 7 years.
I dropped out and withdrew from classes frequently due to my manias, depressions, GAD, and substance abuse. This time around I am sober, medicated, sticking with therapy, and educated about my MI. I'm having self doubt about whether or not I can really do this. I'm so afraid of failure and am experiencing a lot of anxiety b/c of all of the pressure that I am putting on myself.
Pressure about success, and feeling I can't succeed b/c of my MI. Feeling like I am not good enough. I feel like I am letting the fact that I am mentally ill get to me and bring me down. Looking at it as a weakness instead of remembering how strong I am b/c of my experiences with it and by overcoming so many obstacles to get to where I am at now.
When my anxiety gets high in situations like this I tend to stagnate...which makes me fall behind...self sabotage occurs.
Anyone else experience anything similar to this?
I take Klonopin PRN btw for anxiety.
Edited by Jaytea, 06 September 2013 - 04:10 AM.