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  1. Have you tried Latuda? It's considered weight neutral (by my pdoc at least) and also can have antidepressant effects (also according to my pdoc). I've been taking it for a year and a half I think.
  2. Does anyone have any experience with the hair skin and nails vitamins sold in stores? I'm wondering if they work or at least is it worth a try. My nails easily break if I let them grow and I'm tired of it. I don't have a lot of disposable income to spend on vitamins so I don't want to waste my money on something that doesn't work. I'm also distrustful of vitamins as they aren't regulated here like prescriptions are so I don't know what I'm getting.
  3. Be Careful Driving On Benzo

    Maybe it's different depending on the state? I don't know. I don't like taking them either, I've been hoping Buspar would help me but it takes a long time to work.
  4. I'm half the OP's age but I'm a lifer too...I don't remember what it's like to not be mentally ill. I first wanted to die at age 11 but with help I'm still here. I'm in a partial hospitalization program right now and they show us these videos about depression where after the person gets treatment it's like they're magically fine. They don't reflect the chronic nature of these illnesses.
  5. Be Careful Driving On Benzo

    I only drive after taking Ativan if I absolutely have to...luckily it's at night when I take it and I rarely have to drive afterwards. On a side note brianOCD, how can you drive for a living while taking benzos? I tried getting a driving job but couldn't pass the DOT physical due to taking benzos and antipsychotics. I was told by the DOT doctor that "people who take benzos should be precluded from driving" although my state doesn't ask about them when getting my license renewed.
  6. Can you take an incomplete on your class(es) and/or take a medical leave like Iceberg said? Then get into a partial hospitalization program or other intensive outpatient program. I'm not in school but I am doing a partial hospitalization program right now and it is helping me. Does your therapist or pdoc know you're struggling?
  7. It sounds like you are doing good things with going to therapy and trying to be social. Since you have had good results in the past with SNRIs (Effexor and Pristiq), maybe try duloxetine or Cymbalta? I took that for a while before it stopped working for me. Maybe you'll have better results. Reading on Wikipedia, it's also used for anxiety so maybe it will help you there too. Cymbalta has a generic (duloxetine) so hopefully it won't cost so much. I don't recall experiencing bad side effects with it but of course that varies from person to person. By the way, welcome to the boards!
  8. Do you have a therapist? Someone to talk to about your thoughts? I have been struggling with the same things and I'm doing a partial hospitalization program currently and one of the topics was "ANT traps" where ANT means Automatic Negative Thoughts, and rewording the thought so it becomes positive. It's very hard to do when you're in the hole of depression though.
  9. Thank you ananke. I'm getting a lot of info from the partial program right now and I think that's enough for now though.
  10. Yeah I would feel a lot more comfortable with it if I could keep my current tdoc. The partial program pdoc explained why he thought it was BPD rather than bipolar, and that made sense to me, but either I don't remember or he didn't explain why it wasn't schizoaffective. I haven't had a chance to talk to my regular pdoc, I've been seeing her for 2 years, I don't see her until after the partial program is over. Thanks all for your responses.
  11. Yes I do like my current tdoc. I had to switch a year and 3 months ago when my old tdoc retired and I don't really want to change. Yes the DBT is for the BPD diagnosis.
  12. I definitely plan on getting a second opinion. Since I plan to start DBT after the partial program, it looks like I may have to switch therapists too as I guess I should be seeing a DBT-certified therapist, which my current therapist is not.
  13. Is the combination working well for you? Have you had an EKG lately to assess your risk for it? If it is working well then maybe your doctor can order an EKG periodically to make sure you're not developing it. Would that help you?
  14. I recently started a partial hospitalization program, and I see a new psychiatrist while I'm in the program. This pdoc diagnosed me with borderline personality disorder, and says I don't have schizoaffective disorder - bipolar type. I can believe the BPD as I read the symptoms and I relate to them a lot, explains a lot, but I'm having a hard time believing I don't have schizoaffective disorder as I've had this diagnosis for 8 years and have had three regular pdocs say I had this disorder. I know you can't diagnose me and I'm not asking you to, but for those of you who have BPD or traits of BPD have you experienced anything similar? Being misdiagnosed for a long time before your BPD diagnosis. Or can I have both disorders?