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  1. JD, Chat is back. Come join us if you're still up.
  2. "Error code: 5H269/A " Bummer. I'd really like to hang out there for a bit.
  3. Nevermind. I having the exact same problem now. Hopefully see you soon -Dan
  4. 1 = refresh browser. 2 = delete cookies (all browsing history) (idk, it worked for me) are you using Firefox?
  5. Sorry you are struggling Kat. That sounds like a very difficult situation. Can you talk to your mom in person? Please keep yourself safe.
  6. "what you need to do is 'this'" .. "what you need to is 'that'"

    What people who think they have the right to tell me what to do should spends 30 years suicidal. (I'm bitching about family members, not folks here.)


  7. I'm glad you found a doc who listens.
  8. Hi Ina. I know those feeling very well. Only thing I can add is that those feelings decrease (by degrees) with age. Hang in there.
  9. My soul exists the way it does due to medication. My soul exists the way it does due to mental illness. My soul exists between the two.

  10. I feel that my intellect is less than 25% of what it used to be. I am no longer competent at Anything. I can no longer do the simplest things. I feel like there is less of me.. ..like I'm dying in slow motion. No, I don't think it's the meds; I think it's the illness. What a curse, huh?


    1. uhwt


      at least you know your intellect will come back... 

  11. Melow, I don't quite know what to say.. ..you Are loved and promise you, you have many friends in chat. Please hang in there! -Dan
  12. wreath with home-grown strawflowers

    From the album flowers, fireworks, me

    wreath with home-grown strawflowers, aka 'everlasting' flowers
  13. Don't worry. I'll be fine.


    1. empty inside

      empty inside

      i will worry, because i care. i really do. stay safe.

  14. I'm not doing well these days. I'm considering I.P. I just.. ...my motivation to live or even try to is at low. It's really.. ..I stopped caring about caring and 'trying' just prolongs more of the same. When is it okay to say that living doesn't make sense? I've spent the vast majority of my 46 years in Hell and resenting my own conception. When do *I* get to say *enough* already. The fact of the matter is that I don't want live.

    1. HAL9000


      I'm sorry to hear that its this bad.  Maybe this is a good time to ponder if med changes or something the doc can suggest would turn this around or at least get you to the non hell stuff?  Anyway for what its worth a lot of don't want you to die.

    2. hamster


      take care bxt