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  1. Wanted to update this a little and share that I realized that I wasn't harming myself in other ways (eg: emotional eating) on the days I struggled the most. Emotionally ate two days in a row and did not SH (well, you know what I mean). The SH and urges to SH were crappy substitutes for other crappy coping mechanisms. The crappy coping mechanisms are so ingrained that I don't really hold out hope that I will regularly replace them with healthy behaviors, though I know that I'm the only one who can do that for myself. Will continue to try on a potential incident by incident basis and also try not to compound slip-ups by beating myself up. I guess I know the talk, but I struggle to make healthy choices. But really, the crappy coping mechanisms are so deeply rooted that they're a bit like meconium coping mechanisms
  2. That happens. I'm just throwing out thoughts. My other thought was to implement a delay between joining and being able to post.
  3. I'm not even sure this can be done, but is there a way to filter out posts that start with http?
  4. Thanks, Woo. Thinking on this now
  5. Trigger warning - my post contains examples of my rationalization for harming myself. To preface, I'm not currently SHing or planning on doing it imminently. That said, last night, I did engage in a bit of SH and I am questioning why it is wrong to do so. I understand that this must be faulty thinking, but I can't currently understand why it's unacceptable. My current line of rationalization that leads to questioning why it's unacceptable includes: I don't leave marks, so no shame about it later To date, no major injuries or infections. I understand that past results do not mean there will not be future repercussions. I get stress relief I guess I'd like feedback that helps me see why it's wrong. There's a fog between me and understanding it.
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    Thanks for your response, Woo. I decided that there's probably no constructive reason to keep my post here, so I'm deleting it.
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  8. river
  9. Finally told my GP that I think it's time for a med review with the pdoc. We're waiting until after the holidays to arrange it.
  10. More anecdotal evidence - I'm also on Lamotrigine and it has dumbed me down and killed my concentration. Maybe it has had a similar effect on you.
  11. Already cleaned the kitchen and did a load of laundry, so X Make bed. X Clean hallway Tidy one other room -------------------- X Make bed X Clean kitchen X Get rid of something X Tidy a room