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    Thanks for your response, Woo. I decided that there's probably no constructive reason to keep my post here, so I'm deleting it.
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  4. Finally told my GP that I think it's time for a med review with the pdoc. We're waiting until after the holidays to arrange it.
  5. More anecdotal evidence - I'm also on Lamotrigine and it has dumbed me down and killed my concentration. Maybe it has had a similar effect on you.
  6. Already cleaned the kitchen and did a load of laundry, so X Make bed. X Clean hallway Tidy one other room -------------------- X Make bed X Clean kitchen X Get rid of something X Tidy a room
  7. I felt increased anxiety when I was titrating up on Lamictal, but once I started on 100 mg, I noticed a difference. It did take some faith to hang on until I got there, but I wouldn't change it. 200 mg has made a massive difference in my life. I'm no longer suicidal 24/7 and I'm able to live my life out of bed. Yes, I am more forgetful and a bit more tired than I was, but the trade off has been worth it.
  8. Hi all. I'll start by saying that I have a long history of bulimia and anorexia and have found that I either ignore the situation and gain or obsess and lose (weight and control). I've been slowly losing weight since November. I think I've been doing it the "right" way. I'm eating my fruit and veg, I'm not avoiding entire food groups, I'm not grazing. I'm trying to let my body find its own weight despite what the scale shows. I'm looking to be healthy. It's started out well, but it seems like I'm going in the wrong direction. Right now, my eating isn't technically disordered, but recent behaviors are pointing towards a potential relapse. I'm obsessing about eating and feeling a sense of accomplishment when I adhere to my (so far) sensible eating rules. I designed them to be fluid, but I'm becoming rigid. I've started stepping on the scale. At first it was just to get a baseline. Then I attempted to do it once per week. Now it's every couple of days and I often think of getting on it. When I do get on the scale, I weigh myself several times to make sure the numbers are right. I know I should find a way to stop this from progressing, but I can't "remember" how bad it gets. I have a good amount to lose, so I don't want to go back to ignoring my intake entirely. I can't seem to do balanced. I feel like I'm in for ignoring or relapse, but not healthy I can't seem to choose health. Thanks for reading.
  9. Hi Melissa, thank you for your thoughtful response. I have a lot to think about before I can respond properly.
  10. Happy Ed Balls Day!
  11. Welcome!
  12. Just watched your vlog entries and I think they are amazing!

    1. Jennifer*


      Thanks Mari! I plan on putting up another one tonight! Feel free to share with whoever, and subscribe if you've got an account so it'll tell you when I post new vlogs :) I've also got a facebook page going for the vlog. www.facebook.com/livethelifebpd

    2. M@ri
    3. Jennifer*


      Here's the newest one! Thanks for watching, [email protected] :) and for sharing. 


  13. Following on from writehellarandomshiny's "30 random acts of kindness in 30 days" mission, I decided to start a thread showcasing "Shitty Random Acts of Kindness". Feel free to chip in, or don't, your call. Rules: there are no minimum or maximum participation goals. Feel free to post if you want.
  14. Thanks, pod!
  15. I've also been unable to access chat today. We might not have control over chat acting up, but is it at least being reported to IPS (which I will hereafter refer to as Envision Power Services)? Oh, I envisioned hard enough that I pulled some The Secret level BS and got in for a second.
  16. DONE:change bedding, clean bathroom, and clean for an hour. DONE: Tomorrow: 1 hr cleaning + trash out and try to get out recycling. DONE: 1 hour of cleaning. No inescapable chore today. Today: 30 mins of cleaning, paperwork
  17. ok, holy crap. i've just returned from almost 2 months away and my house looks like a tornado went through it. tomorrow: change bedding, clean bathroom, and clean for an hour.