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  1. I hope you can see him sooner. Good luck! You deserve to feel better and good.
  2. I sometimes can't help but talk to the voices out loud. I don't know if that is good or bad to interact with them when they speak to me. Anyway, I hope the voices leave you alone. I'm used to them I've been hearing them so long. But they can and do still scare me at times. I understand how you feel. I'm sorry you are going through this. Any chance you can see your Dr sooner?
  3. I'm sorry you feel so rotten. I get stuck in phrases too that I hear outside and inside my head and they won't stop repeating themselves. I don't get why suddenly latches onto that certain phrase over and over. It does cause confusion and more, you are right. I take 35 mg Abilify. Plus 2 other antipsychotics at full doses. It's hard.
  4. PRN means an "as needed" medication. For instance, I take a PRN anxiety med when I'm having a panic/anxiety attack.
  5. I can't do anything. I still haven't cleaned. 7 pm and it's pitch black out. It is taking me forever to write this. My thoughts are still being taken. I can't think.
  6. Yes! I get bad dry mouth and I am pretty sure Seroquel is the culprit. I've been taking it for around 10 years and I believe that's when this started although I'm not entirely sure as I was also on Abilify at the time. I drink lots of water to try to counteract this side effect with mixed results. And I guess I'm "lucky" I have to wear a cpap machine that has a humidifier in it so that helps with overnight dry mouth. But during the day it can get bad too. They also make a certain brand of mouthwash, moisturizing spray, toothpaste, etc called Biotene. It is supposed to work really well. I don't know how expensive it is but it might be worth checking out. It's specifically made for people with dry mouth.
  7. It was hard meeting with temp tdoc. I didn't have many words. I was supposed to dust some of the living room. But did I do it? Nope. I really do suck.
  8. I don't know what to say. I have no words. My mind is blank. Why do my thoughts get stolen at times by the universe's evil forces? What am I supposed to say to temp tdoc tomorrow?
  9. No you did not make me feel bad at all! Quite the opposite actually! Thank you so much for taking the time to listen and respond to me. That made me feel less crazy and less alone. Plus your words were very wise and kind. So thank you. I'm sorry if I made you feel like your post was not good. Because that's not what I intended! Your post was very good. <3
  10. Welcome!
  11. Thank you. I am sorry. I am feeling quite stupid for even writing this. Honestly I don't even self harm really at all. Not regularly at all...it was just something I tried briefly in the past when I was much younger. I don't belong to post here. I don't know why I was so triggered by her cut. Like I said maybe I was jealous that she actually did something about the pain while I just lie in bed doing nothing but feel awful and cry. I am too chicken nowadays to try anything serious. I know that sounds messed up. I'm sorry. What you say is right and true. I just can't wrap my head around it. I'm sorry.
  12. I agree. Seroquel is my magic sleep med too. I don't sleep without it either.
  13. So a woman in my CBT group cut herself and had stitches on the beginning of her wrist so it was very visible. I am terribly triggered. I used to scratch mostly but at times I lightly cut. Never needed stitches though. What is wrong with me? I feel bad for her. This is wrong. But now I want to cut myself deep. Or OD. I just picked up my meds box. I want to hurt myself somehow. I deserve it. Yet I'm always acting positively and chipper around everyone no matter what. They'd be shocked to know how low I get. Maybe I'm jealous that she is brave enough to do something about it? I'm always such a chicken. I am an awful person for feeling this way I know. I'm sorry.
  14. And another option to talk to your Dr about, if necessary, is if you cannot sleep well enough on the XR alone some people take the XR and then they take some small dose of the IR at bedtime for sleep. So you can take some of each kind. Or there are other options for sleep too if the XR isn't cutting it and your Dr doesn't want to prescribe some of the IR. Trazodone, a benzo, lunesta/Ambien/rozerem, remeron, vistaril, etc.
  15. I barely did at times. I would nap sometimes. But I tend to run really really extremely panicked/anxious all the time and can get full blown manic psychotic high a lot too. So it brought me down to a more baseline. I needed something to knock me down many notches. Not saying I'm perfectly sane now but I'm not getting committed to state institutions lately either. So yay? I'll take it!