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  1. I would write down all your symptoms that you are experiencing and questions/concerns you have and bring it to your next meeting. Your doctor should not be dismissive of your concerns. They fit with some of symptoms of Schizoeffective disorder and side effects of meds. Good luck.
  2. I'm on 300mg. Too much more and I am too sedated to function.
  3. Yes. In the past I told my pdoc I wanted to possibly work in the future but he said I shouldn't right away because the added stress will trigger my symptoms. I've been on SSI since my early twenties so I've barely ever worked (did college though). I want to work someday just because it could add some normalcy to my life. Now that I've been 80% stable for a year with clozapine, I was thinking about taking some coursees at the local community college to prepare me for a job. My only fear is that I don't have much of a resume and I can't explain to an employer why all those years after school were blank.
  4. I haven't been able to completely end my compulsive shopping BUT I've gotten better by shopping at cheap places (like the thrift store). That way I fulfill the urge to shop without breaking the bank.
  5. I loved risperidone. It was the first drug I took that made me stable. However, being an idiot, I stopped it and never got the same effect the second time I tried it.
  6. Aside from checking in with another person, my tdoc has taught me to ground myself if I'm hearing voices or whatever. You can do it in various ways. Focus on something in your environment like a picture on the wall or music. Focus all you can on that something and take some deep breaths and reconnect with reality.
  7. Yes. Bipolar and depression/anxiety run in my mom's side of the family. No one communicates with anyone anymore because we are all so fucked up.
  8. Trazodone really helped with my insomnia but then it eventually stopped working
  9. This is just my experience. Simply put, clozapine saved my life. It reduced my psychotic symptoms by I'd say 80% at least and I noticed it really helped my mood (even though most articles about this drug focus on its role in treating psychosis). I am very functional and social now that I'm on clozapine. That said, it is a pain in the ass when you first take it because of the blood tests. My main side effect was being extremely sedated. Like sleeping 12 or more hours. Finally my pdoc put me on adderall and that has helped a lot. I hope it works for you.
  10. I take Adderall to counter the sedativeness of clozapine. It helps me wake up early.
  11. I had GI problems with the extended release tablets so my pdoc switched me to instant release and I no longer had a problem.
  12. Maybe consider asking your pdoc for a stimulant. I have the same problem with you on clozapine and a stimulant helped with my morning grogginess.
  13. This question is directed not only for people who have a schizo diagnosis but also bipolar and severe depression/anxiety. I didn't know which forum to post this. Moderators feel free to move it if necessary. Basically, since I started clozapine about two years ago, I've reached stability. I only get mild voices every so often in a day but nothing major, which distort reality for me. I haven't been hospitalized in three years. The last time I was manic was probably three or four years ago, thanks to lithium. Yes I get minor mood switches but nothing I can't deal with mindfulness and CBT skills. I haven't been seriously suicidal for at least two years. Because of my success, I see my pdoc and tdoc every three months and they say they are amazed over how far I've come. I just wanted to give this background information to show that this thought is coming from a perspective of stability. It has always been a dream of mine to live in a foreign country and teach English. Right now, I'm looking at Southeast Asia. I have some contacts who could look for a position for me. The only problem I have is how do I get my meds? Especially clozapine, which also requires a blood test. I also wear hearing aids and what if they broke or something? Could I get them fixed? Back to the meds, I would be scared about asking a country's government if they have my meds because then they will realize I have a MI and deny me entry because stigma is very strong there. Also I don't know if there is some rule about SSI payments and being abroad? I will bring this up with my therapist the next time I see him. Maybe I should just plan a trip, instead of teaching?