CeremonyNewOrder

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  1. If I remember correctly, you can take up to 200mg of trazodone (contact doctor before adjusting your dose). Other sleep meds you could try: klonopin, restoril, lunesta, doxepin. I don't know what your diagnosis is but if your schizoeffective or schizophrenic, clozapine has helped me sleep better.
  2. Adderall was the only thing that helped me with Clozapine-induced sedativeness. Unfortunately, you can build up a tolerance though. I'd suggest maybe switching from valproic acid to lithium or lamictal.
  3. Clozapine has done the best for my symptoms but it can be very sedative and the intial weekly blood tests are a pain in the ass.
  4. Fuck life. The adderall stopped working in dealing with the massive sedation caused by clozapine so my pdoc said I should stop taking adderall for a week because I built up tolerance. I've been able to do nothing but sleep. Just when I thought I had my meds finally figured out. Why the fuck do I have to choose between being not psychotic and sedated or psychotic but awake? I hate this fucking illness. Why can't I be a normal person?
  5. Happy to be doing better symptom wise but I've felt very melancholy lately when I think of the past and how my illness kept me from achieving the most in any particular situation. And I feel like I'll never marry or have kids. How do I deal with these thoughts? I'm afraid of becoming super depressed again.
  6. I could not do exposure therapy until I was stable on meds, so maybe you should talk to your pdoc about maybe trying another medication. For the past year, I've done group therapy surrounding my social anxiety. Several things. You need to start slow. In my group, we have to speak in front of the group about something for 3 minutes. Maybe try small trips outside of the house at first and build. Also exposure therapy is not designed to make you 100% anxiety free but rather teaches you to live with the anxiety and manage as best as possible. Have you tried CBT therapy? This can be helpful for challenging negative and fearful thoughts. Also a mindfullness practice can help. Have faith, work with your pdoc, and realize it can be done! I was rarely social and rarely left the house until like a couple of years ago.
  7. I take 300mg all at night and it works during the day. I can't imagine taking clozapine during the day because its so sedative for me.
  8. Hi everyone, First, let me state that I do not take Adderall for ADHD. I take it to counter the sedation I get from Clozapine. My pdoc put me on 40mg of Adderall and for about a half of a year, I could wake up early and function during the day. However, starting last week I could not wake up until late afternoon and was still tired and I felt like I was stoned and could not think straight. I can only guess that I have built up a tolerance to the Adderall because the Adderall working was the variable that kept me awake after starting clozapine. I really hope this isn't the case because I've tried other stimulants and provigil all which didn't work. I can't quit clozapine It has saved my life. Any thoughts? Thanks.
  9. I support limited intervention in Syria that will actually save lives and contain Assad. Trump's strikes are just meant to distract from his domestic failures. They do nothing to deter Assad from using chemical weapons. I think we should create a no fly zone over northern Syria to protect refugees and our best ally in Syria, the Kurds.
  10. I hear you. I did a Master's degree but was never accepted into a PhD program. I have mixed feelings about graduate school and mental illness. I'm a total geek and love learning and I am always reading and I loved writing my thesis BUT I feel like graduate school can exacerbate symptoms. For one, you are working day and night and isolate yourself from the world and have no time to do something normal like going to the beach. I was severely depressed in graduate school because of this. It also appears like your work isn't paying off in anything tangible right away so I felt like I was wasting my life. I also find academics, for all their talk of social justice and equality, to be elitist snobs...the Harvard graduate will always be hired over the other candidate and academics also act like children most of the time as well.
  11. Finding the right medication combo was like 75% key for me. Afterwards, even though it still gave me anxiety, I was able to be more social and learn how to fill my day with activities. Also as an introvert with MI, I've learned to create a healthy balance between alone time and being active outside.
  12. I would write down all your symptoms that you are experiencing and questions/concerns you have and bring it to your next meeting. Your doctor should not be dismissive of your concerns. They fit with some of symptoms of Schizoeffective disorder and side effects of meds. Good luck.
  13. I'm on 300mg. Too much more and I am too sedated to function.
  14. Yes. In the past I told my pdoc I wanted to possibly work in the future but he said I shouldn't right away because the added stress will trigger my symptoms. I've been on SSI since my early twenties so I've barely ever worked (did college though). I want to work someday just because it could add some normalcy to my life. Now that I've been 80% stable for a year with clozapine, I was thinking about taking some coursees at the local community college to prepare me for a job. My only fear is that I don't have much of a resume and I can't explain to an employer why all those years after school were blank.