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Angeni Mai

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About Angeni Mai

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    I am but a figment ...
  • Birthday 10/29/1991

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  • Gender
    female
  • Location
    Somewhere, Earth, Universe
  • Interests
    Helping people, writing, photography, drawing, singing

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  1. What's that smell?? It's you! You aflacked, p-u!! :P 

    I loves youuu! <3 :) 

  2. A wild Fur in her natural habitat: her bedroom! :)

    My beautiful darling
  3. You are never forgotten <3 

  4. @Angeni Mai

    Public service announcement! Guess what! I love you <3 

    That is all.

    1. Angeni Mai

      Angeni Mai

      PSA: I love you more! VAH!

       

  5. I don't understand mourning the loss of somebody like him. IMHO, he was needing of repentance more than a lot of other people. He was hateful towards people who weren't like him. I'm not saying I'm glad he's dead, and I know the cycle will continue because of the mindless drivel he spewed in the "name of the Lord", but I am glad that he no longer has that influence.
  6. Yes, for a few moments, but it takes my brain a bit longer (5 - 10 minutes) to adjust and understand the reality.
  7. Lately I've been finding myself believing that there are kangaroos and camels in the backyard but later recognize them as deer. It makes no sense because neither kangaroo nor camel are native to my country. Additionally, I've been having issues with thinking I'm speaking with people and then when I ask them what we were just talking about, they either say we haven't talked about anything for a while or that we were talking about something completely unrelated to what I thought the conversation was. Any ideas of what the Hell might be going on here? I've never had something like this happen persistently up until a few months ago but now it's really becoming a concern. I start seeing a new psychiatrist on the 15th of March, and will bring all of this up, but I kind of wonder if anyone can give me a glimmer of insight of what might be happening here.
  8. Lately I've been finding myself believing that there are kangaroos and camels in the backyard but later recognize them as deer. It makes no sense because neither kangaroo nor camel are native to my country. Additionally, I've been having issues with thinking I'm speaking with people and then when I ask them what we were just talking about, they either say we haven't talked about anything for a while or that we were talking about something completely unrelated to what I thought the conversation was. Any ideas of what the Hell might be going on here? I've never had something like this happen persistently up until a few months ago but now it's really becoming a concern. I start seeing a new psychiatrist on the 15th of March, and will bring all of this up, but I kind of wonder if anyone can give me a glimmer of insight of what might be happening here.
  9. I believe that the theory behind "classic" and "quiet" types within the borderline spectrum came into being to either make it easier for treating doctors to recognize BPD in people who do not present as the "textbook case" or to make dealing with a diagnosis not so terrifying for people. I'm not going to lie, it still hurts me to this day that I was diagnosed with BPD. I do everything in my power to not be re-diagnosed because it hurts me as it gives validation to the points as to why nobody wants to be around me and it scares off potential doctors and/ or makes them believe I'm just being dramatic when I tell them anything. If I were to be re-diagnosed I'd honestly just off myself as most doctors don't talk about sub-categories of BPD and just see (mostly) everyone with it as terrible people who don't want or deserve help, so it is hard to find accurate help whether I'm honest or dishonest about my true self. Despite identifying as and wanting to be labelled as a quiet borderline, even I agree that sub-categorization in BPD is not a good idea because it further divides people with it and gives the notion of "good" and "bad" borderlines. It only serves to allow doctors to treat classic behavior within the diagnosis as a crime. No one with BPD is bad because of their symptoms and we all deserve to be treated fairly, and well, by loved ones, professionals, and peers. The system is failing if we are not treated with kindness and respect.
  10. You are brave, kind, beautiful, smart, talented, and amazing at everything you do and set your mind to. I'm so beyond happy to call you mine. I love you darling ❤️

  11. Are you okay Ang? You were doing not-great a few days ago.

     

  12. My mother had substance abuse issues and severe bipolar disorder. I was told it was likely that she had an undiagnosed personality disorder. My father has ADHD and alcoholism. Many, if not all of my immediate relatives on his side struggle with depression and/or ADHD. My older sister has anxiety, bipolar, and ADHD.
  13. What age did you start cutting?

    Aged 11, after my first suicide attempt.
  14. I don't find IP helps any. I just feel worse when I come out.
  15. Back on the scary-go-round Mood plummeted earlier and I've been feeling unsafe since. I just want off of this stupid ride called life.
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