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About coraline

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    you and your third dimension
  • Birthday 10/11/80

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    floating in space
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    Music. Creating art via paint or what ever strikes my fancy. Reading and writing,even when it's bad.Exploring the universe and possibilities beyond my mind. Doing whatever it takes to get and remain stable all while cursing the ones who throw meds at me and challenge my thinking. Moonlight and stars. The sky and its ever changing colors. Being near and walking on the beach preferably tropical,although I do enjoy my local ice cold waters. Collecting things I find..rocks,puzzle pieces,cards,bread ties,pamphlets,sugar packets,change..maybe I'm a mild freegan klepto. Anything Hello Kitty.Helping and supporting people even when I'm not feeling well myself. Venturing into the outdoors when possible. I have an awesome red cruiser bike named Vera I ride in circles,straight lines,ocasional left and right turns.She has white wall tires and peddle breaks and a kickstand and is easy going and we've been on many adventures.

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  1. I'm so fuzzy headed..it's hard to focus.. Trying to stay awake and do day to day stuff feels impossible.. I don't enjoy anything..I don't think I can deal with any of this..
  2. I can relate to this..ive been feeling similar..im not sure if its the meds or illness..all we can do is keep going and try to be gentle to ourselves.. Ive been med compliant since my last pdoc apointment..im feeling decent but still get breakthrough symptoms if im stressed..maybe this is as good as it gets..
  3. Visit with ms psychiatrist today...she wanted to lower meds but I do that on my own and it never ends well...she asked appropriate questions to determine to not lower meds..you see..I'm on disability now..less stress I guess..things still cause problems..I can barely leave the house..I'm stuck with the spies and ones who monitor to make sure I'm behaving in a society excepting way..the messages and codes and things I gotta figure out still haunt me..voices and commentary still exist...I'm stuck with this mess..the last thing I need is less meds and maybe some shinier sparkling day ill stop messing with them...and maybe on an even better day I can do it under my track suit wearing psychiatrist..
  4. I had an episode where faces were melting on the tv.. Somehow I've scraped myself together and am functioning to some standard..
  5. I'm not sure how sleep plays a role in my days on symptomatic behavior if you want to call it that..I hate the labels but in times they do apply.. I nap a lot when I'm symptomatic..I try to hide.. But there can also be the reverse of that to where I sleep very little but this current cocktail has me pretty knocked out at night..
  6. Some days are just hard..allow yourself to rest..nothing bad is going to happen if you don't get everything done in one day..small steps.. I get coded message speak too and it can be terrifying so I can relate..you will make it through it all...these are passing times.. If your pdoc is giving you the ok to raise your meds than its worth a try..I get similar breakthrough symptoms..stress really is a motivator for me as well
  7. Well it's initially up to you unless it's court ordered and even then I guess it's up to you..I compare myself pre meds and it's way more scary than without..I'm in no means completely symptom free..some stuff just won't let go..but I'm better off with meds..so I hope you reconsider your options and choice
  8. I'm just having one of those days that creep slowly as I stare blankly at the wall..
  9. Everything I'm told are delusions I've had recurring throughout my life of this illness..I'd rather not go into details of what they are I'm kinda triggery these days..some new one has popped up pretty recently but I can't shake it and it's been months now..
  10. Just wanted to chime in and say I hope the klonopin helps..My pdoc raised mine too pretty recently..I'm a calmed down version..
  11. I'm on 2 antipsychotics and struggle with what they say is delusional..I'm thinking I'm just stuck with it honestly..
  12. I hardly dream anymore and when I do it's either really demented and disturbing or in cartoon..
  13. I find myself blankly starring at the wall or through words on pages or through the tv..I find it gets worse with stress.. I don't know the cause or how to manage it..I've never brought it up to pdoc...it kinda escapes my mind when I'm there