crtclms

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  1. I moved this to the proper forum. Someone with experience with Zoloft is more likely to see this.
  2. I think couples where both of them have a mental illness are common. I'm the only crazy person in my relationship, though. But there are lots, especially where one of them isn't admitting they have a mental illness. I did have a boyfriend who got really, really depressed. We were together one way or another for 14 years, but it wasn't very healthy. But that doesn't mean that that would have to apply to your relationship. I'm married to someone I never would have predicted. You just never know how things will work out.
  3. I've read things somewhere, too. That doesn't make them dispositive.
  4. Congratulations!
  5. Yes. I told him right away. I was worried that I was doing so well before we got married that he'd flip out the first time he *really* saw what the crazy looked like. He is so relaxed about it. He doesn't want me to feel sick, but it isn't something he considers a deal-breaker. His first wife was also crazy, but it sounds like she was more vindictive when she was having episodes. He doesn't even like me comparing myself to her. But we have been really happy. In fact, it's when times are hardest that we say to each other how glad we are to be married. I never thought I'd be happily married.
  6. You're thought broadcasting, which is when you think people can read your mind (you probably know that). You're having auditory hallucinations. You're writing style is more, I can't quite come up with the word, disjointed? Which means you aren't thinking as clearly as usual. You definitely need to see your tdoc (why not your pdoc? Just curious). Ask someone who has been hospitalized, because I have not been, but I am pretty sure that if you self-commit, you'll have more control over the situation, than if it is involuntary. I'm not saying you have to suggest it, though. You don't sound like you are going to harm yourself, which is a big point in your favor. And right now, I'm hearing voices, too. I was going to put a smiley right there, but then realized that was ridiculous. What's your diagnosis? Then we can decide whether to move this thread or not.
  7. I'm not 100% sure this fits, but are you familiar with derealization? It's different than depersonalization, but they are related. It's weird, because you could say, "My hand is part of my body, so it's depersonalization," or "My hand looks unfamiliar to me, and I'm taken aback when I see it, so it is derealization." Which is a long way of saying I don't know, but that both thoughts occurred to me when you described what is going on. Do you have any idea as to why it's your hand and not, say, your foot? Is it your dominant hand? Has your hand ever been "involved" in something unsettling, like violence? This is all me talking out of my ass, but that's my thought process about what's happening.
  8. My pdoc once told me if you're in a conversation with someone, and you aren't listening to what they're saying, but are waiting for them to "shut up" so you can talk some more, that's probably hypo. Even if you can't go to sleep, lying on your bed in a dark room for a couple of hours is still helpful. But it's good that you can sleep a little.
  9. If it were me, I would be *really* affected! Maybe you have pushed it aside as something your mind wouldn't allow you to examine? Gobbledygook to some extent, but.... I know this doesn't parallel your story very much, but when a boyfriend attacked me, I developed PTSD. I got free counseling at a battered women's shelter. If money is tight, maybe you would want to look into it. She was one of the best therapists I've ever had, and she helped me with a lot more than trauma.
  10. What makes you feel like someone is in the house with you? I'm not saying this is the same thing, but sometimes I could have sworn my husband was in the room, but he wasn't even in the house. My pdoc at the time said that that feeling of a presence is something like deja vu and jamais vu. Not in a spooky way, though.
  11. We're close to the equinox (a week from today), and that is probably more important than daylight savings in terms of my symptoms. But it doesn't help
  12. When I go to a bar (night clubs are a thing of the past for me), I always sit with my husband and friends at a table, instead of standing amongst a crowd of strangers. Nothing is fool proof, but having many friendly eyes on our drinks is helpful. I have a friend who was drugged in a night club. But he's the only person I've ever known that has had that happen to him, and it was almost 20 years ago. Well, I know about Flash, now, too.
  13. I hate daylight savings time, it screws with my mood. In either direction. Fortunately, I see my (new, sigh) pnurse on Wednesday.
  14. Um, I did not say that people should base there decision on what my husband experience. However, it was an experience, so I shared it. You haven't notice that we talk about bad experiences, too? So people that are fully informed? And, it's nothing they wouldn't find on the PI. So why don't you get off of your high horse.
  15. The first time I was hypo, I was a senior in high school. We were supposed to be limited to 5 courses, but I took 7, plus choir, plus voice lessons, plus the school musical, plus violin lessons. It just looked like I was a dynamo to others, no one noticed anything unusual. My school was actually thrilled that I could juggle so much. So people watching from the wings didn't notice anything wrong. And then I crashed. That is kind of the problem with Hypo. Because you feel good, it's really hard to accept that you're having an episode.