crtclms

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  1. You could be clearer about what you mean. You certainly sound like you like drinking. And you did make a mistake about alcohol content. Admitting it makes you seem less of a fucking idiot. I've always discussed alcohol with my pdocs, who have told me when it is, and when it is not okay to drink. I've been in treatment a long time, and have had pdocs that were fine with light drinking, like 1-3 drinks a month, depending on what meds I was on. It's her pdoc that is the one she needs to ask. And she'll need a long term conversation about alcohol with him or her, anyway. Sorry to talk about you in the third person, Tearful. I definitely wouldn't drink while ramping up on a new med. You have no idea what your reaction will be, because you aren't even clear on what the med is going to do for you yet. Oh, and "chill?" How about, "fuck off?" They're both equally valid points.
  2. I've moved this thread to "Cocktails," you are more likely to get someone who knows something about your combo. First, I think you should call your pdoc, because s/he might want to tweak your meds. Sometimes you can't tolerate a side effect. I can't say for you whether or not this is one of those times, but when you use the term "bit off more than I can chew" about psychiatric medications, well, my pdoc would want to know that. I don't know your relationship with your pdoc, of course. I don't know anything about your cocktail, unfortunately. Welcome to Crazyboards. Please make sure to read our CrazyRules. Please contact any of the moderators or admins if you have questions, or need help.
  3. You would think no one would fake mental illness, but those of us who *have* mental illnesses, and wish they would go away, have a hard time understanding why anyone would *want* it. Unfortunately, people do fake MI, and then we suffer the consequences of their idiocy.
  4. I have several diagnoses. I am Bipolar, and have GAD. I also have Chronic Daily Migraine, and renal tubular acidosis, which is the result of my taking zonegran for migraine (damage very rare, my ndoc says I was among the first reported cases). The RTA gives me copious kidney stones, so I've had several lithotripsies, which are sound waves to break up stones, so you can pass them in your urine, I'm aging, and while none of these illnesses are rooted in aging, they make me feel like I'm 75. I believe that I have them, because they're pervasive and run my life. For a long time, I kinda believed i was bipolar, but every episode made me feel less sure, not more. I felt, and was meant to feel, so guilty about it. People were saying I was doing it to get attention, and I was still young enough to think they knew something I didn't. Then I went into remission for 8 years, which made me even less certain. But it came roaring back. Now I believe it without much effort. When I used to read about people who had migraines every day, yet were somehow sitting upright and posting online, I would think to myself, "No fucking way. No one has migraines every day." And for this calumny, I was punished.;)
  5. Medical doctors go to school for 10+ years, but they need to know every subject there is about a person's entire body. On the other hand, a psychologist goes to graduate school, and spends all 6 years of it studying one subject.
  6. I moved this to the proper forum. Someone with experience with Zoloft is more likely to see this.
  7. I think couples where both of them have a mental illness are common. I'm the only crazy person in my relationship, though. But there are lots, especially where one of them isn't admitting they have a mental illness. I did have a boyfriend who got really, really depressed. We were together one way or another for 14 years, but it wasn't very healthy. But that doesn't mean that that would have to apply to your relationship. I'm married to someone I never would have predicted. You just never know how things will work out.
  8. I've read things somewhere, too. That doesn't make them dispositive.
  9. Congratulations!
  10. Yes. I told him right away. I was worried that I was doing so well before we got married that he'd flip out the first time he *really* saw what the crazy looked like. He is so relaxed about it. He doesn't want me to feel sick, but it isn't something he considers a deal-breaker. His first wife was also crazy, but it sounds like she was more vindictive when she was having episodes. He doesn't even like me comparing myself to her. But we have been really happy. In fact, it's when times are hardest that we say to each other how glad we are to be married. I never thought I'd be happily married.
  11. You're thought broadcasting, which is when you think people can read your mind (you probably know that). You're having auditory hallucinations. You're writing style is more, I can't quite come up with the word, disjointed? Which means you aren't thinking as clearly as usual. You definitely need to see your tdoc (why not your pdoc? Just curious). Ask someone who has been hospitalized, because I have not been, but I am pretty sure that if you self-commit, you'll have more control over the situation, than if it is involuntary. I'm not saying you have to suggest it, though. You don't sound like you are going to harm yourself, which is a big point in your favor. And right now, I'm hearing voices, too. I was going to put a smiley right there, but then realized that was ridiculous. What's your diagnosis? Then we can decide whether to move this thread or not.
  12. I'm not 100% sure this fits, but are you familiar with derealization? It's different than depersonalization, but they are related. It's weird, because you could say, "My hand is part of my body, so it's depersonalization," or "My hand looks unfamiliar to me, and I'm taken aback when I see it, so it is derealization." Which is a long way of saying I don't know, but that both thoughts occurred to me when you described what is going on. Do you have any idea as to why it's your hand and not, say, your foot? Is it your dominant hand? Has your hand ever been "involved" in something unsettling, like violence? This is all me talking out of my ass, but that's my thought process about what's happening.
  13. My pdoc once told me if you're in a conversation with someone, and you aren't listening to what they're saying, but are waiting for them to "shut up" so you can talk some more, that's probably hypo. Even if you can't go to sleep, lying on your bed in a dark room for a couple of hours is still helpful. But it's good that you can sleep a little.
  14. If it were me, I would be *really* affected! Maybe you have pushed it aside as something your mind wouldn't allow you to examine? Gobbledygook to some extent, but.... I know this doesn't parallel your story very much, but when a boyfriend attacked me, I developed PTSD. I got free counseling at a battered women's shelter. If money is tight, maybe you would want to look into it. She was one of the best therapists I've ever had, and she helped me with a lot more than trauma.
  15. What makes you feel like someone is in the house with you? I'm not saying this is the same thing, but sometimes I could have sworn my husband was in the room, but he wasn't even in the house. My pdoc at the time said that that feeling of a presence is something like deja vu and jamais vu. Not in a spooky way, though.