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  1. Thank you, I am only on Concerta and gabapentin, I am not happy but not that bad either, I guess I am improving. And finally I am beginning psychotherapy with my pdoc , the diagnosis issue was really validating. I think things with him will improve a lot since now. My next step is clarify my objective and tell him something about my past, it will be this Tuesday, I hope it goes well I have written a letter... How are you doing? With lamictal? Could you find a pdoc that gives you stimulants for depression?
  2. ... No options, I am still with my pdoc. It is not that bad in the end, he said he believes I have Complex PTSD. I never told him anything about complex PTSD, I was shocked in a possitive way when he said it.
  3. I am done. I asked for a referral hoping I can find someone like my ex-pdoc, with him I was better than now and without taking any medication. But I was told last time the only options where a regular outpatient facility seeing a psychiatrist once each 2-3months, my ex-pdoc worked in a place no longer exists. I hope there is another option I wasn't told about or I am dead. I haven't been told where I will have to go or with whom yet. I hope really hope there is another option... Here poor traumatized people with MI are condemned to dead or suffering.
  4. I just wanted to say I hope everyone it's doing OK, lately I have been too busy and stopped reading the forum.
  5. Eysash yah Hi! I hope I could feel happy inside, but too much trauma, stress, being poor, ... makes it impossible. It is not anything new, ... actually I think I am better because at least I am not deep inside psychotic lol
  6. Has any of you found gabapentin helpful for your depression/mood? I have found if I take 600mg of it at night I wake up feeling less tired and with a little better mood.
  7. Here it's not approved for adults or depression either... so I was really luckly I found this pdoc. I guess nobody else would ever prescribe it to me... I am sorry your pdoc continue refusing to prescribe it, it's really weird because you tried it before and it went well.
  8. Here what it's normal in regular outpatient facilities it's having a pdoc you see once each 2 months in the begining, then once 2-4 months and when you are stable, once each 4-6 months. You can see a psychologist once a month if they consider the issue it's mainly psychological, but since I am diagnosed with schizophrenia they won't assgined me a psychologist. When I was in one of the two regular outpatient facilities that treat mental illness here, I wasn't given the opportunity to talk with a psychologist... When I am right now, a non regular outpatient facility (it's a day hospital), there is a psychiatrist and a psychologist, actually I could talk to both at the same time if I asked to, or with one of them, but I don't find myself really comfortable with the psychologist... Anyway, I am doing more or less OK, I go to 2/3 of lessons and try to study a bit everyday. I am not dying, but I am unhappy deep inside, a silent sadness...
  9. Ahhh I think I am seeing him earlier, I don't know! I can't stand more than 1 day without Concerta because of depression... but I don't want to take it everyday either! I am not so sure about chaning pdoc, I like him even if I don't like talking to him, he accepts different approaches... I can't overlap with two pdocs since I am seeing him through the public health system, and if I am discharged from the day hosptial I won't see him again, I would have to go to a normal outpatient facility and ask for an appointment there (I can't ask while I am "signed in" the day hospital). I think I don't want to risk to lose my Concerta. Being diagnosed with schizophrenia, taking a really low dose of an AP and a stimulant it's really rare here, actually, they don't give Concerta to adults because it's not approved here. We don't have adderall either, there are really few approved ADHD meds, and only 1 of them is also approved for adult. None is approved for fatigue, depression, etc. and they are really reclutant to prescribe them. My pdoc is 60 years old, he has been working time enough to know there are really big exceptions, and he has directly told me he has never given Concerta to anyone over 16 years old...... and he is someone who works in a day hospital and treats people with severe mental illness, not a regular pdoc who mostly see people with mild-moderate anxiety and depression. He is good as a psychiatrist, he is not good as a psychotherapist for me, but that's my fault! My pride is giant, I like doing everything by my own, I can't freely talk about my problems with almost anyone (there was just one exception in all my life, my ex-pdoc). I think it's me, not him. I have to solve this instead of risking my gold med (Concerta).
  10. I never liked to talk to him... unless it's about medication. He said there are few a bad alternatives, we talked about them, and I have to decide what to do and tell him next appointment (next month, normally I see him weekly)
  11. I saw my pdoc today. We didn't talk, I don't like talking to him, I just want my meds. He is supposed to be my psychotherapist too, I can't get another one (I am not paying him, it's the public health system). I want to talk with someone but not with him... He said he wants to talk and not only giving me meds, bah. I told him I don't want to see him more than once a month because there is nothing to talk about. I just don't connect with him and I am not comfortable (and I told him this). It's so frustrating.
  12. For me the reason mainly is that I am completely alone in my room, while the rest of the week I go to college or to the day hospital. Uhm, I don't think the cause it's the break, it's more likely it just the general reason why I feel worse on weekends: I am more lonely.
  13. Any tips to avoid Concerta tolerance? I feel a boost in my mood the first 2-3 days that dissapear after that, but my concentration keeps improved and I feel less tired even after a week taking it everyday. I am taking it mainly for negative symptoms of schizophrenia and depressive symptoms. I was thinking on taking it like this: Monday: 36mg Tuesday: 36mg Wednesday: 0mg Thursday: 36mg Friday: 0mg Saturday: 18mg Sunday: 0mg I cannot rest from it for more than 2 days or I get totally useless and depressed again....
  14. Thank you, in the end the nurse didn't cancell the appointments I had : ) Thank you for asking. I was really sad and anxious during the weekend, a bit suicidal, but today (Monday) I took 36mg of Concerta and felt great again. I am still anxious, but not as sad, as tired, and as bad as before (I took a break from it on thr weekend because I am afraid of developing tolerance) Thank you, I could sleep... a lot, thanks to gabapentin. I think he didn't call back because he knows I have a lot of self-control and my "emergencies" can wait, I know he cares because he gave me two appointments for this week because I was really low on Friday. Now I am feeling better : )