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  1. I am annoyed, I study, I avoid sleeping, I don't stop....and if I take those meds I am Mr.Nobody. Without a past or reason to fight in the present. What about those beautiful voces? THEY ARE ALL MINE, for a reason they are here. I cannot live with them, I cannot live without them.
  2. Nevermind i keep taking it for a while.
  3. The ICD-10 has codes for everything, I guess when they began to use it they realized F62.00 and F43.12 meant the same but the second with less stigma since it is not 'almost' a PD. It made me stable in few days, and well behaved. I wasn't happy, but I wasn't sad. I was just worried about socioeconomical issue but not that much, not as worried and 'rage' as I would be in the past. So I had to stop it. I don't like when psychpharmms thouch my personality, this made me a tamed humann. Maybe what everyone would call 'normal', if I get mixed again I will take it 1-2 days until the agitation goes away and then keep the hypomania..
  4. Uhmmm I didn't know it was invalid, actually I just found and looked for F62 : http://eciemaps.msssi.gob.es/ecieMaps/browser/index_10_mc.html#search=&flags=111100&flagsLT=11111111&searchId=1494525770484&indiceAlfabetico=&listaTabular=id-10532-class-F60-F69&expand=0&clasification=cie10mc&version=2010 But there is only is F60, F63, F64, F65, F66, F68 and F69... Maybe on an older version 62.00 existed? I found it here, it is still invalid since I looked on all ICD 10 codes and not only those diagnosticable: http://eciemaps.msssi.gob.es/ecieMaps/browser/index_10_2008.html#search=F60&index=&searchId=1494526896526&historyIndex=1 --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I think It can be diagnosed under F43.12 (I know it is in Spanish but you can see the codes anyway) http://eciemaps.msssi.gob.es/ecieMaps/browser/index_10_mc.html#search=&flags=111100&flagsLT=11111111&searchId=1494525981443&indiceAlfabetico=&listaTabular=F43&expand=0&clasification=cie10mc&version=2010 In English, In ICD-10, F43 are PTSD and adaptative problems, and F43.12 as chronic PTSD. F62.00 was also called chronic PTSD and not only ''Enduring personality change after a catastrophic experience'', maybe that's why it was removed: http://icd10coded.com/cm/ch5/F40-F48/F43/F43.12/
  5. Resting from college studying....GOD!!!

  6. Hi, It seems it kills most of agitation but it is not doing anything for the hypomanic like symptoms: more energy, less sleep, more social, expend more money, etc. I don't feel any side effect.
  7. Thank you for answering I was put on depakote 300mg twice a day.
  8. I make a list of what want, how much costs and how much I need it. It takes a lot of time so this in part, the only fact of making the list helps with compulsive shopping. I always bring a notebook with me to add the things I want, and never have more than few euros on my pocket. Then I consider how much money I can spend this month, and chose what to buy leaving some money for buying urges that weren't in the list. I don't carry this money and have it at home, so if I have to go home to take the money and return to the shop, I have time to check my list and rethink if I need or I prefer to save it for other things in the list. Online buying is the worst, but I have my wish list in a notebook and add what I see online there, so I can compare again, see the money I have left to spend,see other things I want to buy.... Collecting is also helpful when it is not about expensive stuff.
  9. also, I think what I did on Friday night that was more or less likely to kill me... didn't like him. Maybe he felt burnt out because I saw him that same day and told him everythin about agitation and so...
  10. Until my agitation is reduced to 0, until I am not agitated anymore.
  11. You know, I think he focused so much on the CPTSD he forgot I have other issues related indirectly with CPTSD that cannot be treated with meds that reduce anxiety like pregabalin and Trazodone. He named mania and valporate last week, but during this session he seemed not convinced by that, and insisted it was anxiety until I told him people from anxiety don't happly think and find fun on severely SH, and are not irritable, agitated, self isolated because you know you are so irritable and agitated you will scream at people... so he acepted to give me the valporated but saying he is not sure that would work. I think he doesn't want the possibility of me having a major disorder like bipolar, schizophrenia or both. He quit the SZ diagnosis once I was more coherent....and he wannts to explain anything through CPTSD. If he truly believed It was only anxiety he wouldn't have given me the valporate... Which has reduced the agitation but I want to wait until it is 0 to directly relate to people.
  12. I don't know, I feel it reduced the agitation 90% but the enourmos energy and the bad feelings even if happy didn't change. Maybe is it placebo?
  13. But when it works it put you out of the episode inmediatly? Because if you are havily psychotic sometimes it takes day to become mildy psychotic when an antipsychotic is added.
  14. How much time does it need to take you out of this crazyness? also weight gain is inevitable?
  15. He gave me depakine long release 300mg twice a day, I told him if it wasn't better to take the ER, inmediat release, since I am acute and the ER version makes you have more valporate in yor blood while the long release make you have the same amount but during 12h. He got angry. I admit I told him that in an angry agitated maybe rude way, but I think he overreacted since he said "It seems everything I say is wrong for you, you are not happy with anything I do, I don't know if this continue like this I will keep you as a patient..." with was wtf since I am normally kind. I answer him back telling him It wasn't about him but about me being generally agitated and irritable, that I am avoiding any social contact because I will ruin my friendships being like this. In the end he seemed to understand but it makes me feel really bad to the point of crying. ... in the biginning he insisted it was anxiety, I don't know what kind of anxiety makes you feel so happy you want to kill others because it seem fun, and then so irritable and agitated inside you want to scream until you have no voice anymore. Ironically when I describe a 'high' a week ago he said the description was a manic state.