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  1. Try to remember what was hardest about your previous experiences with depression, and figure out coping skills based on each individual symptom rather than just "depression". For me, it's a general lack of motivation paired with physical exhaustion and a dash of self-hatred. I can (and probably should), for instance, make sure I have a serious caffeine stash in multiple accessible places, take my Adderall, and focus preemptively on self care. Finally, when you can't see a light at the end of the tunnel, remember that since you've felt better before, you can again.
  2. That's what it sounds like to me. Have you told your doctor yet? Has it happened again?
  3. So first I was hypomanic, which my shrink denies, then crashed into depression, and now I'm being considered to be my boss- he resigned, I applied, I might run an entire nonprofit organization. Uhhhh it's been making me really anxious. It's the waiting. I have another 8 days or so until I find out if I have an in-person interview. For more details, see my blog. My moods have been funky the past few days, and I thought I was going to have to call my shrink, but apparently it was PMS. Lolz. Now I have epic cramps that makes me want to curl up in a ball.
  4. Got CRAMPS, yo. :( OUCH.

    1. nervousbat


      Awe!! I'm sorry about your body being a jerk to you. I hope you find some relief soon. 

    2. KnickNak


      I feel yo pain gurl, get that Motrin out. 

  5. New lipstick, and I found my grandmother's clip-on earrings FINALLY. They were missing for a couple months, and they're my FAVORITE. Favorite-color scarf, too.
  6. It took a good 45 minutes for me to calm down enough to try to go back to sleep, but I had to have my husband behind me in case something tried to grab me. I have no idea where that feeling came from, but it was REALLY strong. I've never experienced the feeling of an entity being with me. I kept getting chills up my spine.
  7. I feel like there is a ghost-like entity wrapped around my right shoulder and side, touching my neck and hair. The feeling came out of nowhere about a half hour ago, and I've been crying on and off because I know if I move it will follow me. I took a klonopin 25 mins ago and am still feeling the entity.
  8. Yes, this, 100%. I have been on Effexor for years, and the withdrawal symptoms (dizziness, lightheadedness) are INTENSE and come on FAST. Like, "I forgot my dose I was supposed to take two hours ago, and now I'm so dizzy I have to leave work for the day and go to the pharmacy and lay in my bed until the spins stop," kind of fast. Oh, they're funsies, for sure. I've never been on Cymbalta, so I don't have a lot more to say on the subject, but if you ever want to know anything more about Effexor, let me know. I take 375mg/day (the MAX- I'm special).
  9. Wooooahhhhh. Chill, everybody. For the record, I am perfectly aware of the term cuckold and have been since it came up in a college class. I was never aware of any racial undertones, but hey, a lot of higher ed whitewashes things and leaves out the race parts. I started searching for references, but I ran into a lot of porn (haha, learn something new every day), and I'm on my work computer, so I had to stop. I would be opposed to the term whether it is a racial reference or not, as it IS a reference to old-timey thoughts about men's, basically, ownership over women.
  10. Yes, that's what he said. I could potentially get a second opinion. I just can't bear the thought of finding a new shrink, going over my history, trusting them enough to open up about the severity of my symptoms, etc. It all just feels so threatening.
  11. I'm going to try calling back after a couple days and bug him. We'll see. Otherwise I'm definitely getting a second opinion.
  12. Yeah, I should have been more specific. He's prescribing.
  13. I've never been diagnosed with bipolar. I had all my levels checked recently and was in the clear. :/