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  1. Contemporary medical opinion is that processed meats (and to a lesser extent, red meat) are carcinogenic. I've probably read far too much into this, because I'm a researcher (currently doing a PhD) with pretty persistent health anxieties, and reading about it is the only thing that calms me down. If you make the switch to a plant-based diet, you do have to be careful about excessive carb and fat intake though, as a lot of vegetarian substitutes don't do well in these fields... so it can be a choice between increased bowel cancer risk or increased blood sugar/saturated fat unless you put a lot of effort into meal planning... and having mood and anxiety issues can mean that the energy just isn't there. Everything else they've said is reprehensible. I wonder how much of this is taught at med schools (i.e. mention whatever you want which might be applicable despite how inappropriate the setting is or what your responsibilities are)... it always surprises me how inappropriate or unempathetic some doctors are. I was depressed, having panic attacks, hallucinating and delusional and a doctor I saw told me that I shouldn't quit my job because it paid well, despite it being the original trigger for the episode. She also told me to just "not eat stuff" with respect to severe cravings, and told me that GPs can't renew lithium scripts. She had to call another GP who said she could. She had also been practicing for almost 40 years...
  2. CATT

    In case other people find this thread... I will honestly say that the CATT team was the worst thing to happen to my mental health, possibly ever. I am not anti-treatment, but their actions led to multiple hospitalizations and numerous treatment teams trying to patch up their mistakes for well over a year afterwards. Proceed with caution and prudence.
  3. Maybe you're bisexual and homoromantic? Labels are frustrating and you don't have to have them if you don't want. I get the desire to want a label, as it makes things cleaner and there's a sense of belonging. I was like that once, but things have changed for me over the past few years. I would probably fall under bisexual/biromantic but the politics of claiming those labels is dicey for me, as I've never been in a same-sex relationship. I came out to one of my parents who told me to never tell anyone. So I just change my label depending on who I'm talking to.
  4. The hunger is easier to manage if you don't eat much sugar and have slow-release carbs (low-GI). That will likely reduce cravings dramatically. This website gives some good information on low-GI foods (http://www.diabetes.org/food-and-fitness/food/what-can-i-eat/understanding-carbohydrates/glycemic-index-and-diabetes.html?referrer=https://www.google.com.au/). Some of the low-GI foods like lentils are extremely cheap (they swell a lot when you cook them).
  5. Having some issues understanding the differences between anxiety and paranoia, because to me they seem entwined. How is paranoia treated when it occurs outside of psychosis?
  6. Does anyone else wonder whether they've failed at something because they're not good enough, or whether it's just the illness? Or how do draw the line? I'm doing a PhD at the moment. I've worked for my supervisors before, and they wanted me to come join them again. I got positive letters of recommendation from my undergrad. However, I can't get the train wreck that was my undergraduate thesis out of my head. It was a really bad year - I was hospitalized three times for a total of six weeks, had terrible cognitive effects and couldn't read, and decided to take time off but work on my thesis from home without any calls to my supervisor... but had anxiety attacks at the thought of sitting in front of my computer to work. How do people figure out if something they did was the illness or just because of themselves? I'm worried about making wrong life choices... it's so daunting.
  7. I've read some studies talking about how people with bipolar and schizophrenia sprectrum disorders tend to have lower life expectancies, even when you take out suicide. I was wondering if people knew people with bipolar who lived normal life expectancies? I'm really worried and stressed. I know a large chunk of that figure is due to lifestyle factors (smoking, obesity, drug abuse), but can you consciously make efforts to improve things? I don't drink, I don't smoke, I exercise most days, I'm trying to cut down on sugar, I don't eat red or processed meat, I drink 3L of water a day. I feel like things are lost though no matter how hard I try.
  8. Lithium doesn't make me flat at all. It also hasn't really helped my anxiety, but antipsychotics have been useful in this regard (I can't take antidepressants).
  9. I get this exact thing too.
  10. Playing devil's advocate... is there any chance she's taking it for your own good? As in, if you're being a douche to her, are you impulsive enough to be acting inappropriately to other people via text/facebook? I say this as someone who always thinks they are measured and insightful when manic. However, every time I'm manic and have access to technology, I end up contacting EVERYONE, talking in a manner that shows that I'm completely loopy, and say things that are so concerning that my friend in London looked up a way to call my parents on another continent. Is it possible that she's doing it because you lack insight, and she thinks it's the most effective way to signal that you've crossed the line? Agree with others that it may not be the most effective method anyway. I think it's also important to remember that our carers are far from perfect. They make mistakes, definitely. But being a carer is hard, emotionally taxing and sometimes effort doesn't translate into results. Carers also get very little education on how to care, what works, what doesn't. I don't think your partner should get a get out of jail free card, but it's very easy for us to criticize over the internet, without considering that maybe she's trying her best in a difficult situation. I don't know how I would fare in her shoes.
  11. Schizoaffective bipolar ?

    It's been mentioned that I might (or might not). There a lot of people with schizoaffective (bipolar type) who post here, in response to your question.
  12. Getting through stress

    It's usually like severe depression but doesn't last as long as a regular episode, so to me it doesn't seem like a regular reaction to stress. Generally it's accompanied by persistent suicidal thoughts, extreme lethargy, emotional blunting and despair.
  13. I haven't had a major episode for a year, but I find that when I go through periods of high stress my brain tends to crash for a couple of weeks once it's done - in a very nasty way. I had this happen a few months ago after I prepared my grad school application (I had four days to get it all done, don't ask). I have a major six-hour exam on Saturday, and today I feel like I've been slammed with a sack of bricks. I'm sure there's something chemically going on in my brain when stress reaches this sort of level. Anyway, does anyone have any suggestions about how to cope with the crash, or even how to make it less painful? These episodes for me usually only last a few weeks, so they're not really something I could medicate away.
  14. I don't have a parent with bipolar disorder, but I wanted to add that most people with bipolar disorder to respond to treatment statistically. This doesn't have to be a perfect response, but it can mean fewer episodes which are milder and shorter. You don't necessarily get that sense here because this is a website which disproportionately attracts people who are really struggling with this illness (and people often leave once they're well). When I was first diagnosed, my psychiatrist told me that I'd be surprised how many people were walking around campus on lithium. The way I think of it is that I live a fulfilling life most of the time these days (thanks meds!), and if I have to pay for it with an episode or hospitalisation every few years, it's still worth it. You've seen what can happen when someone has unmanaged bipolar disorder. Use that as a motivation to stick to treatment.
  15. Yes. I can't get life insurance, or many forms of health insurance (and have to pay a premium when I do). I can't join the police force, intelligence services or military. There are departments of the public service where I would not be able to work. The more "crazy" your diagnosis is, the more doctors write off physical health complaints. Some doctors won't take you on.