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    tea, art, witchcraft

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  1. How do I delete my account???

    1. Cerberus


      I noticed your question in your status report. I'm afraid that at Crazyboards we do not delete member accounts. To do so would remove members' content that is woven through the threads of our boards, leaving holes in the conversations between members and resulting is places where meaning and context is lost. We preserve the content as it is the fabric that this peer support site offers not only the original posters but readers who come after.

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  2. My depression has been so bad lately, I seriously need to buy more meds...

    I just want to go home, I can barely focus at work...

  3. I feel so depressed... last night I felt so numb, first time I'd regretted throwing my blades away...

  4. I just want to go home and shower :(


  5. I really need to stop forgetting to take my meds... I just want to go home and curl up under the blankets and not deal with anything :c

  6. Nearly home time...

  7. I should really get out of bed... :(

  8. Well... turns out what my best friend thought was a bad ear infection is actually brain cancer...

    1. RepentantSpatula


      I'm so sorry. 


    2. Chantho


      I am so sorry. 

  9. I need to stop forgetting to take my meds...

  10. Thank you for your condolences. And unfortunately no... though I'm going to try looking into other forms of support that will fit around my work...
  11. Hi, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I wish I knew what to say, I don't know if anything I offer is helpful. Wait it out, talk to someone on the phone, please don't hurt yourself, you're not alone in this. You're still loved and cared about. 

  12. Kinda really want to hurt myself...

    1. dragonfly23


      kinda of wish you wont.  Can you reach out to a Pdoc or Tdoc?

    2. TeaLovingMess


      I don't have a therapist or anything that I can reach out to currently... but I managed to hold off the urges

    3. dragonfly23


      😊       Glad you did.  Your stronger than you know.

  13. I've got a bloody awful cold, and I can't take anything for it thanks to my meds! :angry:

  14. Tealover: Scream. cry. keen,talk about her, walk and walk and walk. Start over and do it again and one day you'll find yourself smiling at a memory. It's a process and it feels like hell but let yourself go through it. There are no shortcuts. And one day you'll also find you are stronger than you thought. One more thing. Don't let ANYONE tell you it's time to move on. There's no time limit, it's not a contest. It a wound and every wound and every person has their own time period. If some one tells you you are dwelling on it too much find someone else to talk to. Talking about the death of a loved one helps tne healing and honors their memory. And remember the good and the bad. Trust that your mind will make sense of it in your own time and way. Do not lock yourself inside yourself. Sometimes the numbness may feel like a relief, an escape. But the escape is temporary and will ultimately delay the healing. In no way does healing involve forgetting. It enhances the relationship you had. The pain will feel interminable at times. You just have to trust. Do small things, that you know would please your grandmother to continue her legacy. This will near be easy no matter how many times you go through it.

    1. TeaLovingMess


      Thank you... this all means a lot to me

  15. I feel like sometimes everything just seems to happen at once, or at the worst time possible. I haven't been able to afford my medication, and so haven't taken it in over a week, and on the weekend my partner and his dad got in a massive argument over our room being untidy (we live with his parents until we can afford our own place), which resulted in me hurting myself, which I'd so far managed to avoid doing for months. On that evening I got a call from my mum telling my my Grandad had passed away, and though I knew it was coming, I wasn't expecting it so soon. I just feel like everything is piling up around me and there's nothing I can do. Because I work full time I can't see the outreach worker I only just got off the waiting list for, and the only decent therapist I've had has a massive waiting list too. I honestly just feel quite lost.