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  1. Okay fair enough matey. I wasn't aware of this. Never done really done any web development stuff so Im just talking as the end user. Thanks for responding/explaining anyhow.
  2. How Do You Feel THIS MOMENT in Time?

    Weird mix of different things. I was given 4 weeks to hand in additional information to receive a state benefit (PIP) which expired last Thursday. It just happened that Christmas and new years took up a good chunk of it so I wasn't able to talk to anyone during that. They've given me an extension but I still haven't been able to get the forms from the psychiatrist, even though he was meant to do it when I originally applied for the benefit (months ago). At the same time I need to find something to do in terms of studying/work. Wish I had more family and friends of family so that I could just do the odd afternoon here and there trying different things out. But my parents aren't the most sociable people. I also really don't know what I'm going to do when my parents downsize and retire. Probably got another 10 years or so to work it out but I am worried about it. Had a good old walk with the dogs that made me feel better though. I feel very calm and centred compared to last night.
  3. That's a good idea and I do use that on some websites (especially ones that don't fill the page). But unfortunately here the text just gets bigger. The text boxes remain 19 inches or whatever long. Thanks for an official response. I'm aware I can do that. I can only speak as a user, but I'd much prefer a proper solution. I do realise web development isn't cheap and it might be seen as a 'nit pick'. As opposed to something not working as intended. Oh well. Glad I asked anyway.
  4. Is there anyway I could convince the admins of this board to make the spacing of posts far less wide. My issue is that I have a 24 inch monitor (which isn't huge at all) and reading a sentence from left to right in full takes up about 21 inches of that screen. Which is really not ideal for reading. Instead it would be great if the spacing had a maximum value. I'm not in web development or a graphic designer so I cant say exactly how it would look best. But reading sentences in this manner is nigh on impossible. Many users end up hitting enter every time they finish a sentence to make it more legible. But this can cause more problems. If you're viewing on a smaller screen everything is now even weirder. I would also request that this spacing issue is applied to the draft section when creating a new topic. I will post a screen shot to display what it actually looks like at the moment. It's just as tricky to read a post while it is being composed. And here's what the post looks like. For clarity: what I'm trying to say is - can you put a lower maximum value on the width of the text box where posts are available.
  5. So I first had issues with the psychosis when i was 16. Im 26 now. I tried to go back to school when i was 17 but I was asleep far too much to be able to get to classes and do all the work Since then I have really not done much. I've never worked. No work experience. I did a course or two here and their but that's about it. Recently my Dad has suddenly started on the 'you need to get a job' thing once again. The last time this happened I ended up moving out for two years because it was driving me nuts and was very stressful. He doesn't seem to recognise what my condition is and instead sees it as laziness. But simultaneously I do realise that I ought to be doing something. My struggle is finding work/courses/volunteering that I actually give a 'F' about. On top of that I sleep a lot (easily 12 hours a day if not usually more) and I don't drive so it has to be relatively close to me. (I get the bus a lot but is very slow) So much of it just seems so meaningless, and uninteresting, that even if I had an easy way to get to/from it, I still wouldn't really care about the activity. I had an Occupational Therapist work with me a while ago, and its the only patient/professional relationship I've been in that completely broke down. She didn't seem to understand that I didn't care about the actives she had lined up for me. She kept saying things like "Everyone has to start somewhere" - "when I was your age I did all kinds of lousy jobs" which while I do understand, it doesn't make me any more motivated to do it. Working with her was the only time I've tried to take my own life because I didn't feel like life was worth living. (She also wouldn't listen or wasn't qualified to address my psychotic problems, and persuaded me to move into a place that I absolutely detested) "You should be thankful for doing these activities" really though? It often felt (and still feels) like I'm not doing it for me, I'm doing it because I'm being told to do it. Does anyone have any practical advice to be motivated for work/volunteering? Any jobs or volunteering that someone with schizoaffective disorder can do well? Ive looked over my local volunteering website many times and I'm almost always never impressed or optimistic about what I find. There's also really not that much advice out there for finding and surviving work for schizophrenics
  6. I keep an anonymous blog that I write in when I get suidical or extremely depressed an upset. I also have a physical journal I can use but don't so so as often. I find it is often helpful to explore negative thoughts and benchmark cycles of depression. It can help the healing and it is often useful for a reference.
  7. Mood lamps FTW

    So the last 5 days haven't been very good for me in terms of sleep. Not terrible but not the improved time I was having. I think I have to put my sorted sleep down to exercise. During the first week of January I was walking the dog (about 30 mins of brisk walking) nearly every day, and using an exercise bike every other day. I think the red light helps me actually sleep. But as for energy levels and sleeping less hours - I think its the exercise that sorts it out and not the red light.
  8. Mood lamps FTW

    Haha. Sorry about that. I didnt mean to be insulting. I just remember a phase where everyone wanted one. I think we had 4 different devices in our house with them. Now days none of us use ipods and we've moved on to bluetooth speakers, or just a nice old reliable aux jack
  9. Mood lamps FTW

    Actually it looks like there is a slightly cheaper Philips one with a remote called 'Aura' https://www.amazon.co.uk/Philips-LivingColors-Changing-Integrated-Control/dp/B008B4DC84/ref=sr_1_5?s=lighting&ie=UTF8&qid=1516123389&sr=1-5&keywords=philips+iris As for buying multiple - you really wont need to get more than one. Even if your room was massive, you could just position it at the edge of your bed. They go very bright. I can see why they are trying to make an 'eco system' of slightly different lights, but I don't think its needed for the consumer at all.
  10. Mood lamps FTW

    Hey. Glad to see some interest in my thread. I didn't want to put the name in case it looked like a shill trying to flog them. I went for one of these : Philips 'Living Colors' Iris. https://www.amazon.co.uk/Philips-LivingColors-Changing-Integrated-Control/dp/B008B4DCB6/ref=sr_1_1?s=lighting&ie=UTF8&qid=1516123389&sr=1-1&keywords=philips+iris There are a few Philips mood lamps that are sold for a cheaper price than the Iris. But as well as being inferior lights with less colours and brightness settings. They also require: (1) a device (sold desperately) called 'a bridge' to allow access to the lamp's settings and (2) a smart phone that is compatible with the Philips bridge app. If you want to have more than one (which I doubt you really need or will use) then its better to go for the bridge. I went for the slightly more expensive one because it works out cheaper and you get a remote with it which is just more practical. And also who knows how long that app and smart phones will be in use for. Remember ipod docking stations? They were all the rage for a while but who uses them now? Having physical buttons press is just better IMO. Even more so in bed. So yeah, go for the Iris and dont be duped. (Theres really not much info on the Amazon UK store saying "Separate product and use of smart phone is required to use this product" which there really should be) There's definitely going to be cheaper brands out there but sometimes spending a little extra is worth it. The phrase 'buy nice or buy twice' comes to mind. Mine's still doing a great job for me. And as I mentioned before I'm surprised light therapy has never been suggested by my mental health services. I looked very briefly into the science behind it and the basic idea was that blue light tells your brain that its midday. Red light tells your brain that its sunset/night. Red lights are also suggested for people with sleep issues as a way of controlling melatonin (a chemical that helps you sleep). But if you're on anti psychotics its very difficult to get any kind of diagnosis for a sleep problem as the med's are seen as a strong influence on your sleep cycle. And diagnosing and treating a sleep problem is too difficult to do accurately while you're on anti psychotic medication (or at least that's how it went down whenever I tried to talk to doctor or psychiatrist about it). My personal theory is that I probably do have an issue with melatonin. But I can see the point of view of the psychiatrist too.
  11. Mood lamps FTW

    Ive been taking anti psychotics for ten years and throughout it Ive had horrible issues with sleep and struggled to wake up at any regular "human" time. So much so I have not been in college or work throughout those ten years. I'd take my meds around 10/11/12(PM) and wake up around 1/2/3(PM). 11 hour sleeps are probably the minimum. 14 wasnt that weird a thing. In winter time this becomes even more of a problem because I am not seeing sunlight. I've tried all sorts of things to combat this sleep problem: A deaf persons alarm A light alarm (which was definitely helpful but didn't fix the problem) Drinking copious amounts of water before bed Depriving myself of caffeine/chocolate/alcohol/(life itself) for a couple of weeks Not using TV/PC/phones in the evening And of course the classic: "why don't you just take the drug at 8PM and then you could wake up in the morning". (Yes and why don't I just kill myself while I am at it. All my friends are working adults and I will happily take shitty lifestyle over never having the ability to meet up with friends. I did try it for one summer and it just upset me leaving get-togethers and events before they barely got started. I would say it made me feel suicidal. I may as well be walking around with "lunatic" printed on my forehead. Add to that I do music in a band and often don't get home until 10PM so Id have to give up my passion too.) Recently I got a mood lamp (for Christmas), it shines all kinds of colours and varying degrees of brightness. For the last week as soon as I go to bed I turn the lights off and the lamp on to a dim orange/red and keep it on until I wake up in the morning. I have to say every day I am waking up early. No more 3PM starts. No more 1PM starts. I wake up when I set my alarm. Often even earlier. Its so weird. Its like its erased the problem absolutely. I also actually feel tired in the night and that I want to go to bed so I can sleep. Now it could definitely be complete fluke. Also I have considered the fact that I may have just reduced the quality of sleep I am getting, thus waking up to my light alarm more easily. I will definitely make sure to post an update in 2 weeks time, and perhaps another 2 weeks beyond that to see how things progress. If it does stay like this I will be writing to my mental health services and telling them that the need to be prescribing this to people who have sleep problems induced by anti psychotics At the moment has literally changed my life and I cant emphasise that enough. I wish I got one ten years ago when I first started taking anti psychotics.
  12. I get this all the time too. As others said, drink a lot of water. Not an ideal fix but it works. The thing to really worry about is that dry mouth affects your teeth. A few years ago I went back and forth to the dentists getting more and more fillings and he kept telling me I was eating too much sugar. In hindsight I can't see how that would be true, and it's only recently I found out that dry mouth can cause tooth decay.
  13. Earbud fetish?

    For me its all how it sounds. (I play music in a couple of bands and am a bit of a nerd when it comes to music). For the price, they sound amazing.
  14. Definitely. When my parents have clear cut emotional issues that they cant deal with effectively, it completely destroys any good mood that I would otherwise have.
  15. Earbud fetish?

    Welcome to the world of audiophiles. Where there is no price too high for rich sounds. I too spend a lot of money on earphones. It helps me feel focused and awake and distracted when Im out and about. These are what I use and Id definitely buy them a second or third time