huntforbravery

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About huntforbravery

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    listening to sad music
  • Birthday 04/21/93

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    Canada
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    Writing and roleplaying.

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  1. not feeling much. kind of neutral. which is a huge relief after today. I was in crisis mode for a few hours. I'm ok with some neutrality
  2. today was awful. but one small thing that made me happy was that I was walking down the street and saw graffiti that said "Trans is Good". it was so small, so random. little bright spot in the middle of nowhere. I'm cis but one of my best friends is trans and he's had to deal with a lot of bad stuff because of it. I imagined him seeing it on a day where he was upset and it made me glad that someone had taken the time to write it
  3. low energy's tough. I figure as long as work is coming, it's ok if it takes longer, you know?
  4. they're so cute! and I play a lot of dnd so it made me so happy every time they played XD
  5. dx matters to me WAY too much. my therapist says it a lot. I put a lot of stock in labels. who I am, why I am, etc. it makes me feel like I make sense and am not just this chaotic sludge
  6. my future father in law used to do this with his childhood phone number. I think it's a comfort thing. words/numbers/etc that have strong emotional ties as a comfort thing?
  7. lotta dishes! that's great. I've been having issues with this too. tons of dishes, putting off chores unless someone asks me to do them, etc.
  8. wow I hadn't actually thought of it that way! it's a perfect metaphor for depression (also that series is amazing and I love the kids)
  9. I fidget for emotional regulation. hand flapping/clenching, leg shaking, finger snapping, tongue biting, teeth grinding. I need to move or I can't calm down, but it can't be just any movement. it has to be a specific one that changes. is that stimming or something else?

    1. nervousbat

      nervousbat

      It's interesting that you ask this question. I just looked up the word stimming and that does sound like what you describe. I do that all the time, I twirl my hair constantly and it drives my dad and grandma crazy. They always grab my hand when I'm doing it. When I'm anxious or distressed I also start scratching and clawing at my arms or neck and clavicles to distract from the stressor.

    2. huntforbravery

      huntforbravery

      sounds like a similar thing. I try to avoid ones that cause pain, but it still happens sometimes. 

  10. I tried to calculate how many pills I should have left vs how many I did, and figure out that way if I had taken that day's
  11. some bosses are just stinkers
  12. People get introduced to sh in a lot of ways, but in the end, they start doing it because they're suffering. If you hadn't sh'ed, he would have found some other way to hurt himself, probably. It isn't your fault. maybe you can talk to him about this? How sh makes you feel, how scared you are that he's started. It may help you both
  13. Have you ever called a crisis line?they can help connect you to resources or even just listen. They've stopped me from attempting twice
  14. Wish I could be as open about my GAD and depression as I am about the rest of my life. I HATE feeling like I have secrets.

    1. nervousbat

      nervousbat

      Here here. I feel like a liar, and I'm not a good liar either so I also feel like everyone knows I've got problems. Ugh. 😩

    2. huntforbravery

      huntforbravery

      totally! it's why I came out in 5 seconds, too. I was like "huh. I like women. I MUST TELL EVERYONE IMMEDIATELY OR I AM LYING!" despite me believing that no has to disclose stuff if they don't want to <_<