So I developed bipolar I believe about 3 years ago, in the spring of 2014. Some huge amount of journaling and developing other good habits helped me recognize my cycles, and what was probably going on (bipolar runs heavy in my family). I got dignosed in May of this year (2016). Since then I've been on lamictal & latuda, lamictal and seroquil, and currently 400 mg latuda with 10 mg abilify (recently <2 weeks ago). The thing is that since then I've had two full blown manias (never happened before, just prolonged hypomania) and bad depressive episodes thought they are shorter and less intense that usual. My moods are more of a mixed state mostly. Looking at my journals before and after diagnosis it seems like despite the depression and hypo mania I was doing much better .... continuing treatment seems to only lead to me hurting myself and others worse than I ever have before beginning treatment. It's making me enter a worse depressive cycle because of the damage I've dealt on my family and friends. It no longer seems worth it or even practical continue treatment (at least medication wise, I will continue my own efforts and talk therapy). Due to all this it's very tempting to go off my meds. Advice/feedback for stopping ? Tips on how to if that is the best option ?