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  1. Hi @march, you haven't posted (at least on this thread) for a while, so I'm hoping you are better. I just happened upon your post - something in your title was interesting to me. But something you described sounded almost identical to what I get BEFORE I have a hot flash. When I read your words, "An ache, an unease, some weird tingles," I was floored because this is exactly what happens to me before I have a hot flash (I'm experiencing menopause pretty early; sorry if TMI). This ache, unease, weird tingles wakes me up almost every night, at least once. It is NOT the sweating that wakes me up, it is these weird tingles/feelings/UNEASE beforehand. That's how strong they are. I am able to get back to sleep UNLESS I am in fight-or-flight mode which I've written about on another thread. This fight-or-flight is very separate from the "unease" that I feel before the hot flash. It sounds like you are experiencing fight-or-flight too and I'm sorry to hear that. It is horrendous, especially when it goes on without a break. But it sounds like it is separate from these other feelings you are having. My questions for you: have you started having hot flashes? Do you know if you've started menopause? And here's a big one to see if you have the same thing as I do: do these weird tingles/feelings go away after a couple minutes or do they last longer? Mine are thankfully brief, and I know every time that a hot flash is imminent. If you are noticing these are distinct occurrences with both a starting point and a stopping point I would really wonder if it's hormone related (maybe even if you haven't started having hot flashes). And, unfortunately, mine can occur frequently (sometimes multiple times an hour in certain circumstances), but I still notice a definite start/stop. It's like a wave that washes over me, but mine ends a short while after I start feeling hot. Have you seen those stupid bumper stickers ladies have on their cars that say, "They aren't hot flashes. They're power surges?" I think this "wave" is really what they are talking about. It's really unpleasant. Anyway, I am certainly no expert, but I absolutely had to reply because of the similarities with what I've had. You won't find any of this on the other thread I started - that thread was only about my horrible fight-or-flight that starts with sleep anxiety. I didn't discuss these really yucky feelings because I know exactly what they are, and knowing that helps. If you think yours may be hormonal you may want to have your estrogen levels tested. Then again, unless you want to go on hormone replacement therapy there may not be much they can do. But if your estrogen is low it could help you at least understand what's going on. Take care!
  2. Thanks, @melissaw72. Oh yes, there is NO doubt in my mind that the 1.25mg of Klonopin is doing SOMETHING. Without it I don't think I would have been able to even function when my anxiety was at its peak a couple weeks ago while out of town (I see you have an anxiety disorder in your signature so I'm sure you understand how dysfunctional one can be when anxiety is at a peak. It is the worst). What I can't figure out now is, why was I panicking while on that dose a couple weeks ago but NOW, on the same dose, I'm not panicking/having high anxiety? Is it just because I was travelling and now I'm not? I typically panic whenever I wake up in the middle of the night whether I'm travelling or not but as of now I'm not freaking out even though I am up a bit at night. Maybe I'm just hoping that the Trintellix has kicked in...... My plan over the next months, assuming I remain stable, is to taper the Klonopin down very slowly while staying on the Trintellix (probably not off, but down to the .5mg I've been on for over a decade). I have to travel again in a couple months. If I am able to make it through that trip without anxiety (even if I don't sleep perfectly), then I'll attribute it to the Trintellix working. If not then back to the drawing board. Pristiq was the other option my pdoc wanted me to try, but I would really need to understand his thinking in using something with norepinephrine to treat someone with severe anxiety. @on-the-verge Trintellix (used to be called Brintellix) is pretty new. Many people haven't heard about it. It's supposed to be very successful in treating depression but it's not yet proven for anxiety, though my pdoc has had good success with it in treating anxiety. It is supposed to cause fewer sexual and weight-gain side effects than SSRI's (it's not exactly an SSRI but similar). It does cause nausea in a lot of patients, myself included, but for now I feel like I can manage it (especially with ginger capsules although they don't help EVERY time for some reason). The very unfortunate thing about it is that there is no generic available and the patent won't expire for years. Without insurance the price is exorbitant - like $200-$300 a month!!!! Makes me so mad (thankfully I have insurance, but so many don't or aren't covered for meds). And thx, @CeruleanBlue. Trazodone is definitely at the top of my list if I need sleep meds!!
  3. Just an update: I seem to be doing better with the anxiety. This could be due to a few factors: 1) It's been close to 4 weeks on a therapeutic, albeit low dose (10mg) of Trintellix. This is about when my pdoc said it would start helping with anxiety (the anxiety may have been helped even slightly earlier); and/or 2) Part of the time that I was having my HIGH anxiety I was travelling and when I travel I get anxious about sleep, so this may have contributed. Still, I've been waking up at night at home and that's usually when my panic starts (whether I'm home or travelling) and I've been able to lie in bed and just wait in a fairly relaxed state; and/or 3) I'm still on 1.25mg Klonopin, maybe that is helping some (even though it didn't seem to help much when travelling); and/or 4)All of your sleep med advice may have made me realize I WILL be able to find sleep which lessened my anxiety. I guess I won't know if the Trintellix is REALLY helping until I travel again AND go back down on the Klonopin, but my gut feeling is that the Trintellix is helping because I don't even start to get anxious. It's just a completely different feeling. My panic doesn't just don't go from 0 to 60 upon waking in the middle of the night like I did before starting this med. Just posting this for anyone interested, especially in Trintellix. I DO have nausea with it (common) but my pdoc is optimistic that it still may go away. Taking a ginger capsule at the same time as my Trintellix helps sometimes, and taking it while I eat helps a bit as well. I'll post again in a bit. Thank you immensely to all who have helped.
  4. @Iceberg agreed. It's a matter of the lesser of all the evils. And they also say that lack of sleep possibly increases risk of dementia so there you have it
  5. Thank you again, so much, @Iceberg and @notloki. The more tools I have in my arsenal the less anxious I feel about sleep. Although I did see that Doxepin/Silenor was on that darn People's Pharmacy list of anticholinergic meds.... maybe not in doses that would help a person sleep?? I've been weaning myself off of the Seroquel (down to 12.5mg) because I have an appointment with my pdoc this week and I need to be able to tell him whether or not I'm panicking. Again, I only panic when I'm not sleeping (then all the following days/nights). The good news is that I've been up in the middle of the night the past couple nights and the anxiety did NOT come back. I was awake for maybe 20-30 minutes like a normal person and just fell back to sleep. I didn't get my normal conditioned response of horrendous panic which leads to no sleep. I am cautiously optimistic that the Trintellix may have started working a bit. My pdoc said that Trintellix usually starts working ON ANXIETY after about 4 weeks on a therapeutic dose (I THINK it works earlier on depression). I've been on 10mg (a therapeutic dose for some) for just over 3 weeks. Some of you may mention that Trintellix hasn't been proven to work on anxiety, and I have read about that. I mentioned this to my pdoc and he had a reason that I don't recall exactly. I guess I didn't care because I feel like he REALLY knows his stuff and he's had many patients be helped with Trintellix for high anxiety. I did feel a lift in this depressive cloud I had much earlier with Trintellix, but the anxiety hadn't been touched until the last two nights. Fingers crossed. You all have been so helpful. I'll post again with updates.
  6. @Iceberg Sorry one more thing: does the Trazodone take time to build up in your system or work right away? Could it be used on an as-needed basis? Thanks for that info. That sounds promising if this continues. And that's a really good point about letting the anxiety get out of hand before upping the Klonopin. That could be what happened, except I did start increasing the Klonopin as a precautionary measure as soon as I started on the Trintellix. Still, gives me hope that maybe I haven't developed a tolerance to it. I suppose I should say - the 1.25 still helps a bit. When this first happened to me years ago, and also when I had a recurrence 2 years ago, on only the .5mg Klonopin I was pretty dysfunctional. I just wanted to curl up in a ball and hide. This time around, although I'm far too anxious to sleep (before I upped the Seroquel), I can at least sort of function during the day if I force myself, albeit with a horrible nervous feeling, not to mention the exhaustion. As far as Trintellix making me not sleep's not supposed to have that side effect BUT I have read on some forums that it can. It's just so hard for me to differentiate between normal insomnia that could be caused by the Trintellix (which could go away over time) vs. insomnia caused by anxiety. Which is what I really have. I normally do not have any problems sleeping until the darn anxiety hits and then all bets are off. I just feel like once a person panics in a given situation it's bound to happen again. My "situation" is at night and it's not a "panic attack" but horrendous, non-stop anxiety. I need to just tell myself that if need be, I'll go on Trazodone or another. And maybe telling myself that will be part of the CBT process if I continue it. I don't know. And @melissaw72 thanks once again. I do know that's the deal with XR meds. For some odd reason, though, when my pdoc gave me these XR tablets (they are samples) 2 years ago he directed me to take 1/2 (so that was 25mg then) and I specifically remember that he mentioned that it didn't matter in this case that they were XR. I have no idea why and will ask him next week because I'm curious. Thank you everyone. You are all so helpful and I'm feeling so much less alone. My close friends are really nice but simply can't relate. Lucky them.
  7. First of all - sorry for the formatting problems that follow; I have no idea what's going on. Everything appears fine until I hit 'submit'. Thanks for the links, @melissaw72. I have seen the People's Pharmacy article but wasn't sure it was a comprehensive list. I need to look at the other link - I appreciate the information. If the Trintellix isn't working well for my anxiety I may ask about Lexapro. @heilmania and @melissaw72 - yes - I agree - the Klonopin is more to aid my anxiety rather than to make me sleep. However, I was really concerned that my anxiety could break through the 25mg of Seroquel. I would have thought that going from .5mg Klonopin (for many years) to 1.25mg would have tempered my anxiety enough so that I would sleep through the 25mg of Seroquel. When I awoke, again, at about 3:30 panicking (and this is NOT an "attack"; it's anxiety that doesn't go away) I was really disturbed. Since then and until I can get into my pdoc, I am taking 25mg of IR Seroquel and about .15mg (a third of a tablet) of ER Seroquel. That is working for now. @on-the-vergeThank you for your encouraging words and your recommendations. Believe it or not, I have also tried Propranolol. It DOES help with my racing heart, but unfortunately the anxious thoughts are still there and don't allow me to sleep. I thought for sure it would work but I guess the underlying anxiety/worry/fear doesn't go away. @Icebergthanks. I do wonder if I am at a point where I need a different Benzo. I will ask my pdoc if that's an option. And can I long have the 2mg Xanax or 2mg Klonopin worked for you? I am just shocked that almost tripling my Klonopin dose (.5 to 1.25) didn't work!! Also do you know if Trazadone helps you fall asleep and STAY asleep? @Butterflykisses, Thanks for the advice. It looks like, for now, somewhere between 25 & 50mg of Seroquel is what works....for now. But I know my pdoc doesn't want me on Seroquel long term .. not sure why. This whole thing is just extremely frustrating. If I get enough sleep I don't panic. If I wake up at night for whatever reason I start panicking thinking I won't be able to get back to sleep. Obviously the panic stops me from sleeping and then I am extremely anxious all day/night again until I do actually sleep AND perceive that my sleep will continue. If something is going to be different in my routine (i.e., I have to get up really early the next day; I'm going out of town; I have something really important that I need to function for the next day) I will start to panic at night, then I won't sleep, then I will be anxious until I DO sleep perhaps days later. It's completely mental (although the anxiety is very excruciatingly physical and is mental and physical torture). I honestly think anxiety is one of the worst illnesses around. I'm not talking a little stress and worry; I'm talking about the mental illness of anxiety. I can't imagine what people did before these drugs came out. Makes me sick for them.
  8. Thanks @melissaw72. That's actually exactly what my pdoc thinks about Klonopin -- that it's not really meant for an as needed basis. I was taking .5mg each night (never just 'as needed') then when I started Trintellix I bumped up to 1.25 (per pdoc instructions). I was fine for a couple nights but then the anxiety came roaring back which really, really freaked me out (the fact that I could go from .5 to 1.25 and it didn't work). I'm wondering if I have just built up a tolerance to even higher doses. The night the anxiety came back I then also took .5 Xanax (again, okay with my pdoc) and no effect. Very, very disconcerting for me. May I ask what your Xanax dose is on an as needed basis? I'm hoping I can chalk all this up to Trintellix but I'm not sure. I built it up really slowly in 2.5 mg increments, increasing every 4 days. Have been at 10mg for almost 2 weeks. I just hope I can get over the insomnia/anxiety. At this point the dementia that @notloki describes doesn't even sound bad, which I know means my anxiery is bad. Thank you so much for your time!!
  9. Thanks @notlokiYes, I have heard that about the anticholinergic meds. Not sure how familiar you are with this stuff but do you know if Lexapro is anticholinergic? From reading it seems like that may be a good option if the Trintellix doesn't work out. I know some of the older ADS are anticholinergic but I'm having a hard time finding this info specifically about Lexapro. I don't think the SNRIS are but I'm worried they'd be too stimulating. THANK YOU!
  10. Thank you both @jumpingrabbit and @melissaw72. I am pretty freaked out the the 25mg seroquel plus the 1.25mg Klonopin still only gave me a handful of hours of sleep so I appreciate your info. It seems like I should be knocked out by this combo. I'll talk to my pdoc about Benadryl BUT there was a time I had a paradoxical reaction to it (took it as an antihistamine and got major restless leg from it. It was quite weird. This was decades ago though so worth a try. I wish I knew if the Trintellix was causing this increase in anxiety/insomnia or if it's just getting worse on its own. I am just at a loss about where to turn when fairly high levels of these meds (Klonopin and Seroquel) don't work. CBT was the only thing I could think of but I don't know if I can find a positive or even a neutral spin to sleeping 4 hours a night (I'm not Trump after all....hahaha I attempted a joke. Maybe I'm feeling better) THANK YOU FOR YOUR INPUT!!!!
  11. Wow @CrazyRedhead I'm so sorry you are dealing with SO much. Your good attitude is extremely commendable. I'm not there attitude-wise, that's for sure. Good for you. Keep it up- there's always hope for these illnesses. I increased my Seroquel dose to 25mg and was still wide awake at 3:30am. I may have dozed a bit after that but mainly that was it. I'm having a horrible time and feel like I'll never be the same. I am post-menopausal (went thru early) and I do wonder if hormone fluctuations contribute to all of this. The first time this happened was right after the birth of my first child. I find it hard to believe that there isn't some hormonal causation here. However, I'm hoping it's compound ed by possibly a bad reaction to the new Trintellix I started. I wish you the very best with your challenges. Life can certainly throw some difficult punches sometimes. And thx for your replies and for listening.
  12. Thank you so much once again, @CrazyRedhead. One more (hopefully last) question: what precipitated your insomnia? We're you just a not-so-great sleeper or were you a great sleeper but became anxious about sleep (or something else) and THEN got insomnia? The reason I ask is that I'm trying to figure out if I should ask to be treated primarily for anxiety (which I have) OR insomnia. In the past treatment for anxiety had fixed (for about 10 years) my sleep anxiety=insomnia. I'd rather not go on sleep meds forever if I don't have to but right now even 1.25mg Klonopin plus 12.5mg Seroquel didn't help me sleep much better last night. So I'm freaked out that going from .5 to 1.25mg Klono pin isn't helping!! Never in my life would I have thought I'd need a sleep med; that how easy sleep was for me. But if anxiety meds don't cut it maybe I do. THANK YOU SO MUCH!
  13. Thanks so much for the reply, @CrazyRedhead. I've been on the 10mg of Trintellix for only one week; prior to that I was on 7.5mg for 4 days, 5mg for 4 days, etc. So I have definitely NOT been at a therapeutic dose long enough for it to work, and I fully realize that. I'm also now on 1.25mg Klonopin (I had been on .5mg for years along with Paxil in earlier years, then when I started the Trintellix I got bumped up to 1mg Klonopin. That failed to work and that's when I got really freaked out. I don't want to have to keep increasing my dose indefinitely (and know that it wouldn't be allowed, anyway). So I told myself enough is enough. It's time to start looking into a serious long-term solution to this, and I started researching CBT. What's difficult about the CBT is that I know I need to tell myself it's no big deal if I only sleep maybe 4 hours a night and that I'll be fine the next day. But being exhausted is, to me, very debilitating. I think some/much of this debilitation is mental because I obsess over the sleep and worry that it's not enough. That's why I'd love encouragement from others who have gone through getting such a small amount of sleep (at least temporarily) and had a decent quality of life. Can I ask you: how long has your combo of 3 anxiety/insomnia meds been working for you at their current doses? I suppose this may be the answer for me - a sleep med. I think I will ALWAYS need some sort of anxiety med (I have GAD like crazy too), but since I'm naturally a good sleeper I thought I could avoid dealing with sleep meds. Perhaps not. Thanks again - I really appreciate it!
  14. Hi there, I'm new on Crazyboards but have benefited as a visitor from many a post. I have a rather unusual request/question. I have sleep anxiety like nobody's business. What I mean by this is that I worry/obsess that I won't get enough sleep AND if I wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep I get out-of-control anxiety and then, of course, can't fall back to sleep. I sweat, get heart palpitations, GI issues, you name it. And the horrible thing is, these symptoms go into the next day and then usually continue into the next night. The thing is, before all this happened I was always a naturally great sleeper. I could sleep anytime and I loved my sleep. This all started years ago when my first child was born. I went on Paxil and it worked great except for bad side effects. I have since gone off Paxil and had quite a few "sleep anxiety-free years" (always had GAD though). But this has started to rear its ugly head again, off and on for the past couple years. I have started Trintellix and have worked up to 10mg. I have also taken .5mg Klonopin for years. When I started the Trintellix my pdoc bumped me up to 1mg Klonopin but it's not working (!) and this COMPLETELY freaks me out. I have basically been going to sleep at 11:00, waking up at 3:00, and MIGHT get an additional fitful hour in there by about 5 or 6. I have started CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). I'm doing it on my own for now, using a workbook called The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Edmund Bourne. I understand basically that I need to change my thinking about this problem if I am to make any progress. But this is extremely hard for me to imagine doing. What I am asking for is for feedback from people who have gotten only 4 or so hours of sleep a night for a period of time AND IT HASN'T RUINED THEIR LIFE. I need to be able to tell myself that this isn't the end of the world to only get 4 hours of sleep for a while (and this will be indefinitely until, hopefully, the CBT starts helping). I'm not working on an insomnia plan because I don't have sleep problems per se; I have major, unbearable ANXIETY problems that make it impossible to sleep. You might be wondering why I started the Trintellix: it is for the sleep anxiety but also for pretty intense GAD. However, I am really, really hopeful that I can manage this with CBT after some time. I may need to stay on the Trintellix, but the sleep anxiety is so horrible (it continues all the next day) that I feel I need to at least try something besides meds. I thank you immensely for your reassurances