Sleeeeeep77

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  1. Mikl: The Med Whisperer.....making us all wanna feel like:
  2. Well I'm in France in a town of 8000 people. Maybe the stimulants aren't doled out because of the abuse or whatever the fuck BUT I HAVE SHIT TO DO not to mention living in a new country. Also Viibryd is not on the market here for some damn reason which sucks but there are only 300 other alternatives to try. Savella is very popular. I wouldn't say the man is shifty but I'm payin out of pocket for this and I can be VERY DIRECT hehe. This only be my second appt with him and I assume he wants to see how its going. Whoa!! Have you thought about going into this as a career path? I don't know how to find out if I'm a rapid metabolizer I do know of the test that figures out what meds work best for one but I'll have to research the french version. Also will look into Stephen Stahl, thank you! I may have to get some of that shipped. I think you can buy it online.....believe it or not its only prescribed as a smoking cessation tool and its not used for depression in France. I really think, to my limited knowledge, that Effexor and Vyvanse would work out really well for me. I do not suffer from anxiety (small miracles) and I already have the Xanax as well as Loprazelam for sleep. Yep been interested in that too, I wonder why it's not prescribed more for depression. What I do find funny with the shrink is I said I suspect I MAY have Bipolar 2 and he was pretty unresponsive about it. I wonder if thats why he was so quick to refuse the stimulants. Thank you for the life helping advice, my brother. I refuse to accept defeat and I will continue to find a solution and I will go in to that next appointment with a briefcase full of info like a lawyer in court. Bless you!!!!!!
  3. You know, by far the worst withdrawal effects were from Viibryd but that was because it was clinical trial and I didn't do any research whatsoever on it. Only lasted 3 days though and it wasn't that horrible. I'm pretty obsessed with getting out of this shit so I can live a healthy life and not be a burden to anyone. WILL NOT BE MISSING ANY DOSES. When you mean a break, do you mean the Cymbalta? Thats interesting I wonder why that would be, though 5 weeks doesn't sound too long. The longest I've been on any med is 3 months. Psychotic really to suffer for no reason but you know, poverty. And how do we feel about taking a little Cymbalta with the 75 mgs of Effexor? Can I get those brain zaps I've heard so much about because they sound charming.
  4. Now I'm stuck with two boxes of these pills. I wonder if my back starts to hurt I can just pop one for the physical effect, I mean the fuck else am I gonna do with 'em? How much Cymbalta were you on and how long when you switched to Pristiq? I'll google the differences between the P and the E. I'll ask for that since it looks like we had the same reaction to the Cymbalta. I'm suspecting Bipolar 2 as well but I can't tell if it's just one of those "hey I don't feel like utter shit right this second I feel like cleaning my room and laughing for a couple hours" than back to the sweaty bed. I definitely would be lower on the mania scale. What are you taking now that the Pristiq pooped out?
  5. Notes: *this could also be a placebo effect, I am aware of the vast similarities between the two. *Anyone think 5 weeks was too short to give up on the Cymbalta? And if so, were you exhausted the whole time?
  6. Hi mikl_pls: Thank you so much for your response! So Cymbalta was an activator for you? I think I was so desperate for anything to work that maybe for the first two or three days I felt I had more energy. That quickly wore off and I started drinking three espressos a day which I never did before, and would still end up laid out. Do you have fibromyalgia issues? I definitely believe it helps in physical pain issues, had relief there and I can see how it would be beneficial for people who are bedridden/ have limited mobility and the lack of discomfort would make them more active.....but in my case, its the dx'ed MDD and I am suspecting a bit of Bipolar 2 as well. Yeah when he said start with the 37.5 I was like AAARGH TWINGE LOW DONCHA THINK but he's the professional. Now here's what's interesting: In the last three days, I have been getting up at around 8 or 9 as opposed to my usual drag out of bed at 11, definitely have more energy and no withdrawal effects whatsoever from the Cymbalta. Also, these are both generics and I'm not sure how that fits into the equation. Haven't taken any unneeded naps, I'm still tired of course but I feel kind of..wired? Alert? I'll take it, it's only been three days.. My next appt. is in 5 days and I will bring along the info you've shared with me and ask about any add ons he might recommend. I asked him why this particular drug and he said that in a study group between the two meds Effexor had a higher success rate for MDD than Cymbalta did. I also find it funny he wouldn't even think of prescribing a stimulant but was more than happy to prescribe Xanax without me asking for it, which may be because there may be a *high/wired effect from the switch of the two. Thanks again for the info, hopefully he just full on titrates me up to 300Mgs, HAHA! Any questions you and any others would have for the next appointment would be greatly appreciated. Thanks again
  7. .....and sensitive too? I'm sorry brother my sarcasm tends to go under the radar or over the heads. All apologies. Nice to meet you.
  8. Ahhh, I see. You're all a bunch of hardened pill poppers and this is one of those "see for yourself, kid." things. Okie doke. I will report back from the otherside, posthaste.
  9. Absolutely relate. Rumination is the worst of it all. You engage in something mildly interesting and than out of nowhere you think of something that happened 20 years ago. "Hey, are you okay? You look lost." No I'm just...locked inside my head. I don't want to reach over and charge the phone and its right there. I don't want to meet my new neighbors and I want to be left the fuck alone but I am so. fucking. bored and lonely.
  10. One of these days I will learn how to put the tagline on the meds. Today I started Effexor. bought cigarettes. Made a smoothie but lost the top of the blender so got yelled at for 50 minutes. Not allowed to use anymore, will purchase new one. I did, however, find the top of the blender but was accused of lying about it and replacing it with the broken one. Then got yelled at for setting the table in the restaurant incorrectly, as well as being called what are you fucking crazy for something like letting the cat drink out of the faucet. This all would have caused a good crying jag for 20 minutes in the past but instead I just listened to Josh Korda, a Buddhist teacher. I took a shower!
  11. I also know of the Remeron and Abilify but this was my first real life shrink appointment, will ask of these later. would love to hear your experiences....
  12. I'm 40 now. One time I was 22 and knew I needed help so I went to a therapist and she gave me herbal pills and acupuncture. Me, I still wanted to die and I knew there was SOMETHING out there but alas, moms insurance. Needless to say I became more depressed and sat in the cellar of a goth club staring at the wall for 5 years. Numb n drunk. Poverty did not enable me to seek meds but there was a clinical trial for Viibryd in 2012 which I did for three months along with Trazadone. It helped me get out of a dead end life im Seattle with a BPD type (you know how us codependants roll) and move to California. Must've not been a placebo since the withdrawal cold turkey was a week. Fast forward to Obamacare and asked for Citalopram. Big mistake. Called in sick to work,sweating like a crackhead and bipolar like behavior. Tried Buproprion. No side effects but didn't really *do* anything. Sooo....Cymbalta for 5 weeks and I just get more exhausted every second, take two naps a day on top of 8 hours of sleep. I dont have the fibro but do have back pain (DDD) I stuck with it, wouldn't you say? I even doubled the dosage to 120 which made sleepy times worse. I didn't suffer any side effects except the sleepy part. So go to shrink and he immediately wants to start me on generic Venalaxifine 35. whatever to 75 in two days. I asked about stimulants like Vyvanse or Adderall but he refused, though he was just fine prescribing Xanax and this Lorazapam. SO: Anyone had any luck doing this crossover. If it gives me at least more of a boost than Cymbalta, which just made me want to buy flowers and eat ice cream and pass out every three minutes, I would love to hear your experiences. Sorry so long, am newbie, and lonely in this waking dream🎃
  13. I'm 40 now. One time I was 22 and knew I needed help so I went to a therapist and she gave me herbal pills and acupuncture. Me, I still wanted to die and I knew there was SOMETHING out there but alas, moms insurance. Needless to say I became more depressed and sat in the cellar of a goth club staring at the wall for 5 years. Numb n drunk. Poverty did not enable me to seek meds but there was a clinical trial for Viibryd in 2012 which I did for three months along with Trazadone. It helped me get out of a dead end life im Seattle with a BPD type (you know how us codependants roll) and move to California. Must've not been a placebo since the withdrawal cold turkey was a week. Fast forward to Obamacare and asked for Citalopram. Big mistake. Called in sick to work,sweating like a crackhead and bipolar like behavior. Tried Buproprion. No side effects but didn't really *do* anything. Sooo....Cymbalta for 5 weeks and I just get more exhausted every second, take two naps a day on top of 8 hours of sleep. I dont have the fibro but do have back pain (DDD) I stuck with it, wouldn't you say? I even doubled the dosage to 120 which made sleepy times worse. I didn't suffer any side effects except the sleepy part. So go to shrink and he immediately wants to start me on generic Venalaxifine 35. whatever to 75 in two days. I asked about stimulants like Vyvanse or Adderall but he refused, though he was just fine prescribing Xanax and this Lorazapam. SO: Anyone had any luck doing this crossover. If it gives me at least more of a boost than Cymbalta, which just made me want to buy flowers and eat ice cream and pass out every three minutes, I would love to hear your experiences. Sorry so long, am newbie, and lonely in this waking dream🎃
  14. I'm 40 now. One time I was 22 and knew I needed help so I went to a therapist and she gave me herbal pills and acupuncture. Me, I still wanted to die and I knew there was SOMETHING out there but alas, moms insurance. Needless to say I became more depressed and sat in the cellar of a goth club staring at the wall for 5 years. Numb n drunk. Poverty did not enable me to seek meds but there was a clinical trial for Viibryd in 2012 which I did for three months along with Trazadone. It helped me get out of a dead end life im Seattle with a BPD type (you know how us codependants roll) and move to California. Must've not been a placebo since the withdrawal cold turkey was a week. Fast forward to Obamacare and asked for Citalopram. Big mistake. Called in sick to work,sweating like a crackhead and bipolar like behavior. Tried Buproprion. No side effects but didn't really *do* anything. Sooo....Cymbalta for 5 weeks and I just get more exhausted every second, take two naps a day on top of 8 hours of sleep. I dont have the fibro but do have back pain (DDD) I stuck with it, wouldn't you say? I even doubled the dosage to 120 which made sleepy times worse. I didn't suffer any side effects except the sleepy part. So go to shrink and he immediately wants to start me on generic Venalaxifine 35. whatever to 75 in two days. I asked about stimulants like Vyvanse or Adderall but he refused, though he was just fine prescribing Xanax and this Lorazapam. SO: Anyone had any luck doing this crossover. If it gives me at least more of a boost than Cymbalta, which just made me want to buy flowers and eat ice cream and pass out every three minutes, I would love to hear your experiences. Sorry so long, am newbie, and lonely in this waking dream🎃
  15. Friends, Romans, Countrymen....of the maladjusted and fellow accused of being infantile, lazy, and definitely crazy. Short bio: I'm a lazy loser who was living in California after years of travelling and working "pay the rent and sleep, find one crazier than me to split the bills with" lives leading a cushy life in Europe for 25 years. Been depressed since probably 8 or so, BPD mother and eggshell walking, straining neck running away from invisible monsters. I finally decided to move back to France where my only family lives (mother, sister) as for the first time in alcohol self medication led me to being suicidal. So, at 40, I have decided that I don't want/deserve to live like this ghost one second longer and after six months of basically sleeping and staring at the wall I must change. Everything. Thank you for listening <3