Colorado Kid replied to Cetkat's topic in Substance Abuse / Addictive Behavior - 8-balls, Highballs, Deal Me in One Last TimeI recommend kratom. It narrowly missed being outlawed by the DEA last fall, but... It acts like a (relatively mild) opiate. It can not be injected or snorted or smoked (actually it can physically be smoked, it's just not going to have an psychoactive effect). It's sold as an herbal product, still legal (although you're bound to get ripped off in stores, try buying on the internet). If one takes too much, it was make one nauseous, so overdosing is basically impossible. And it's a whole lot easier to get for withdrawing opiate addicts than bupe. Doctors get a hard time from medical boards and the DEA for prescribing a medication that helps addicts stay clean. Buprenorphine is also a medication for pain control. You might want to get a new pshrink and ask for bupe or even methadone. Your "choice" idea is really poor, though. You're bitter, it's understandable, but a lot of people have been hooked on oxycodone BY THEIR PHYSICIANS. You should blame irresponsible doctors, and irresponsible pharmaceutical companies, not the victims. The fact that addiction is amenable to medical treatment. "Choices" don't get better from medical treatment. Addiction does. You're just another person blaming victims for their problems- as are many of the anti-drug crusaders who are keeping the meds from you. You're kinda buying into exactly the philosophy which keeps you from getting medication in the first place. People also suffer from being overweight, and this is presented as a choice, when genetics and hormones have a it more to do with it than "willpower". I don't really understand why you're weaving this fantasy of fentanyl into your personal suffering. Why do you entertain this fantasy of scoring "fake" fentanyl-laced heroin? Perhaps you have some idea that scoring opiates like oxycodone isn't actually that hard, while your complicated fantasy about fentanyl is. Keep meeting fellow patients in hospitals and doctor offices, tell them your story. I've heard street price of Oxys, there are a lot of little dirt poor old ladies on Medicare who are getting bottles of 30 for $8, and it's too tempting for them not to sell at least some of them. Really, it's your choice not to go the illegal route- you complain about "addiction" not being real; well how "real" is your complaint they're not available to you? Are you afraid of finding out you're wrong about addiction and "personal choice?" I think you are and are right to be afraid. Note I'm not really advocating really scoring opiates, I just think you're ideas about addicts getting what they deserve is pretty cold-hearted, and a bit hypocritical on your part.