amatally

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  1. I so empathize with you. So far, medication has seemed to improve some of this for me so hopefully treatment can help you with it as well! I do think some of it is also that I avoided reading my whole life because it couldn't hold my attention for very long which made me a less effective reader today. Working on changing that now. Good luck!!!
  2. I actually also like to have noise around me. It seems to calm me down. I like having music or a tv show on in the background while I do schoolwork. I also found that my reading troubles improved with medication. It wasn't that I couldn't comprehend things, it's that I can't focus long enough to actually fully read things.
  3. Hi all, I'm feeling super confused and could use some advice. So my understanding of adderall is if you take 2 20 mg IR per day that would equal 1 40 mg XR. My doc and I did some adjusting and found that 40 mg IR was the best dose for me. Worked the best with minimal side effects and lasted around 4 hours which, from what I understand, is what it's supposed to do. He is now switching me to 40 mg XR so it lasts longer. I questioned this because I thought, based on research I've done online, that this would be I would be getting 2 20 mg IR doses in a day, so basically that would be lowering my dose. My doc who I do really like and feel is really knowledgeable said that this is incorrect and I would be getting 2 40 mg doses in a day. I'm super confused because everyone seems to think otherwise. I thought I finally found a dose that worked for me. I'm obviously going to try doing this and see how it goes. So far, I honestly don't think it's working as well. Now, I also know that some people just respond better to certain forms so is it just that? Am I correct in thinking this dosage is incorrect? Is adderall XR just different than IR? Anyone else have this experience? We're still adjusting and trying new things so it's not like I don't think he would adjust it if necessary, but I don't know if I should be concerned that he thinks that is how it works if that isn't how it works... Thanks in advance!
  4. Thank you for the advice. We're starting with IR to see how I do with it and then will potentially switch to XR if that's not quite working out. I know a lot of people take an XR and then 1 IR in the evening. We'll see how mine plays out. They don't last too long (maybe about 3 or 4 hours depending on the day) for me so I'm thinking XR at the right dosage will probably be better, but it's a process. Thank you for responding!
  5. 30 mg... My pdoc wants to see how I do for a couple of weeks though and then possibly up it. I'm just trying to observe how I'm feeling and trying to get an understanding of what people have felt like if they've been overprescribed and had to go back down. Also if dependency of tolerance build up is an issue.
  6. Hi guys, so I am currently still in the process of finding my correct dosage of Adderall, but I had a question for those who have had more experience with the drug. How do you feel when your dosage is too high? Since we're still adjusting I want to know what to look for in myself to tell if I need to scale it back or if it feels right. I've heard some people say they feel like robots if the meds are too high, but I'm not sure if there is anything else really obvious that I should look for. I'm guessing too much of a euphoric feeling? Like maybe how people feel when they get high on Adderall? Maybe high heart rate? Anyways just trying to be safe with this drug. I really don't want to abuse it or take too much if I don't need it. I know everyone is different, but just thought I'd ask for some opinions. Also, I've heard some people say you build up a tolerance and some people say you don't... any thoughts on this? Thank you in advance!!!
  7. Thanks for the response. I definitely have ADHD and show many other symptoms classic to it but just didn't know if trouble reading was something anyone else experienced with the disorder. I think the reason I have trouble comprehending is because I get too distracted while reading and have to read things over, but I'm not sure. Once I get going with a good rhythm I can be ok, but it takes a little while to get there. I will definitely ask about learning disabilities though. Thanks so much for the information.
  8. Hello there! Brief history: ADD has been mentioned to me a few times in the past, but I never took it seriously and had some other mental health issues I felt needed to be addressed (OCD, depression). I've recently started up with a new doctor and she said my ADD should be addressed and as I've come to learn, may have contributed to my depression and OCD anxiety, along with issues I've had my whole life. My main question is this... school has always been difficult for me and I know that's super common with ADD. Does anyone else feel like they have trouble reading? I feel like sometimes the words are overwhelming and I need to follow along with the words with my finger in order to focus on the sentence. It takes me forever to get through a book. It doesn't feel like dyslexia because I don't think I mix words up or anything, but I seem to have trouble comprehending what I'm reading if I don't really strain myself to focus. Just wondering if anyone else had this experience and if it is ADD related.
  9. Hello there! Brief history: ADD has been mentioned to me a few times in the past, but I never took it seriously and had some other mental health issues I felt needed to be addressed (OCD, depression). I've recently started up with a new doctor and she said my ADD should be addressed and as I've come to learn, may have contributed to my depression and OCD anxiety, along with issues I've had my whole life. My main question is this... school has always been difficult for me and I know that's super common with ADD. Does anyone else feel like they have trouble reading? I feel like sometimes the words are overwhelming and I need to follow along with the words with my finger in order to focus on the sentence. It takes me forever to get through a book. It doesn't feel like dyslexia because I don't think I mix words up or anything, but I seem to have trouble comprehending what I'm reading if I don't really strain myself to focus. Just wondering if anyone else had this experience and if it is ADD related.
  10. @amskray Thank you I appreciate that. Makes me feel a little better.
  11. Thank you for your response @CrazyRedhead. I wish you the best too and hope at some point you find the right combination to work for you! It is good to know some people have had success with these things. Thank you.
  12. Hi, this is my first post on in the OCD group. I was diagnosed with OCD about 7 years ago but have been untreated for about 5 of those. I was feeling better and didn't feel like I needed help anymore. Lately, I've been obsessed with the idea that I don't have OCD, but have something else like schizophrenia or some kind of psychotic disorder. It has been pointed out to me that some of my symptoms do actually seem like Pure O OCD and I was just perceiving them as something else because I've had no compulsions outwardly. I always knew about pure O, but for some reason my mind obsessed about the fact that it could be something else which I realize is kind of part of the disorder . Basically, now I feel really stupid and think people are judging me for having these thoughts. It's like this never-ending cycle or questioning myself and self-hatred that I can't stop thinking about because I have OCD! I've been taking Zoloft 75 mg and Risperidone .75 mg per day for these problems. My doctor is going to increase the Zoloft but wanted to wait because I also have ADD and we're starting Adderall so she didn't want to add that and increase the medication at the same time. I have a few questions for other people that have been through this: 1. Does anyone have experience with Zoloft working to control their obsessions? I feel like they aren't going away and I know it takes time and I can increase dosages, but I'm just wondering if anyone has had success with it when finding the correct dose? 2. Has anyone else been prescribed a low dose antipsychotic for their OCD? I have paranoia because of my OCD and we were trying to stop those thoughts. I felt like it was working, but then realized I just became obsessed with other things. So what if I'm taking this medication and don't really need it? Anyone have success with antipsychotics? 3. Can anyone tell me Clomipramine works better for OCD than Zoloft? I just saw that it is almost exclusively used to treat OCD and didn't know if it was something I should ask my doctor about. Thanks for listening. I'm just feeling rather hopeless today. I don't want to get out of bed because something embarrassing happened last night and I obviously can't stop thinking about it. Another question: does anyone else have great difficulty being embarrassed? I feel like all I do is dwell on it for way too long. I am trying to stop. I just have no idea how. I feel like such a loser right now.
  13. Hey, that could definitely be what's going on! Thank you for your response. My doc does know about these problems to some extent. I was just feeling concerned about possible other diagnoses, but maybe it is pure O OCD. I was just not as familiar with that.
  14. Hi, I'm going to briefly describe my experience and see if anyone can relate or maybe if no one can that can answer my question about whether or not schizophrenia is a possible diagnosis for me. Basically, I have been in and out of therapy since I was 14 (I am now 25). Initially I was in talk therapy for what I perceived as depression. When I was 18 I had a really bad night that felt like it was brought on very suddenly. WARNING: potential triggers; describing paranoia and thoughts of self-harm I became convinced I was going to cut my fingers off. I had been feeling off for most of the night and it came to a head when I lay down in bed to go to sleep. I could not for the life of me get these thoughts out of my head and it was almost like someone was telling me to go ahead and do it. Now, I want to be clear. I did not hear an audible voice. It was much more internalized. However, it did still feel like something was telling me to do that. My mother had previously dealt with an anxiety disorder and continued to take medication for it. I went to her in a panic and told her, embarrassed, that I was sure I was losing my mind and was going to cut all of my fingers off even though I didn't want to. Thoughts along the lines of these ones continued since then. I thought people could magically kill or hurt me simply by touching something I was going to drink or eat. I hated when certain people would touch me and would think a lot of people were out to get me. I went to a psychiatrist since my therapist and mother felt I needed to go, along with myself feeling this way. She ended up diagnosing me with OCD anxiety and later just OCD as I continued to show symptoms involving checking certain behaviors. I went on a low dose of medication and became paranoid about that and discontinued use. Recently my paranoia has been exceedingly bad. I have not been able to sustain a relationship romantically as I always seem to get paranoid about people's intentions and behaviors (i.e. thinking people are obsessed with me, following me, or planning to physically harm me). I do not think my paranoia was totally unwarranted in some cases as some behaviors were unhealthy, but my responses to circumstances were blown up to a big extent. I constantly validate my feelings with others and am often told I am wrong. This is my problem. I do not feel like I have OCD. I'm not sure my current psychiatrist does either. We seem to be treating symptoms but don't really have a diagnoses. We have described it as depression, anxiety, paranoia and catastrophizing situations and ADHD. I haven't told her everything I'm feeling yet, but she prescribed me Zoloft and Risperidone since she wants to treat the paranoid thoughts. The Risperidone is at a very low dose and it seems to be doing something although my symptoms are not completely gone. She then added Adderall in the mix to treat my ADHD although she wants to take it slow with all the medications because there are a few different variables at play here. I am not trying to say I am schizophrenic. I don't necessarily think I am but I do have questions and am trying to learn more since what I describe as anxiety doesn't seem to really line up with how I have seen anxiety portrayed in many other people. I don't seem to have the physical symptoms of anxiety or typical anxious thoughts, but rather just display different forms of paranoia both with potentially realistic situations and very unrealistic situations.. I am just wondering about a couple of things: 1- I often get trapped in my own head and space out and feel I can't control my thoughts which are often negative in nature and putting me down or telling me someone is going to hurt me or that something in the universe is sending me a sign. That is when I get anxious. What I am wondering is could this be a sign of delusional thinking or does it sound like it could be a form of OCD instead of psychosis? 2- What does it feel like to hear voices? Do you physically hear them in your ears or is it more internalized thoughts that converse with you? 3- Are there warning signs for schizophrenia or related disorders that I could be exhibiting or is it generally pretty clear when someone has the disorder? I hope none of this is offensive. I am just starting a new mental health journey and am trying to understand the symptoms that I'm dealing with. I was hoping someone could tell me if I'm thinking incorrectly or if I'm possibly heading in the right direction with my thoughts?