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  1. I personally feel that the amount of trauma that men have caused me, and my resulting PTSD, was a huge contributor to why I am gay. I strongly wonder if, minus the abuse, I'd be straight. And I wonder, if I fixed my PTSD, if I'd develop an interest in men. Given how totally ineffective my efforts to fix my PTSD have been, I'll probably never know.
  2. Good work! Sounds like opposite action to me
  3. I think in my examples I probably blended in some of the other DBT skills like building mastery and pleasurable activities, but I do think that given that trauma makes you feel worthless and undeserving of using those types of skills, opposite action can involve them.
  4. I think the general principle that I use is that for me, most trauma related emotions result in my wanting to avoid/dissociate/hide/collapse. So almost anything that gets me up, moving my body, building mastery and/or mindfully engaging, I consider opposite action. I think some of it comes from knowing your own response patterns to trauma-based reactivations.
  5. Fear - mindfully approach/do the thing you are afraid of, don't avoid, take one small step towards accomplishing/mastering the thing. Sadness - get active (leave the house, exercise, jump up and down). Listen to music with the opposite tone (rock music, happy music). Watch a comedy or a cartoon. Shame - change your body language (stand tall, meet people's eyes, don't curl up and hide), tell yourself that you did nothing wrong, remember positive messages about yourself, do nice things for yourself/nurture yourself, speak up and share the things you feel ashamed of with a safe person, continue doing the thing that prompts the shame over and over. I think that changing your body is a really powerful way of using opposite action. When I feel negative emotions, getting myself out of bed, showering, getting dressed, and sitting up straight (not slumping or curling up) is powerful opposite action for me. So is actively engaging/accomplishing things to gain a sense of mastery rather than just hiding.
  6. It sounds like things have been really hard lately - glad you're doing a little better. Just a gentle reminder that we discourage graphic posts about specific methods of self-harm. Take care!
  7. You may have a hard time getting the response you are looking for here, as we are a pro-recovery board, though I wouldn't say we are "anti-SI" per se. I don't think you are a freak of nature and I can see why it makes you angry to be told what you should and shouldn't do to your body. Personally, I do not think that SI is wrong. For me, I haven't done it in four years now, but I haven't taken it off the table forever. I've evaluated things and decided that I don't like the messages that harming myself to regulate emotions sends me about myself - that I deserve to be hurt, and that I shouldn't have feelings. I don't like that it widens the split between my mind and my body, where my body becomes an object to be injured and controlled. For me, there are DEFINITE pros to coping through self-harm. But there are also cons, and when I weigh it up, my personal evaluation is that my cons outweigh my pros. If that changes one day, I may do it again. But for now, I have committed to making a different choice. It's a slightly different position from a moralistic "self harm is wrong, don't do it." For me it's been more about identifying why I self harm and what needs I am meeting, and trying to find other ways to meet them that don't reinforce my ideas of myself as worthless and deserving to be hurt.
  8. Yeah, it's tough - all the atypical antipsychotics have the risk to some extent. Latuda (like Abilify and Geodon and to some extent Risperdal) is less likely to cause the issue, but it still can. It depends what treatment options you have, which is really going to require an in depth conversation with your doctor. You could consider asking about a referral to an endocrinologist for an opinion from that perspective.
  9. It would be very odd for TD to occur only at night, never mind after one really tiny dose of Abilify. It seems very unlikely to me that it would be TD.
  10. If you had a minor rash and you were started on a high dose and not titrated (which I think is also an important point to convey to your doctor), many psychiatrists would likely be comfortable cautiously re-trying you. I got a minor rash of some kind when I started and luckily my psychiatrist was willing to just write it off, because it didn't have any high risk features. And I did titrate very slowly.
  11. When I was dealing with a lot of BPD-type issues, before I did DBT, I found that my mood was very unstable in that way. Therapy helped a lot. The evidence for mood stabilizers in treating mood swings specifically in BPD isn't super compelling.
  12. Lovely idea I hope it's helpful for you!
  13. I hope it went well with your therapist! Those kinds of experiences can be really hard to talk about.