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  1. Thank you for taking the time to read Let us get straight to it, I have a massive crush on this boy. I know I’m thirteen and I’m definitely not ready to have a boyfriend. Plus I don’t want one... yet. But with this boy I like I want moments with him, awkward ones!! Ones I can smile at looking back, the good memories. I’m thirteen and live in Australia. I’m in year eight and I’ve liked this boy since year six. In my school there are three classes in each year. So three year five classes. In year five my class was split up into groups for this English book reading. He was in mine. I didn’t know him but when I first saw him talking to the teacher and smiling, all I could think was. He’s cute. That he was. When year six came I was lucky enough to be put in a class with him. It was a rough year for me, girls I thought were my friends turned it not to be. Through all that he was kind to me, he was a gentleman. I couldn’t help but grow on him. At the end of year six for our end of school Christmas assembly I was put to open the doors to the parents, with him. I will never forgot that night, it was one of my best. For the Christmas assembly I had to wear a Hawaiian skirt being our classes theme. Underneath I wore a skort that I had used back when I did gymnastics. Our last moment together in year six was when I was running up the stairs to catch him. We had finished helping out the teachers together and he waited for me up top. I was smiling running to him and my skirt separated showing my skort and turned away. He only looked back at me once I had made it to the top. Being a gentleman. I then went to Bali leaving school earlier than the rest. I found out from my friend he had danced with another girl at the year six dance. I was gutted. I told myself I wouldn’t like him and that was that. Or so I thought... When year seven came I was moved into high school. (By Australian School Law) Our school had the high school and primary school joined so everyone I knew was still there. I made new friends and the year wasn’t that memorable. I got a crush on a different boy but it passed quickly as he was a jerk. Then at the end of the year I went to the primary school Christmas assembly. My brother was in it and I sat next to my mum ready to watch him shine. Then I saw him. He walked in and I couldn’t take my eyes of him. I took the liberty to point him out to my mum. When the assembly was over we went to my brothers classroom to wait for him to be let out. I saw him standing there with his friend. He did the peace sign from Star Trek at me. I didn’t know how to do it so I did the classic peace sign back. Even with our distance he shouted over at me, ”Why aren’t you doing it?” “I can’t!” Was what I replied. One of the boys parents in my brothers class began talking to my mum so I moved away trying to look through the window like other siblings were. He then walked over to me. I have an awful memory but we talked for awhile and I brought up my friend who was a boy and he said something along the lines of, ”Yeah that’s true but he can be very annoying.” Looking back on it he was jealous, it was in his tone. I nodded along agreeing getting his view, then I had to leave. On the way to the car my mum insisted he liked me. When I got home I jumped on my bed screaming, The feelings never left. Now I’m in year eight. He knows I like him, but I haven’t told him. My friend found out from his sister that one day he had come home and said “I think (my name) likes me!” So who knows now. I make my feelings obvious in my perspective. I’m awkward and I blush easily but I try. I get mixed signals from him all the time. One minute I think he likes me the next I think he doesn’t. Any advice? example: Of of three situations when I’ve said one sentence to him he stares at me. In my eyes and only when I look away does he reply. But then when I was walking next to him and starting a conversation he replied and walked ahead of me. (I did ask him what he thought of an activity at school though and a friend said no boy would want to talk about school) So... any advice? I have so many people cheering me on but I just am so stuck on what he thinks.
  2. Venting and cutting..

    Hi, I’ll get straight to it, your mums shit. With advice on your situation you need to talk to someone. If you have other family live with them. If not they’ll be someone else. Telling someone about your mum is the best option. I know cutting is tempting as someone who has also done it. But think about someone you love real or fictional. Make there love greater than the pull to the cutter.
  3. My first time cutting

    I’ll get straight to it, I cut myself. This was my first time cutting. I don’t know why, the thought of cutting kept haunting my mind. I decided after school I would do it. Just once. I was alone in the house at the time and got everything I needed. I had a first aid kit, a small screwdriver and a sharpener. I took out the blade and I was nervous and did it high up on my thigh. I cut twice on my thigh then on my hips. I got carried away and cleaned up the cuts. There were more cuts then I intended and I cleaned everything up hiding the evidence. I’m a little shaky from what I did but I don’t regret it. I don’t believe I did it and it doesn’t bother me. I’m scared what others will think if they find out. Help me.
  4. Ok let’s get started, so I have a crush on a boy in my year. I like him a lot but I can’t find any ways to get close to him. He is normally surrounded by people and I get embarrassed. I also get sad when I haven’t said anything to them at least once a day. Even a small ‘hi’ helps. The only time they are alone is when they are walking home. I could walk home and walk with him but there’s these problems: 1) My dad picks us up since he is a stay at home dad. By us I mean me and my brother. 2) The way he walks is different to how I would, so I would have to figure out a way but I’m willing too. I’m going to try and walk home with him. I’ll use my phone as a map then once we have walked close enough I can say I’ve accidentally went the wrong way. Since it will be random how I’m suddenly walking with him I’ll make sure to say a reason why. Thank you and does anyone have any advice?
  5. This is my first time writing but I need help from someone I don’t know and doesn’t know me. I feel like giving up on life, I want to cry all the time and just everything is just suffocating me. I’m faking smiles and happiness when I’m struggling to feel any emotions. I feel so god damn empty!! But I’m not suicidal and I never think about it. I’ve never done self harm and I’ve never taken up the offer. I feel like everyone has something in there life that they can love. I don’t. I know this isn’t for everyone but I feel like it. From people having that special someone, that thing they love to do or something that makes them feel safe. For me I don’t have anything like that and I haven’t really enjoyed anything in a long time. I feel so empty. I don’t feel safe anymore and I’m scared of the dark. It makes me jumpy and gives a feeling like I’m being watched. I know it sounds stupid but I’m a teenager and I just... can’t. i haven’t talked to anyone about this and I just don’t want people swarming me about it. I feel like my life’s a mess. I feel like I don’t belong. I feel like where I am isn’t where I should be. I don’t know if I’m depressed. But I know I need help but death will never be something I consider. It scares me. If anyone else feels anything similar please talk to me or if you have any advice. I feel like I’m suffocating.
  6. Thank you for taking the time to reply. My mother may be aware of the fact I may be depressed and we have talked. Thank you again.
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