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Now several of my friends are aware of my self harm, and they have been giving me so much emotional support and surrounded me with positivity. I was texting one of them yesterday and I told her I was three days clean, and she said every three days I'm clean she would give me one of her gogos (they're cute toy things). I heavily insisted and said she really didn't have to, but she wanted to, she said she's doing it for me. I am so grateful I have such great friends to support me through this, thank you.
loveiseverything posted a topic in Depression - Let a WHAT Be My Fucking Umbrella? (Sod You, Perry Como)For starters, I'm in my mid-twenties, and my general issues are with anxiety and OCD, but right now, I'm struggling with something else. I am feeling majorly depressed. And I need help. I am very close with my grandparents. We live in the same city and I try to see them as often as I can. Over the last couple of weeks, my Grandma, who is generally fairly healthy, started feeling very tired and weak all the time. She has only been getting out of bed for a couple of hours out of the day. This week, we found out that she is in stage 4 cancer, and it is apparently too late for treatment. I don't know how much time she has left. My entire family is shocked and devastated, to put it lightly. My family hasn't made the decision to fully tell her what's happening to her, yet. She has been saying that she will be fine in a couple of days and was talking about places she wants to visit in the summer. Knowing this is so heartbreaking. The reason I am reaching out here, is because I am handling this so hard, I can barely think about anything else. I keep going back and forth from crying my eyes out to being numb. I feel like she has so much left in her, I don't believe it's her time yet. It hurts me deeply that I can't do anything to fix this. My Grandpa has been suffering from a chronic illness for many years, and the thought of him losing her and what would happen to him is terrifying for me. She is still here, but I feel like I am already grieving. I want to enjoy whatever last moments I have with her, and I'm struggling to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I can't imagine moving on with life without her. The good memories that are supposed to make you happy are only making me sad right now. I don't know how I'm going to get through this. I want to put it out there that I know this isn't chronic depression, but I have been depressed in the past, and this has brought it all back to the surface. I feel so helpless and I wish there was something that could ease the pain... Thanks for reading.