So ive been on lamictal for almost 3 months aswell as lithhium and ive noticed a huge change. Btw im bipolar 1 with seasonal mood changes like manic in spring and summer and depression in winter so forth.anyway ive been noticing i cant get out of bed lately and my work performance and concentration are terrible rn does anyone else know these feelings or is it just me? I have always used lithium but never expierenced this before.
I've been on SSDI for the last 4 years. I moved in with my parents because and I wanted to help them afford their bills, and it would make life easier on my not having to deal with the stress of managing finances. I'm 28 now, and over the last 4 years I have been struggling with alcoholism, smoking, and a drunkenly abusive mother. I used to give them my entire check of $944, but about 6 months ago I decided to make my own bank account and start saving money, while still paying a good portion of the bills.
It's come to the point where I am getting worse and worse being in this environment and I have to change it if my life is ever going to get better. I stopped drinking a few weeks ago and have been using nicotine patches. Sometimes I get very anxious and depressed because of the environment here and have small relapses. And not being able to sleep without being drunk has been a massive issue. All of this is compounded with the daily stress of living with drunk, abusive parents. The other morning my mother woke me, and violently attacked me; clawing and scratching my neck, ripping my shirt, etc. She is angry I've only been giving them $700 instead of the $944 I used to give.
At this point I have saved a decent amount of money, enough to make the move safely with a bit of money left over in case of an emergency. I have been worrying about my options though. Right now I'm getting $944 a month, and no other benefits. I am trying to find a decent place to move into, near bus lines and walking paths because I have no car. What worries me is a few things: I haven't had my name on a rental contract since 2011, and have no credit so I'm afraid my applications for apartments will be rejected; I'm worried about my benefits decreasing if I move out to be alone, and worried I won't be able to afford food. I won't be able to contact the SSDI offices until Monday or Tuesday, so waiting is killing me and making me sick with worry.
If anyone has any experience with this I'd like some knowledge or advice on how my benefits could change if I move out to live alone, if it's possible that I'll be able to receive aid with buying food, and especially what difficulties I might have trying to apply for an apartment without having decent credit or a rent contract since 2011. I'm talking about a regular apartment, not assisted living or Section 8. I've never been evicted and ended all my previous rent contracts on good terms.
Thanks for any help anyone can offer.
Okay so my group of friends got into a huge argument today, I witnessed it over text.
But one of my really close friends (one of the best people I've ever known), she got really mad and relapsed after being clean for so long.
I feel really bad, I don't know what to do, I want the people I love to be the happiest people in the world.
I'm not triggered, I'm just asking for advice. I want my best friend to be happy.
I have tried to stop self harming and it's not working. I have been cutting for a little over 2 years and have tried to stop multiple times, but with no luck. I had stopped for about 3 months and relapsed about an hour ago. I can't control myself when I feel emotions and I absolutely hate it. I can't talk about it in person, or I break down. Any replies would be nice. I would just like to talk to people that don't know me as a person and have never met me, it helps a lot.
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