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By Bimbo Bear
So I'm getting evaluated for Bipolar disorder on Thursday and during this waiting period, I thought I'd do some in depth research on the disorder. I'm 98% sure I'm going to get diagnosed with Bipolar II or Bipolar NOS (due to how rapid my cycles sometimes are), and since I'm on an antidepressant right now, I needed to see what meds Bipolar folk usually take. That's when I found out about mood stabilizers and all the ugly side effects that come along with them.
To be honest, I'm scared to try any of them with everything that I've read. I just need an antidepressant to keep me out of the depression I get. The hypomanic episodes I get aren't that bad. I'm not driving recklessly, I can control my shopping sprees and irresponsible flirting if I try, and the hypomanic moods keep me peppy at work. Who wouldn't want that???
...If it weren't for just how low those depressive episodes of mine get, I'd scrap the idea of meds altogether, but I can't. Without meds, I can't get out of bed (though my current meds hardly help that, now that I think about it), I'm emotionless or sad all of the time, I isolate, and I sometimes start to contemplate whether the world would be better off without me. It's really awful... but with the plethora of mood stabilizer side effects, is it even really worth it to try with those? I guess only my psychiatrist would know the answer to that (I question her judgement sometimes, though, since she tried putting me on an antidepressant again that previously made me suicidal the last time I needed to switch meds), but I thought I'd ask you guys:
Do you think you're better off with / without mood stabilizers? And why or why not?
Ok so in other posts I have posted about topamax and once again I have more questions about it!
It has seriously thrown my anxiety and panic off the edge. Things I never have really experienced before. Went off it, still anxious as hell. Getting a tad better but still hello... There. This was the ONLY med that has ever helped me with my bulimia and binge eating. Is it possible to get back on it and be on something else that will ease the side effects from it? Or is that just the dumbest question?
wellbutrin , lamatal 5 years+ started to lose effectiveness. Added 900 mg lithium past 3 years. Meds tolerated well, past 4 months started to get very ill after taking meds. Isolated it to the lithium went off with I'm sure a too rapid titration if 6 days. Hitting the wall very hard but my pdoc started me on Latuda. Sorry to ramble.
concerns: effectiveness compared to lithium, possibility of nausea with this med, cost (on samples now crappy insurance) I went on ability a few years back very effective could not afford after free samples. I need to do what my doc wants understould, just kind off lost. By the way I did what I was told by my Doc coming off lithium but I was getting so sick I was going to go cold. Pleas don't do this the only thing keeping my alive is my wife.