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So I've been re admitted to the hospital again (out on a pass right now) and I was just wondering, when is depression considered to be part of bipolar? Because ive had what has been called by my pdoc a "drug induced hypomania" (induced by escitalopram) and I read that when that happens the diagnosis is switched from depression to bipolar. My regular pdoc was also off on vacation so another pdoc came to me in the hospital and told me I definitely have bipolar, but my regular pdoc says no, I have depression despite getting input from that other pdoc. I don't know who to believe. Anything you guys know on this topic?
I'm wondering does anyone else experience more depression symptoms living out in rural areas than people in the city? I was raised in city but living in the country for 30 years it just seems I miss the constant activity of PEOPLE! I love to people watch but in the country it's just seems so boring sometimes...anyone else experience this?
I'm currently a first year community college student (age 19). I should be out having fun with friends and enjoying life...but instead I'm here.
Lately ive come to realize that I am extremely tired of life. Everything about it is boring and I'm no longer able to put much effort into doing fun stuff.
I guess I've always been a little off. It feels like it's been since middle school where I just sort of went trough the motions. But I was mainly hating on school. It really began in my first year of high school but I was somehow able to push through it (somehow). But now I'm starting my life, and ive never felt worst.
Im in no way suicidal (so pls don't recommend hotlines etc. ). But I'm also not happy with my life. And being overall depressed. I find myself worrying about everything.
My mom, grandma, dog dying
my grades(they aren't great)
will I be able to make enough money to be comfortable in life.
When will I meet someone
It easy to say death is inevitable, work hard and you'll get good grades, career paths take awhile and often change, you will probably make an ok amount of money in life, and there is always someone out there for you.
But in reality nobody knows... which is ok, but it's the reason why I can't help but worry and be afraid.
I know longer find anything fun. Going to Catalina island with visiting friends? NOPE. Even if I start out slightly excited I loose interest fast. Getting my new car? Yes I love it and it's amazing but now I'm worried about the payments and if it was the right idea(it's a lease tho).
Im tired of:
trying to crack a smile
trying hard in school but still get bad grades
trying to keep being friends with high school classmates that don't try or even ones that do
trying to work and put on a happy face
My mom has depression, but she doesn't know how bad mine is. And I'm not going to be able to tell her anytime soon (I just can't...not yet).
I compare myself to other friends one who are working hard, doing good in school, have a boyfriend, and seem overall happy (I'm aware they may not be.. but 80% they are)
I know I shouldn't compare myself to them cause I'm my own person. One day I'll have my life together etc. but I can't help it, at least not for awhile, not while I'm still feeling like this.
Im going to start seeing a counselor (I hope it helps). I'm tired of not finding anything fun, and feeling that my life won't amount to much. I'm tired of being tired.
Does anyone else find that the days you take your stimulant, you sleep like baby at night and wake up refreshed?
I'm so happy that I am finally getting restful and conistent sleep with the help of Adderall.
I take 10mg IR once in the morning and sometimes I take a second dose around lunch or dinner.
I was reading good article abut it. Let me get the link. It's from Tuck.com. If it's accurate information, it seems very informative.