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I'm Bi-polar. So how do i determine just what is realistic for me to achieve?
I'm trying to figure out if i should finish school to get a full time job or just accept my limitations and pursue some form of financial disability aid.
Right now I work as a independent commercial/residential cleaner. I have enough clients to work about 20 or so hours a week. I'm in the Allied Health Program at my local community college to earn my phlebotomy/clinical lab assistant certificate taking 16 credits. (I know, 16 credits is insane.) I had to drop the phlebotomy tech class because i was drowning under the massive amount of schoolwork. I passed Clinical Lab 1 and now i'm trying to pass Clinical Lab 2.
My alcoholic husband left me and my 2 kids (ages 18/20) last September to work in CA with a woman with whom he had an affair in 2007. So i am basically functioning as a single mom trying to stay positive and well to provide them with stability that they deserve.
So far, i haven't missed a mortgage payment; my husband is still helping out financially. But the house is a huge responsibility to maintain. It's large, it's old and the backyard is a jungle. It's in need of so much work, i don't even know where to begin.
The one plus side to my husband moving out is that i now rent out his office to a local student. Her rent pays for half my mortgage.
I need to work full time at some point so that i can get insurance to cover meds, dr visits, etc. But i am still struggling with basic life skills at this point. How in the world am I going to get myself to a job 5 days a week, when i can barely pull myself out of bed because i'm so drugged out most mornings from my medications? Some days just taking a shower is beyond my capability. I don't eat healthy and getting regular exercise is a complete joke.
Am i giving myself an excuse to be a flake? Or is this just the way it's always going to be? How does one set realistic goals while battling a serious mental disorder?
I really welcome anyone's input.
Lithium for chronic suicidal thoughts?
I'm thinking of talking to my pdoc about trying lithium for chronic suicidal thinking as im doing therapy for it but still get lots of suicidal thoughts each day, The seroquel i'm taking is also to stabilise my mood which is has sorta done but I still get pretty bad mood swings so it might help that too as its a mood stabilizer, but the main reason I'm thinking is for suicidal thinking. I've just found a seroquel dosage I'd like to remain on so we wont be adjusting the seroquel which might help if we're gonna add a new med in, what experience has anyone got with lithium and suicidal thoughts?
Also might help with depression
sorry if i dont make any sense, im kinda in a weird state of mind, hopefully that makes enough sense
Seroquel "hangover" weaning off
My dr has been intent on getting me off of Seroquel. I was taking 200 mg and now I'm down to 25. I'm cutting the pills up about as small as I can. For those of you who've weaned off it, what was your last dose?
I take my meds at around 9pm. At 6 pm the next day, I start feeling dizzy and hung over. I know Seroquel has a half life of roughly 6 hrs, so that must be the point that it's nearly out of my system.
The dr has mostly left me to my own devices after giving me a rough guideline as to how to wean off. I've weaned off meds before. But for those of you who have gotten off it, do you think I'm better off just jumping off here? I don't know which would be worse... the "wear off" effect around noon every day, or going off it entirely.
Lithium carbonate withdrawal Seroquel
Okay this is my first forum posts. So please bear with me.
For or the last several years I have been on lithium 900mg and 1100mg broken in three doses.
I recently lost my insurance which covered the cost to be on there.
I've been withdrawaling for the last week and 2 day. (9 days total). I get the worst cold chills and feel super depressed and hopping not to spiral out of control when the maniac kicks in.
So my question is as follows...
Has as anyone else deal with this and how long did it last??
The longer I'm on medication, the less it seems to work
When i was first diagnosed 2007, the meds turned my life around with a week. Mostly because the Lunesta gave me a full night's rest for the first time in years and i finally gained some sanity. (Now I'm on Ambien, not Lunesta)
Now, my GP is telling me that even though i'm depressed most of the time, the meds are at full capacity. This is as good as it gets. He wants me to get into cognitive therapy, but i"ve gone that route with limited success. He increased my Seroquel but that triggered so much dizziness that i ended up in the ER. Back down to 400mg Seroquel.
I had a major set-back in early 2013. Went catatonic and was hospitalized for 3 weeks. No hospitalizations since that time, but I'm always worried that i could end up in the hospital again. I have never gone off meds even when i felt better. I have accepted that I have this disorder and will be on medication for life.
So what does one do when you felt like normal, functional person but slowly digressed into a dark place? I am so tired of battling this. I have days where the depression is lifted, but it always returns. And I'm so tired of not knowing from one day to the next how I will be. My life is really crappy right now.