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I don't know if this pertains to a particular diagnosis (like Bipolar), but perhaps it does? I am a Highly Sensitive Person (capitalized because I fit the official criteria in the book.) I am very sensitive to my environment and easily triggered, especially with any perceived stress. It's not just "big life stress" that can be justified, but little things also (ex: negative interactions with people, when things don't go my way, if I make a small mistake, bad news, argumentative or unfriendly people.) These sorts of things stick to me for a long time. I'm very affected and often brought to tears by these things, even after removing myself from the origin of stress. It really bothers me.
I can't seem to "CBT" my way out of it. A/Ds don't agree with me. It's an innate sensitivity that I cannot control. This "stress sensitivity" also runs in my close family, so partially genetic.
Is there a diagnosis for this? (I will also ask my pdoc) Do You think this is typically more related to Depression, Anxiety, or Bipolar mixed state or what? Are you extremely sensitive to stress & what is your initial reaction?
i just need advice/tips on what to do with my situation. recently, i saw a psychiatrist and had a mental health evaluation. i just described what goes on in my head (periods of deep depression and periods of elation and impulsiveness). she told me that it seemed like i had googled symptoms of BP and recited them to her, and that i'm not bipolar. (my family doctor, my medication prescriber thinks otherwise)
my first issue with her conclusion is that she stated sometimes antidepressants induce mania, and since i'm on one, i'm not bipolar. when i was 16 (i'm 20 now) i started prozac which honestly turned my life upside down for a few months. i was reckless, drinking to excess, experimenting with drugs, promiscuous behaviour, just overall impulsiveness that was very out of character for me. i was hospitalized partly for this (also for an ED). i explained this to her and she shrugged it off as a bad reaction to the prozac. anyways after a few "bad reactions" to other AD's i found one that didn't drive me crazy (ha ha), which is pristiq.
my second issue with her conclusion is that she recommended i start lamictal. i don't understand why she would suggest this if i'm "not bipolar" at all? i'm taking it now and titrating my way up to 200mg with the only side effect being wild dreams.
the reason a diagnosis is important to me is that i have trouble identifying emotions and understanding why i do the things i do, something i'm working on. a diagnosis would help me understand why sometimes i'm so depressed that i can't get out of bed, i sleep upwards of 12 hours daily, the usual "depression" stuff, and why sometimes my life is AWESOME and i'm so EXCITED and all i want to do is clean, buy everything and anything, and jump into casual relationships (flirtationships, if you will) that always end poorly.
of course i won't be going back to that psychiatrist, but i don't know what to do. i don't feel heard and i'm beginning to wonder if maybe nothing is wrong with me??? please help. i feel so lost and confused.
So the other day a friend of mine mentioned something about my ex.
We were in a toxic relationship (we were both bipolar) and she was on and off her meds and things were messy until I couldn't take it anymore and walked away.
I never felt more unstable in my life during that period of time and I just needed to get out.
And just mentioning her (this is after 2 years since i left) made me take a 180 --depression, mania, my mind felt like it was slowly eating away at itself.
Not only that, but I felt driven to her at that point.
I'm fine now, and completely understand why I left. & don't have any affection or feelings towards her.
Does anyone have similar triggers? How do you deal with them ?
I'd like to start by saying that I'm tapering off of Seroquel XR. I have a diagnosis of bipolar I, anxiety and panic disorders, and BPD. I'm down to 37.5 mg of Seroquel IR 2 times a day and originally I was on 600 mg ER for stability and 800 mg when manic. Just FYI: I was accidentally sent a 3 month supply of iR so since I'm tapering off, I switched to using it rather than paying for more XR. My taper was 1 week at 300 mg and 2 mg Abilify and then a week at 150 mg Seroquel and 5 mg of Abilify. That where I am now until this Wednesday when I'm supposed to keep the Seroquel as-is and up the Abilify to 10 mg. I'm not sleeping well at all even with Using either Ambien or Trazadone. My doc gave me both to try and get at least some sleep. Today I finally had a meltdown. Ive been trying too just keep my shut together with the bare minimum of leaving the house. I get up around 3 am and can't go back to sleep. I don't take more sleep medicines--should I? I'm so lonely until the dog gets up and I color. I fell apart largely because my husband puts too much pressure on me to do what he wants to do rather than leaving me alone. He doesn't realize how shitty I feel and how when he tries to push me too far it makes things so much worse. I don't like resting all day. I miss my normal activity level. However, if I don't put my foot down and tell my husband that I'm not going, he has no problem with me running myself ragged. I just don't understand why he can't just let me deal with how shitty I feel by just caring for our daughter (he's known this medicine change wasmcoming for a very long time) and not trying to include or guilt trip me into going out. In the past I've gotten really depressed and somewhat manic in situations like this. I wish I could just lock myself in a room until this is over! I'm so irritable and have days that are so long that I think about everything that's happened and feel like I can address all of them right now. I cried for a good hour or so and told him how badly I've been feeling. I thought it was obvious, apparently it isn't. I'm just trying to hold it together and not end up in the hospital like my pdoc has warned if things get too bad to manage at home. I think I just needed to vent more than anything. Ugh.
Ever since I started Lithium about 4 weeks ago, I developed something like a neck twitch where my head tenses up and spazzes, kind of like a little shake back and forth (I don't know what this is called). I don't know how noticeable/subtle it is but I feel like other people can notice it. It only happens when people say words that grab my attention for example if I hear someone say bipolar in my support group or at my job, my head does It. I was watching Homeland (female lead has BP and on lithium for anyone who isn't familiar with it) and she was talking about her Lithium and my head/neck did it, every time the word was said! This was very embarrassing because I was with my girlfriend.
I'm wondering if this has happened to anyone else or what it could be from? How did you fix it?! It makes me so anxious every time it happens and I'm scared that someone at my job or class will notice!!
PS- Since I have started Lithium, I have also been startled more easily (I am already a very easily startled person before). I also notice that my public speaking anxiety has risen- after I was just beginning to get it under control. My voice gets shaky and I feel like I can't talk when talking in front of people, which is much more severe than it was before.
I'm not sure if these 3 are related but I REALLY REALLY appreciate any input/experiences anyone can share!!