I don’t know really how to talk about this or describe what’s going on but lately I’ve been really depressed and just really low except for a few occasions but after that I slip back down into this depression. Often I get very stressed or anxious over multiple things or sometimes I’ll just be really upset or sad and I want to cry so bad but I can’t. I just really want to cry and I’m not trying to hold it back but something is and it’s such a difficult thing and I don’t know why it happens. I feel weird saying that I want to cry but it just feels so good but whenever I need to I can’t.
Just started Depakote 200 mg 5 days ago. Started getting really depressed and anxious on it right away and it’s only getting worse.
Anyone else experienced this? Does it get better with time? Thinking it might be a start-up side effect, but i worry it’s going to continue.
A lot of drugs in the same class have made me depressed in the past. Lamotrigine, lyrica, gabapentin, trileptal...
Not to minimize having bipolar disorder in any way. But..........wanna have some fun?
Just finish the sentence: You know your bipolar when...............
I will start and if no one plays I will play myself. I am like that.
You know your bipolar when.......you have been saying “I don’t know what I was thinking”your entire life. Like it should be a personal quote.
I mean a whole different personality. I am getting really frustrated in my relationship. I am hyper active by nature or maybe just busy. I dont sit much and have all kinds of things I want to do. I do these things, I finish these things and feel accomplished. Obviously when I am depressed it's a different matter.
That does not mean I am hypo. Hypo and Mania are on a whole different level compared to me struggling to sit still. However my hubs does not see it that way.
Seems most of my emotions are part of being bipolar in his opinion. Seems he feels like he is the victim of my behaviors. Its a crock of shit.
So we are in therapy and this is all showing through to the therapist. She has not done shit except validate that people are different on meds.
Like personalities are different. I guess I am different, not who he married. He blames my meds. We have therapy today. I am ready to flip out.
I mean what the hell does he want. Me manic, suicidal, depressed. Or me stable. Of course my meds make me different. They are making me well.
After an absolute horrid vacation with my spouse I basically said either you go or we go to counseling.. I also asked him to make the appointment cus her replies on me to do too much.
It appears I am different on meds, I am not who I was. I am bipolar so completely nuts at all time.
I am not. I am stable and he is an asshole.
So my ? is: have you done marriage counseling? did you find it worth while?
Any info surrounding this topic is appreciated.