This anger! I'm about to go crazy...

[Dusk]

I have been getting increasingly angry and today it's been very bad. I've been able to hold it in for the most part besides snapping at people a few times when they didn't deserve it. But I feel like I'm about to lose it. Not violently, I am never violent. I have the urge to SH because of the anger, to take it out on myself, and I haven't done that in a very long time.

 

How do you deal with the anger? Please I need some suggestions. I'm about to explode.

 

My brain is foggy and I can't think.

Edited March 7, 2013 by Dusk

[Phoenix_Rising]

I talk to myself and mutter a lot under my breath.

 

I also do deep breathing.

 

I listen to loud music and sing out my frustrations.

 

Exercise also helps, although I'm not good about following that advice.  Just going for a quick walk around the block can clear my head up somewhat.

 

I try to figure out if there is anything specific I'm angry about  it and, if so, what can I do right now to make a difference in how I feel.  

 

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, I know how rotten it is.  I hope you get some good suggestions.

[Dusk]

Thanks, the deep breathing is an especially good suggestion. Man I'm going nuts in my head. I read back over my post and realized I contradicted myself. I said I'm not violent then referred to SH, I guess I meant I'm not violent against other people.

[Dusk]

And my eyesight is blurred. It's happened before a couple of years ago. Well I don't know if it's really blurred or if it's just my perception. I can't tell.

Edited March 7, 2013 by Dusk

[Misty Moon]

I know it sounds pretty obvious but have you tried screaming it out into a pillow, when i get like that i scream untill i cry and i get so worn out i dont have the energy to be angry and wound up anymore.

[scatty]

Things that help me with anger/rage:

 

Practicing mindfulness.  Download some free mp3s and listen with headphones.

 

Meds:  Risperdal and lithium help a lot!

 

Acceptance and Commitment Therapy- just letting it be and not reacting to it- easier said than done!

 

Radical Acceptance- just accepting that other people are dickheads can sometimes help!

 

Exercise- going all out, even if just dancing to loud music can soothe sometimes.

 

Good luck- I hope you feel better soon!

[Dusk]

Thanks. I did try screaming into a pillow and I just did the deep breathing.

[scatty]

Good going, Dusk!  All us angry bitches are rooting for ya!

[hoko_onchi]

Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach is an awesome book. She has tons of breathing and meditation exercises, and it's a really nice and smooth read. I just found it soothing to read. I think I am going to reread it I liked it so much.

 

Yesterday I was so angry and wanted to hurt myself so badly. I went and did an angry painting instead. I'm no artist but I really like drawing and crap like that, and I like making angry abstract paintings or drawings when I am angry. I have three that I like from this week. You can get really angry with oil pastels in particular, I've found, and break the hell out of them, and they still work and color even if you break them. Also I go outside and scream.

 

Sorry you are having a bad time right now. This is some shitty shitty crap.

[Dusk]

Thanks for all the info and suggestions guys. I kinda calmed down but now I can't sleep. I wanna go for a drive but I've already taken my Ambien and that's not gonna happen.