As the title states, I am new here. I am 28 years old, and My girlfriend who I have recently moved in with recommended I give this board a go, as I am notoriously closed off when it comes to my feelings, etc when it comes to this sort of thing.
For most of my life, I was not a worrier. I remember my anxiety really started to surface my 2nd or 3rd year in college. To be totally honest, I spent many many years just drowning it out with whatever I could get my hands on. Mostly Marijuana, as I was never a big drinker ( havent had a drink in 8-9 years to this point). When I was younger, I have a bad car accident that fractured 4 of my vertebrae and was on painkillers for nearly 6 years before I couldn't take living prescription tp prescription and took myself out of pain management and looked for some different natural alternatives (currently Kratom manages my pain well enough).
For some reason, as of late, as ion the last year or so, my anxiety has gotten worse to the point where it is getting nearly uncontrollable, which it has not been to this point. I should mention that I was raised in a VERY, VERY conservative, old, southern household where "talking" about how you felt or feeling depressed/anxious was viewed as "nonsense", or a "weakness" so it was always extremely difficult, if not impossible to talk about that sort of thing if I was able to talk about it at all. In most cases, I simply just had to bury it and move on with my life and "just deal with it" as I was told by my parents, etc. I think it just gotten to the point where SO much anxiety had been allowed to fester and its just boiling over, no more room to bury more, as it were.
I have never had what I would describe as a "panic attack" in my first almost 25 years of my life. I had anxiety, sure but nothing really major in my estimation. Over the last few years, starting about 2 years back, I have started having what I THINK are panic attacks. I should go to the Dr. but as I mentioned, my upbringing has made it very difficult to convince myself that was something that I needed. Thankfully, my GF has convinced me to make an appointment to talk to a professional, but I have to wait almost 2 months to get in to see the person so was just looking for some tips in the meanwhile.
Most recently , I have been having awful bouts of thinking my slightest aches and pains are the worst case scenario. I have a sore throat or feel like I have a lump in my throat? My god, I have throat cancer/lymphoma. I was worrying so much every day that I developed some pretty rough chest pains, which OF COURSE I very intelligently self-diagnosed as a heart attack one night and had a FULL BLOWN panic attack, couldn't sit still, nausea, hard of breathing, hot and cold flashes, the works. And today in particular, I have just felt completely unmotivated and just in the dumps when I shouldn't be. I'm moving in with my GF full time next week, starting a new career, just graduated school, this SHOULD be an awesome time for me, but its the polar opposite and its just miserable. Things I would normally love to do don't interest me in the slightest (I just got a Nintendo Switch and its AWESOME when im in a good space) no matter how much i try on SOME days.
If anyone out there has had any similar symptoms, similar anxiety issues, is there anything that works for you at home that helps you calm down, keep things in perspective? I'm just looking for some tips to sort of tide me over until i see the Dr. Actually dealing with this is an ENTIRELY new territory for me, as is voicing how i feel whatsoever. Just looking for some advice/tips from folks who may have some more experience dealing with this sort of thing as compared to me.
Sorry for the really long post/long read and thanks for reading. Hope everyone has a great day/night and thanks.
Hello again friends. It has been a few years. I was HaloGirl66. Or IndyMode. I can't remember. But I re-registered because I couldn't recover my old user info.
I've had severe insomnia, ADHD, GAD & Migraines for years and am now going through a bipolar diagnosis.
So hello again.
Hello everyone! Where to begin...
I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder with some avoidant traits. I have been struggling with depression and anxiety since elementary school (I am 22 now).
Up til this point, I have been in and out of hospitals and treatment centers and passed around from therapist to therapist. I was heavily self- harming and abusing alcohol and other substances. A few months ago, I was sent to yet another center after a suicide attempt.
Let me tell you, it changed my life. I was introduced to DBT, which has truly saved me. I am finally on the correct medication which has seriously reduced, if not stopped, my horrid intrusive thoughts and paranoia. Before, I was to the point I could hardly get out of bed, and already had to drop out of college and leave my job. Now, I have rediscovered my love for art, I am waitressing (something I would have NEVER thought possible) and- best of all- my relationship with my fiance is SO much better and we are back to planning our wedding.
I am back to seeing a therapist regularly, and she is awesome. I've finally confronted issues with my toxic mother and am opening up about traumatic childhood experiences as well as working through family therapy with my father (and my mother, when he can convince her to join).
The fact is, life is GOOD, I am somewhere I thought I would never be and I am incredibly grateful. I'm back here to recieve support now that I am more stable and moving forward into uncharted territory in my life. Thanks for being here and reading.
I bought a bottle of CBD water soluble solution to help with anxiety, but I think I suffer more with depression currently. Any others out there trying just about anything for help? I'm even considering getting a medical marijuana card and some marijuana for my depression and lack of motivation here in Florida. The process isn't cheap though and I don't want to bother unless I can hear from some trusted folks that it can help. I am first trying the CBD oil since it is legal due to not containing any THC. I would be interested in a discussion on these topics. I am surprised these aren't already topics here. I am at my wits end trying to find a fucking AD that works.
I’ve been dealing with an episode of anxiety and depression since the beginning of January. Despite having had some similar episodes in the early 2000s, I was anxiety and depression free from 2008 until January.
I have increase my Paxil dose to 40mg (I was on 30mg for the last 10 years) and I’ve added Lamictal. Just gotten up to the 100 mg range 3 days ago, so hopefully I will balance out soon!
In my quest to feel better and get my life back on track, I started researching additional options and came across TMS. I had a consultation and managed to convince my insurance to cover 36 visits (yay!). I had my first visit to get set up on March 5th and then went on vacation. I felt quite a bit better throughout March so I decided to delay starting TMS. Unfortunately the anxiety and depression has returned.
I start TMS on Monday. They only had one appointment for me next week, though they said they’ll probably get some cancellations, but I’d love to hear from anyone who’s done this and who can share their experience. I’m not afraid of the treatment, just that it won’t help. Did you go 5 days a week? My doctor says between 2 and 3 days a week will have the same effect. I’ve read some stories on here, but they’re all a couple years old, so I’m hoping for some more recent accounts. Thank you in advance!!