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I actually managed to get a good night’s sleep. Feel kinda bright this morning, hoping it’ll last through the day. 

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1 hour ago, Rabbit37 said:

I actually managed to get a good night’s sleep. Feel kinda bright this morning, hoping it’ll last through the day. 

Yay! Me too! 8.5 hours straight!

have a great energetic day. 

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Excited!

slept straight through the night over 8 hours. 

Get my last check from my special needs trust for 476 bucks this morning just have to be oh so judicious with it!

And it’s my first day on vyvanse, and I’m thinking positive and I’m finally gonna get my apartment in order and scrubbed top to bottom! 

Yay!

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Relatively rested.  Ready to drink a ton of wine.

(we are going to the finger lakes area of NY to do a lot of wine tasting)

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3 hours ago, dancesintherain said:

Relatively rested.  Ready to drink a ton of wine.

(we are going to the finger lakes area of NY to do a lot of wine tasting)

Enjoy dances! Sounds fantastic! Take me with you? ;)

 

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Decent enough for now. We’ll see how the day treats me though. I usually deteriorate as the day goes on unfortunately. Nights are hard, I get most symptomatic at that time. But, hey, I’ve already showered today! That’s amazing in my book!

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pretty calm this morning, but there's butterflies in my stomach. i think it's preemptive nerves for my pdoc appt this afternoon.

@dancesintherain i grew up in wine country in canada! wine tasting is super fun. because i work at a winery in the summers i get to taste wherever i want for free because it counts as "industry research". pretty sweet deal. ;-)

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Elated!

Started Vyvanse this morning and I’ve had more motivation than I have in the past couple of years. 😀

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Just now, looking for answers said:

Have u tried any other stims

Yes. Vyvanse is the best by a long shot. For me. 

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Just now, looking for answers said:

Awesome glad it works! I may be taking that soon

Good luck. 👍🏻 

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@DammitJanet Congrats. What a drastic difference it seems. Did you just up the dosage? I have never found anything, or any combo that made me feel like that kind of improvement. What were your experiences on ritalin (I can only get this so far) ... or adderall? I wonder if Vyvanse is easier to get that those? Stims are super regulated in EU, a real pain for those that it helps.

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Just now, Blahblah said:

@DammitJanet Congrats. What a drastic difference it seems. Did you just up the dosage? I have never found anything, or any combo that made me feel like that kind of improvement. What were your experiences on ritalin (I can only get this so far) ... or adderall? I wonder if Vyvanse is easier to get that those? It is super regulated in EU, a real pain for those that it helps.

I was on Adderall. Was on 15 mg 3x a day. It’s possible the dose may need to go down just a tad, we’ll see! It’s definitely helping my BED. Adderall I was much more irritable and not near as much motivation. I actually did everything today without grumbling like I normally do! It should be easier to get just because it’s less addictive but who knows?

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feeling hopeful. saw pdoc. we're bringing effexor back to 225 to try and make me less tired. decided that the recent stress has been environmental.

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Trepidation. 

Feeling a sleepless night coming on. 

And a little freaked. Have developed tardive dyskinesia in my tongue and I’m not sure which med is causing it and scared it’s there forever. 

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Bad. Very bad. Complete mindfuck today, cleaning out husband’s room. The only person in the world I could talk to about it is my tdoc, he doesn’t work on Fridays, so I have a Monday appt. 

i cant fall apart, I’m trying to stay normal around people in my life, especially my kids. But I just want to vomit, endlessly. 

 

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