Laptopdancer

A funny anxious couple moment

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So I've got anxiety, PTSD, and bipolar disorder. My husband is one of the most anxious people I've ever met. 

So today we decided to run some errands and we were going to take his car. I needed to grab something out of my truck. I locked the truck, then locked it again when I got in my husband's car. It makes a beep sound and the lights flash when I press lock on my key fob. My husband then asked if I was sure the truck was locked. I said yes...then I think so, and I hit lock on my keychain again. I heard the beep and said that it was definitely locked.  My husband throws the car in reverse and says,"But I didn't hear it lock and I also didn't see the lights flash." He stops and locks my truck one more time. 

It's amazing we are able to get anywhere!

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